When Ye Ming went to Qingquan Hotel to look for Chen Yi, Chen Yi was sitting on the guest bed in Room 812 of "Qingyang Hotel", with the quilt covering her waist, her knees bent, her hands around her knees, her brows furrowed, her eyes Looking straight ahead, I was falling into the painful and helpless longing for Ye Ming...
Ever since she learned that someone had written a letter to complain to the provincial bureau, saying that Ye Ming had an affair with her, she fell into a state of panic and despair. At the same time, she kept thinking of one sentence over and over in her mind: " If you don’t want others to know, you have to do nothing unless you do it yourself!”
Yes, this is definitely a wise saying!
Originally, she had always thought that the matter between herself and Ye Ming should be unnoticed. Usually, when she saw Ye Ming at work, she never showed any affectionate or ambiguous expressions, always with a calm expression. It seems that they are still the same as before, and they just have an ordinary relationship as colleagues.
However, she never expected that someone in the bureau would start to doubt her relationship with Ye Ming, and they would write a complaint to slander Ye Ming, and even report it to the Provincial Bureau's Supervision Office...
Therefore, she felt that this was simply God's will: it was God who did not allow her to be with Ye Ming, it was God who did not allow her to have a sincere and unforgettable love - because she was a person with a family and a husband. Before divorcing Li Zhi, in order to taste the soul-crushing lust, he abandoned his sense of morality and shame, abandoned the concept of chastity that he had always believed in and adhered to, and had sex with Ye Zhi many times. This is a shameless depravity, a debauched behavior that should be condemned and punished.
Therefore, God became angry and began to warn himself: If he did not rein in the situation, one day, the affairs between himself and Ye Ming would be exposed, and they would be accused by thousands of people and reviled by thousands of people. From then on, both of them would be ruined. I will never be able to get rid of my reputation as a slut...
And that inexplicable letter of complaint was a warning from God to himself and Ye Ming...
She loved Ye Ming so much that she almost lost her nature and self.
And now, Ye Ming has just embarked on his official career and is preparing to make great achievements. If his ambiguous relationship with him is discovered at this time, his bright future will probably be ruined.
Therefore, even considering Ye Ming's future, I should bear the pain and break up with him as soon as possible. If I wait until someone finds out before I think about breaking up, it will be like "the horse is too late to rein in the cliff, and the boat is too late to make up for the leak in the middle of the river", which will no longer help. …
What's more, now there is Chen Mengqi beside Ye Ming.
It can be seen that this wealthy daughter's feelings for Ye Ming are definitely no less than hers - during that period, almost every afternoon after work, she would see Chen Mengqi driving her fiery red Porsche to pick up Ye Ming. After seeing Ye Ming, she didn't care that many cadres in the bureau were looking at them. She was very affectionate and happy. She took Ye Ming's hand and pulled him into her car. Then she blew the horn and left. And go...
Every time she saw this scene, she felt that her heart was very blocked and sour: This girl is so happy! She can be generous and make out with Ye Ming in public without any scruples, and she can act like a girlfriend I follow Ye Ming everywhere and show off to others: I am Ye Ming’s girlfriend!
And what about myself? Although she and Ye Ming fall in love with each other, they can only engage in underground activities behind others' backs. In addition to being intimate in bed, the two of them can be intimate with each other without any scruples. On other occasions, even if they miss each other or are impulsive,
I can only control myself with courtesy, keep a distance, and even pretend to be indifferent...
Moreover, every time she saw the young, beautiful and energetic Chen Mengqi, she would feel ashamed and even narcissistic and self-pitying: an outstanding boy like Ye Ming should be matched with a young and beautiful girl like Chen Mengqi.
Child. As for me, I am already old and have faded away. I should not pester Ye Ming anymore, but should bless him and Chen Mengqi...
Under the control of such complex and painful contradictory emotions, that night, she sent the long message to Ye Ming in tears, asking him to break up...
She is a woman with a strong heart and extraordinary endurance. After sending out the breakup message, even though she was in pain as if there were hundreds of bugs biting her internal organs, and she had insomnia all night long.
.However, she resisted not answering Ye Ming's call, not wanting to give herself any chance to regret it - because she knew very well that in her current state, as long as Ye Ming said a few emotional words on the phone
If you ask her a few words, or beg her not to break up, her inner belief will definitely collapse, and she can’t wait to throw herself into his warm and generous embrace again...
At the same time, in order to prevent Ye Ming from finding her again, she also moved out of Qingquan Hotel and lived in the "Qingyang Hotel" in the opposite direction to Qingquan Hotel...
She has always been very confident in her inner strength and strong self-control. Therefore, she felt that as long as she made up her mind, she should be able to gradually overcome the pain of her unforgettable longing for Ye Ming, and slowly recover from this time bomb.
Coming out of the same dangerous feelings.
However, just two days later, she felt that she could no longer hold it any longer: every time she sat in the office, she could not help but look at the desk opposite where Ye Ming was sitting, and at the same time, she would also think about it in her mind.
Ye Ming's handsome figure and gentle and friendly smile emerged, and her ears would often hear Ye Ming's voice calling her "Sister Chen Yi" and his happy and hearty smile...
Several times, she was in a trance, as if she felt that Ye Ming was really sitting across from her, and she actually shouted out the words "Little Leaf"...
What's especially scary is that she has insomnia almost all night. Sometimes she finally closes her eyes and falls asleep, and in her dreams she dreams of Ye Ming. The two of them are hugging each other tightly, kissing each other, and can't wait to give each other love.
The other party takes off his clothes, and then the two of them become entangled...
Every time she woke up from such a dream, she would be extremely sad and disappointed, with tears rolling down her slightly pale and haggard face like broken beads...
After suffering like this for a day or two, she felt that she couldn't bear it anymore, and struggled to find an excuse for herself: within two days, as long as Ye Ming, who was in the provincial capital, sent a message to her, saying that he was unwilling to break up, saying
He still loves himself as much as before, so even if he has to go to the eighteen levels of hell in the future and undergo tortures such as knives, mountains, fire, altitude, tongue cramps, etc., he will not hesitate to throw himself into his arms and be a brave man.