I looked at Huang Yiyi's crying face, and suddenly, I felt really tired, very tired, and an inexplicable fatigue swept through my body.
I am also ashamed at the same time, really ashamed. Huang Yiyi has been with me for so long. How many times has she cried for me? Am I really incompetent? I always make the women who follow me cry bitterly.
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I held Huang Yiyi's face and said affectionately, "Dear Yiyi, you ask me who you are, and I tell you that you are the most important person to me and the person I love most, but I cannot
Put all your focus only on you, I have other people who need my care and protection."
I said and paused for a moment. Huang Yiyi's tears were still flowing freely. My words seemed to stimulate her. She gritted her teeth and held back, not speaking.
I then continued, "Dear, I really don't want to lose you for them, and I don't want to lose them for you. If I were forced to choose, you know, I would definitely choose you and abandon them, but, like this
, even if I am with you, I am not happy. In order for me to study hard with you, you have kept me away from my younger brothers. Many of them have already followed Xu Hongyang. I feel very sad about this.
"
This is what I have always wanted to say to Huang Yiyi, and I have been suppressing it. I want to go to the end with Huang Yiyi, but I don’t want to lose a lot of people just because I want to go to the end with her.
Perhaps, it is simply impossible to have your cake and eat it too.
Huang Yiyi shed tears and just listened to what I said. She just listened and didn't speak.
I feel that I am really under a lot of pressure these days, and I have accumulated a lot of depression in my heart for a long time. Thinking of what happened to Zhang Miaomiao, I feel sad and regretful. I feel really sorry for Zhang Miaomiao, I am really sorry.
I said angrily, "Yiyi, it's because of you that in order to be able to be with you, I almost cut off contact with Zhang Miaomiao. I admit that I did this on my own initiative, but if it weren't for fear of you, if I wasn't afraid
If I lose you, I can completely ignore Zhang Miaomiao. I think if I talk to Zhang Miaomiao properly, she will definitely be able to think of many things. However, because I have to consider you, I have to worry about it when talking to Zhang Miaomiao.
I even have to deliberately stay away from her. Because of you, I have to consider your feelings. This makes me really tired."
I don't know why I said this. As soon as I said it, I felt regret, deep regret, because I really shouldn't push these things onto Huang Yiyi.
"Haha, haha, you actually said that." A sneer appeared on Huang Yiyi's face, and she said coldly with tears on her face, "Zhuge Xingliang, don't you think you are very selfish? These things about you
The words really hurt me. Let’s not talk about anything else. Just talking about Zhang Miaomiao, did I tell you not to talk to her? Reflect on it yourself. You blame everything on me. You
How selfish it is."
Huang Yiyi said, suddenly pushed my hand away, turned around, and ignored me.
Selfish, ha, yes, I am indeed very selfish. In order to be with Huang Yiyi, I resolutely ignored Zhang Miaomiao. I felt guilty, but I excused myself, saying that it was because of Huang Yiyi that I didn’t go to Zhang Miaomiao. In fact,
Huang Yiyi really never cared about it, nor did she say anything. It was me, it was my selfishness, I was afraid that Zhang Miaomiao would get involved with me, and I was afraid of losing Huang Yiyi.
Yes, I am selfish, I am very selfish.
That day, we didn't kiss goodbye for the first time. She left sadly and ran into the night. I didn't chase her, I just stood there stupidly, my heart was like a tortoise exposed to the sun in the desert.
crack.
Huang Yiyi, how could you leave me alone and leave? How could you?