But he didn't know that his words gave me the slightest hope.
What he means is, can I really get out of here? Even if he doesn't let me out, can I get out on my own one day? As long as I find the exit, right?
I don't know, I just hold on to hope in confusion.
In the past five years, I have thought a lot, everything about Dongfang Ao, Dongfang Luo, Lian Yu, and many, many people.
The peace at this moment is what I dream of, but there is still someone I miss in my heart, and the person I miss is not enjoying such peace without disputes with me.
I want to go out so much, go out and see my Lian Yu, see him.
We haven’t seen each other for five years. Dongfang Luo, is he going crazy looking for me?
How could a man who loves me so much bear the thought of losing me with his own hands?
"In the past five years, have you never had any doubts in your mind?"
"What are you worried about?"
I looked at Yelvlou in confusion and asked, not knowing what he meant.
But he only saw him smiling and saying: "That day, you were hiding behind the rockery and heard the conversation between Concubine Jing and a man. Aren't you curious about who that man was?"
Suddenly, I understood something, but I just chuckled.
"You really have nothing to say. It's been five years since that incident. You might have been curious at the time, but why are you still curious now? That's not a very important thing, is it?"
"Don't you hate her for trying to harm you?"
"There are so many people who want to harm me, can I hate them enough?"
Who doesn't hate me? Even Yu Niang, who has been by my side all the time, hates me, but she didn't touch me just because of Dongfang Ao's order.
If she wants to touch me, this is the last thing I can do to stop her, right?
"Why do you look at everything so indifferently? Isn't there anyone in this world who makes your heart palpitate?"
I just smiled and said nothing, and he continued to ask tentatively: "Don't you even miss Dongfang Luo?"
When I heard Yelulou talking about many things, I acted calmly because they were really irrelevant, but when he mentioned Dongfang Luo, my heart inevitably tightened.
How much I want to know whether he is doing well, whether he has lost weight, whether he——
I want to know everything about him and how much I miss that man.
"Dongfang Ao doesn't know what he's thinking. He has two sons under his knees. One is favored and the other is not. The favored eldest prince has been newly crowned as the crown prince, and the other one is living a non-existent life in the cold palace. Look at me
, I have a large group of children in my harem, how prosperous and happy I am. Dongfang Ao must be sick and will definitely die."
Yelulou suddenly changed the topic. I knew that he already understood Dongfang Luo's place in my heart and didn't want to mention too much about Dongfang Luo, so he talked nonsense about Dongfang Ao.
But he doesn't know that Dongfang Ao is also a man who can make my heart palpitate.
"Did Lian Yu become the prince?"
Lian Yu is Dongfang Ao's first son, which is inevitable, but he also has another son, but I don't know about it.
When I heard Yelulou mention it, I didn't think much about it. My heart was full of Lian Yu.
"You call me so affectionate, but I'm not your son."
What Yelvlou said made me stunned for a moment.
What does it mean that Lian Yu is not my son? Isn’t he very clear about my investigation? Shouldn’t he know that Lian Yu is my son?