A few words about my hypocrisy and asking for a monthly pass
Let’s chat a few words about my pretentiousness and asking for monthly votes
In my impression, in the past two months, there have been a lot of invoices issued, all of them are leave invoices.
To be honest, even though I was mentally prepared, I knew that adding a baby would be very busy and chaotic, but I still didn’t expect that it would be so busy and chaotic. But it must be said, I am busy and happy, but sometimes I feel upset.
But I couldn't help but laugh again for a moment or three. I couldn't help it, the little kid just has this ability.
Since you are happy, there is no need to complain about being "busy". It's just a pity that a lot of time is taken up, and the updates have become unstable and few in number. I'm sorry to my readers.
I started writing books in 2008, and it took me more than five years to write the fifth book. When I was reading the first book, I was confused. I just thought it was fun and had no other ideas. But when it came to the second book, "The Fairy Is Poisonous"
, I discovered one thing: readers are very simple.
Readers who like a book or a story will also have a good impression of the author. They will regard the author as a friend. They will hope that the story they like will have better results, and they will hope that the author who wrote the story will have better results. I
I don’t know how to explain this clearly, how to explain the simplicity of the readers, but I really think this is very rare, and it often moves me.
Writing a book, publishing it, putting it on the shelf, and paying VIPs to read it, in this process, no matter how many interest factors there are, it is still fundamentally a business activity.
Then in this business activity, I am nothing.
My value is all there, and only in the book. Once the book has value and price, I am nothing. But what actually happened, what you gave me, has long been beyond the scope of the book, and I still don’t know how to say it.
, I can’t explain it no matter what.
Besides being grateful, all I can do is write a good story.
I know my own things. I am a relatively hypocritical author. My style of writing is the same as my behavior. I won’t mention the story here, just talk about me.
When I'm typing, I must have cigarettes and tea. I can't be disturbed when I'm working, but I don't like to write quietly, so I need music. Usually there are no lyrics. I prefer movie soundtracks, and the violin is also very good.
I like it, but I don’t like classical music, and I enjoy electronic music more. The music must be in lossless format, and the headphones and amps are not audiophile-level. It’s barely passable. I’m a person who can’t even write a word. I’m in the process of writing a story.
How can you not be hypocritical?
Hypocrisy also has a process:
At the beginning, the most important thing was 'feeling'. If I felt irritated or uncomfortable writing, I would ask for leave without even thinking about it. I didn't feel it and couldn't write well. I was very confident. No one scolded me at that time. On the contrary, many people
The readers were very considerate, leaving messages of encouragement and asking me to adjust properly without rushing to update. I also thought this was natural. Later I realized that this understanding is really precious. They treat me as a friend. They don’t care that they are consumers.
What I'm talking about is love.
I am so ashamed and ashamed that the only thing I have to say is: I'm sorry.
Is it true that you can’t write words if you don’t feel it?
The third book that touched me more was "Moving Mountains". This book cost me a lot of energy, but the results at that time were not proportional to the effort. Things have always been like this: I did it, but I didn't get recognition.
,disappointment.
I was disappointed. Naturally I didn’t feel anything when I was typing. I had to write again without feeling anything. It was really depressing for me. I was so depressed that I felt upset and angry. I ignored my grades and just let go of writing my favorite stories.
It sounds simple, but in fact it's basically bullshit. I may be so awesome that I don't care about income, but I have to admit that readers' reactions are very important to me and are fatal to the book.
Is the eunuch going to move mountains, or should I press my head and write in frustration? This was indeed a problem for me at the time.
Fortunately, it may be that I have used too much energy in the past and I can’t let go of the eunuch, so I just hold my head down and write with restraint. Guess what? I really hold my head down and I don’t feel restrained when I write.
To be a bitch is to be pretentious. On the other hand, Douzi is too pretentious. I really have to hold back and force myself to write hard. The feeling comes quickly and I get high as I write. This is Douzi a bitch.
I am so cheap that I am very happy.
Two and a half million words of "Moving Mountains" has a beginning and an end, and the big holes are filled. I feel very comfortable, and I still feel comfortable thinking about it now.
In the last two books, Live Color Sheng Xiao and Sheng Xie, especially Sheng Xie before giving birth to a child, it is not impossible to ask for leave, but it is much less than the previous books. Even if I feel that I am not in a good state and I am impatient.
, I will still force myself to write. If I force myself ten times, I will succeed at least six or seven times. The more I write, the more comfortable I feel, and I enjoy it.
This feeling is especially obvious after having a baby.
The child is sick, the mother is sick, and I am sick. There is nothing to say about the objective factors. There are only twenty-four hours in a day, and there is nothing I can do. I can only explain the reasons to you and apologize sincerely.
But to be honest, the last two months have been the worst I have updated in the past two years, and they have also been the hardest time I have pushed myself since I started coding.
I was very tired. I thought I had to take leave, but if I didn’t force myself, I wouldn’t know if I really had to take leave.
There have been several times when I felt that I didn't have enough energy. I had already written the leave request, but in the end I deleted it. It was useless. My friend wrote an update, and he didn't write it while pinching his nose!
It’s not that there weren’t chapters that I wrote while holding my nose, but I deleted them because I didn’t want you to read them while holding your nose. Sometimes I would do useless work, and I would write it out and destroy it without publishing it, but I still had to write it, and I wouldn’t know if I didn’t write it.
Can I write well, write smoothly, and write hi.
It’s not that there were times when I asked for leave and interrupted updates because I couldn’t feel it, but before I actually asked for leave, I and I struggled for a long time.
As the old saying goes: If you don't go crazy, you can't live. If you don't push yourself, you won't go crazy in your life.
Asking for leave after a break is not a big deal, but no matter what the reason is for breaking the watch, it's all Douzi who owes you, and it's all Douzi who failed to do his job. I earned this money and ate this bowl of rice.
, I have an obligation to update the story of Sheng Xie within the time I promised. When I failed to do so, I sincerely apologize.
I don’t like to apologize, and I don’t like to owe debts to people who have been kind to me. That’s it. The rise of evil is still very long, and the story is less than half. I look forward to giving you a surprise!
Updates have not been good recently, and there have been no outbreaks, but this is not the end of the matter, you guys will wait for me.
I just looked at it and the September update is about 150,000 to 160,000.
There are two goals for October. Two updates every day, and then pay off the debt owed to the leader of the league.
Finally, your Douzi brother has become a father. Please give me a monthly ticket~~~~~~~
Well, that's all. It's so wordy and incoherent. Thank you for reading it.