And I carry out that cruel task day after day, year after year.
The sadness revealed is the loneliness I hide in my heart.
"What's wrong?"
A worried question came to my ears. I retracted my thoughts and did not answer, just not to let myself lose my composure.
"My lord, is something wrong?"
He asked coldly, just wanting to issue an eviction order and let him leave as soon as possible.
"If I say it's okay, will you drive me away?"
As if he knew what I was thinking, he spoke so bluntly that I felt a little unable to speak.
"yes."
After hesitating again and again, regardless of whether I offended him or not, I answered.
I want him to leave, this is the truest thought in my heart.
"I will sit down for a while and then leave."
He was not angry, he just smiled sadly and spoke leisurely and measured words.
I glanced at him, and my eyes were attracted by the gloom suddenly revealed on his handsome face.
He concealed it very quickly, as if he didn't want people to see the other side of his heart. He still smiled on his handsome face, but he could no longer let me feel the naturalness without impurities.
Everyone cannot live without worries!
They seem carefree, but in fact they are lonely inside. Only children who are not yet sensible are truly innocent.
Ouyang Shaorong stayed for a while, drank all the tea made by Green Cherry, and then left.
During this period, he didn't say a word to me. He just said when he left: "I will come over to see you when I have time."
I didn't answer or send him off, letting him leave alone.
Looking at his lonely back when he left, I couldn't help but think: I fell in love with someone who can't love, so why is it so painful?
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I stayed in the palace for another two days. Every afternoon during these two days, I would go to the temple and kneel for an hour or two. This was what Ouyang Shaoqing said when he left me in the palace to wash away the dirt on my body.
Every time, I feel that the knees I kneel on Naputuo are going to break. I feel that kneeling is a very painful thing.
But since I stay in the palace, I have to do this, and I am happy to do so, as long as I can leave quickly.
The temple was filled with the smell of spices. I didn't get used to it at first, but I got used to it after two days.
I have never seen the so-called high priest, and I have never been curious about who he is.