It was her, it was her who was useless. She failed to save her sister, but could only watch her die under the enemy's sword. Yan Luochen howled and cried.
Kneeling on the ground, she now realizes how weak she is. She is far from being as strong as she appears.
She now has no confidence to fight against the Qing court.
As soon as he picks up the sword, his sister's face of pain and despair will appear in front of his eyes. He covers his face tightly,
I want to drive this nightmare away from my eyes, but more and more bloody scenes appear in front of my eyes.
The corpses of his father and those Jungar soldiers appeared in front of him, "No. No." Yan Luochen closed his eyes in pain.
She had not yet completely come out of the painful memories, looking at Yan Luochen who was kneeling on the ground in pain,
Li Xiaoran couldn't help but shook her head helplessly. Ever since she saw those Jungar people, her mood has been unstable.
She would scream in shock every day. Sometimes she would hit the wall in pain and cover her brain, trying to put away the pain.
She tried to get rid of all the bloody memories, but she found that it was useless because she could not forget those horrific scenes.
The deaths of her sister and father have already devastated her. No, if she continues like this, she will die sooner or later.
Li Xiaoran's cold eyes flashed, she would never allow such a thing to happen. She seemed to see herself in her body back then.
Because she was betrayed by Leng Yuetian. The pain of seeing the man she loved killing herself for another woman made her even more uncomfortable.
But didn't she survive it? "Listen to me. Yan Luochen, you must forget what happened in the past.
Otherwise you will always be immersed in the past and never be able to get out of it."
"Li Xiaoran, you are not me. You don't know my pain. You didn't just watch your sister being insulted.
But you can only watch from the side. I am useless, I am useless, I am a useless person, God, why do you let me live?
The person I would rather die is me. Why do all my relatives leave me? Whatever they did wrong, it is all my fault.
Why wasn’t I the one who died?”
"You will only make your enemies laugh and your loved ones in pain if you give up on yourself like this. Have you forgotten your clansmen?
They are still waiting for you to take charge of the overall situation, but you don't dare to face them, but you are giving up on yourself here. You are not worthy of being my apprentice, Li Xiaoran.
Get out of here, get out of here."
Hearing Li Xiaoran's words, Yan Luochen closed her eyes in pain. Yes, she was not worthy of being Li Xiaoran's apprentice.
She is even more unworthy of being the sun never sets in the minds of the Junger people. She is a useless person who will only bring disaster to her relatives.
Yan Luochen stumbled out of the cave and looked at the abyss. He really wanted to fall down and die.
From modern times to ancient times, nothing she has encountered has been as big a blow to her as this time, but she has already died once.
She couldn't die anymore. She still remembered that when she first came to this other world, she once swore secretly,
We must create our own world in this other world. Now that I am so cowardly,
She gives up on herself when encountering the slightest thing. Even the murderer of my sister is not dead yet. How could she die? These beasts are not dead.
How could she commit suicide? How could she, Yan Luochen, be such a coward?
People say that ants only live a humble life, let alone a living person. Thinking of this, Yan Luochen gave up the idea of committing suicide.
When she was about to turn around, she saw Li Xiaoran standing quietly behind her, watching her vent, watching her turn around,