If she hadn't met Gu Lingyun this time, maybe she would have given birth to her unborn child alone.
However...
Finally we met.
Perhaps, this is God's reminder to wake her up.
There are some things that she shouldn't have the final say on her own.
And when she revealed the secret deep in her heart, no matter how Gu Lingyun would react, her heart breathed a long sigh of relief.
It's really not easy to live a life burdened with huge secrets.
Every day it seems like I am being pressed down by a big stone, and even my breathing is not smooth.
When she said those words, the big rock finally disappeared.
No matter what happens next, she will accept it calmly...
Little did he know that the big stone weighing on Xiao Ling'er's heart did not disappear, but moved to Gu Lingyun.
"..." He was petrified at that time.
He even thought he heard it wrong, so he asked in disbelief, "Are you...really pregnant?"
Xiao Linger nodded.
Even though she was extremely shocked when she first learned the news.
It was just that one time, how could it be such a coincidence?
"You, don't be nervous. I'm telling you, I don't want you to be responsible for me. I just think... you are also the father of the child. I shouldn't make such a selfish decision on my own. Besides, if you marry your cousin in the future, we...
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Xiao Ling'er spoke very slowly.
These words were spoken not only to Gu Lingyun, but also to herself.
She had put off things that she should have thought about clearly long ago.
If she hadn't calmed down for the past few months, stayed away from her family, and reunited with Gu Lingyun in a foreign country, she might not have figured it out yet.
At this moment, Gu Lingyun was completely shocked and couldn't say a word.
His eyes unconsciously looked towards Xiao Ling'er's belly...
There, it seemed to be covered by a large coat, and nothing strange could be seen at all.
But is it this unusual place that is giving birth to his child at this moment?
For a moment, Gu Lingyun was completely stunned, not knowing how to react.
The Gu family has a very good relationship, and Gu Lingyun also grew up watching his parents' love.
When he was very young, he felt that a family must have at least three people to be complete. He also asked his mother a question that children all over the world would ask, where did he come from...
His mother told him that he was born because his father and mother loved each other.
From that time on, he knew that children are the fruit of parents' love.
After growing up, I naturally thought that I would give birth to the child of their love with my beloved woman in the future.
But I never thought that my first child would come like this...
How does it feel to be pregnant with your own child by a woman you don't love at all?
I can't say I'm happy, my first reaction is even resistance.
Xiao Ling'er is pregnant with his own child, which means that he has to be responsible for Xiao Ling'er.
In this way, it will no longer be possible for him and Xiao Muyu...
"You..." Gu Lingyun opened his mouth, but still no word came out.
Xiao Ling'er knew his dilemma and continued, "I don't want to have an abortion. If possible, I would like to give birth to this child. Don't worry, I will never return to China again in this life, and I will not disturb you and your cousin."
"
This was her idea, and she knew it was childish, but what could she do?
The child already exists, and she would never bear to have an abortion.
But she didn't want to be a stumbling block between Gu Lingyun and her cousin.
As time passed by, Gu Lingyun felt very confused as he listened to these words.
"Wait a minute." Gu Lingyun quickly raised his hand to interrupt her, frowning tightly, "Please tell me to slow down."
When he heard such shocking news, he thought he was dreaming...
Xiao Ling'er didn't say anything anymore, she just lowered her head and caressed her belly.
There is only a slight bulge there, but it also means that the little life is working hard to grow.
She couldn't help but want this child...
Gu Lingyun was sitting at the table like this, and all the water that he hadn't drunk at first suddenly dried up in one breath.
Xiao Ling'er felt very sorry in her heart.
If she hadn't been so stupid at the beginning, maybe so many things wouldn't have happened at all.
Gu Lingyun had no choice but to keep facing Xiao Ling'er like this. He only sat there for a while, then got up and left.
After coming out of Xiao Ling'er's house, he drove forward.
It was getting dark, and there were fewer and fewer cars on the road. He drove like this for who knows how long. Finally, when he was tired, he found a secluded street corner and stopped the car.
The car window was lowered, and he took out a cigarette and lit it.
Taking a deep breath, when the familiar smell passed through the heart and lungs and reached the most peripheral nerves, the tense emotions slowly relaxed.
What echoed in my mind were Xiao Ling'er's words just now: I am pregnant with your child.
When she said this, there were tears in her eyes, and her thin shoulders were trembling slightly.
That pitiful look can never be gone away...
With a long sigh, Gu Lingyun closed his eyes.
With the existence of this child, everything is different.
It was as if God was reminding him of what happened that night...
But he also knew that the person he really liked deep down in his heart was Xiao Muyu.
If I hadn't mistakenly thought that Xiao Ling'er was Xiao Muyu that night, how could I have done so?
Who can tell clearly...
The arrangement of fate can be so cruel sometimes!
In silence like this, I finished my cigarette quickly, then started the second one, the third one...
Until a certain moment, he took out his mobile phone, clicked on Xiao Muyu's WeChat dialog box, and just stared at her profile picture and name in a daze.
The screen went off and then on again.
This goes back and forth, never getting tired of it.
I have often heard people say that not being able to love is the normal state of life...
He always doesn't believe it.
Now, when I think of this sentence again, all I have left is a wry smile.
People in the world will not deceive me.
At this moment, a white father and daughter suddenly walked over on the sidewalk in front of them.
The father was holding something in both hands, and his daughter, who was about three or four years old, followed him obediently.
"Dad, why do we have to go home so late?" The girl has a cute voice, big eyes and a small mouth, and she looks exactly like a Barbie doll.
The father said rather mysteriously, "Mom thought we weren't going back tonight, so we had to go back to give her a surprise!"
"Wow, so romantic!" The girl's eyes widened, looking surprised and expectant.
Maybe it was because the little girl's expression was so vivid, or maybe because she was surprised that such a young child understood the meaning of romance, Gu Lingyun couldn't help but be amused.
The depression just now seemed to have been diluted a little.
It seems to be good to have a child...
Unfortunately, when the father and daughter walked further and further away, the conversation gradually disappeared, and the silence around them filled up again, the loneliness deep in Gu Lingyun's heart was even stronger than before...