Later, she learned from Butler Zhang that he was always alone when he followed her. He was afraid of being discovered by her and drove away all the bodyguards. That time, he was seriously injured, but she left him alone.
He ran away on his own.
"Two years ago, you ran to Arans regardless, and ended up with bruises all over your body. Even if it was just to avoid me, there was no need for you to do that to yourself."
His voice was cold and light, but there was sadness that could not be concealed. He knew, always knew, that she regarded him as a burden, and she had always tried her best to avoid him.
"Even now, why do you have to come to Wuzhou? Why do you insist on living alone and being with me? Is it so unbearable for you? Don't you know how much your willfulness makes me feel distressed? Qin You'er, you
It’s always like this, thinking that what you do is right and good for others, and you never care about other people’s feelings.”
Once the emotion was vented, it was like a flood that broke through the embankment and was out of control. He looked at her, looked at her silence, and looked at her tears already flowing down her cheeks.
My heart ached with thorns, as if there were ants gnawing at me, one, two, and then more and more.
"No, Huangfu Ming, I didn't want to avoid you on purpose, but why are you so nice to me, why? Your kindness makes me feel so despicable and shameless, accepting things from you like that, but getting nothing.
I can’t pay it back.”
You'er cried loudly, her voice broken. She couldn't face him like that. How could she accept the warmth of others calmly, but in the end hurt others? She couldn't stand this kind of herself.
"I don't want anything from you in return, I just want to be nice to you."
Huangfuming stretched out his hand in panic to wipe away her tears, but found that the more he wiped, the more he wiped her tears, as if the river was overflowing and could not stop it no matter what.
"But I don't want it, I can't afford it, you know? I am a very selfish person. I can't respond to your affection. I will feel guilty and sad, so I try my best not to let myself
I won’t let you have the chance to make me feel guilty when I see you, but why do you keep showing up in front of me again and again, why?”
You'er shouted hysterically, why is it like this? Is there any room for recovery when things become like this? Huangfu Ming, I'm sorry, I just regard you as a relative, or even as an existence beyond a relative. You and grandpa are both
Yes, I didn't want you to get hurt, but in the end, I still became an executioner.
"I'm sorry, I never thought that what I did would cause you so much trouble. Your son, if my love makes you feel depressed and becomes a burden to you, I can let it go. I can watch it from a distance.
I’m keeping you company and won’t disturb you.”
After a while, Huangfu Ming hugged her gently and whispered in her ear. His voice was so calm that it made your heart tremble.
The heart has been gnawed out with blood. It is all over the place and all over the body. The painful feeling makes people unable to breathe.