Ning Que looked at the fist mark on the tree and asked, "What's wrong?"
Sangsang said nothing and walked back to the courtyard with her hands behind her back, and he followed her.
It was slightly cold in early spring, and the tree in the yard still didn't produce many branches and leaves. She walked under the tree, looked at the trembling cold branches and said, "If it's not the case, then you let me go."
Since Ning Que believes that being together is just a life and not a way for him to keep her in the world, then when she wants to leave, he should not stop her.
"You can leave at any time." Ning Que said behind her.
Sangsang looked at the branches of the tree. Amidst the sound of fans flapping, a black crow landed on where her eyes fell.
She said: "If I really want to leave, you will commit suicide."
Ning Que remained silent.
Sangsang turned around, looked at him and asked, "Do you really want me to die?"
This was the sixth time she said this sentence to Ning Que, or thought of this sentence in her heart.
"I just don't want you to leave."
Ning Que did not avoid her gaze and said, "Even if you leave, where can you go? You have already been to the human world, how can you sit in the cold kingdom of God for a long time?"
Sangsang said: "I should have been there."
Ning Que said: "Where is that? You often say that this is Haotian's world, and the Kingdom of God must also be in this world. So what is the difference between the Kingdom of God and the human world?"
Sangsang said: "Where is your teacher now?"
Ning Que said: "Why do you have to stop the teacher? Why do you have to stop us? Don't you want to know what is outside this world?"
"This is my world. I am the rule of this world. My existence comes from the unique characteristics of this world. If you want to destroy the characteristics of this world, then I cannot exist."
Sangsang looked into his eyes and said calmly: "This is the most fundamental conflict between me, your teacher and the academy. It cannot be resolved. If you persist, you will want me to die."
"Do you really want me to die?"
This is the seventh time.
Ning Que looked at her quietly and said, "Don't go back. Become a real person and let's live together."
Sangsang said: "People will die."
Ning Que said: "Practice can lead to immortality, let's practice together."
Sangsang said: "I want to maintain the existence of this world."
Ning Que said: "I don't understand. There are obviously other ways to solve this problem. Why do you have to guard this old world? What are you guarding?"
Sangsang said: "I also don't understand why you and some human beings in history must leave this world. What do you want to know?"
Ning Que said: "What we want to know is very simple, that is, what is outside."
Sangsang said: "I don't want to know."
All her thinking logic, or more accurately, all her life, has the objectivity of rules. If human beings have a yearning for freedom in their instincts, then her instinct is to be closed and self-consistent.
Ning Que took a step forward and stood in front of her.
The black crow on the branch cackled indifferently.
He held her hand, looked into her eyes and said, "Become human, and then we will live together, practice together, buy groceries together, eat together, and do many things together."
After Sang Sang came to the world, she had never looked in the mirror. Her face was made according to the most average human face, and her tall body was formed according to her own wishes. This made her not very happy, so at this time, she looked at Ning
The woman in the missing eyes felt strange and a little confused.
"Why do this?"
"Even if it's for humanity, of course, the most important thing is for me, please stay."
The ordinary face that Sang Sang saw in his eyes suddenly shattered into countless pieces of light and shadow, which could never be put back together again, so her eyes returned to indifference.
"No." She looked at Ning Que and said calmly: "Countless years ago, humans chose me to wake up from chaos in order to bring them eternal peace."
Ning Que didn't know what to say, and didn't understand why those words would cause her to react so violently. He thought it was human choice that made her wake up, but only after hearing her next words did he realize that it was because of him.
"I can now understand that imagination and curiosity about the outside world are human instinctive desires, but you should not be included among those people, because you are not from this world to begin with."
Sangsang looked at him and said: "You are from outside the world. You know very well what is in the outside world. Since twenty years ago, you have been telling me about that world. I have not forgotten it, and I am now in your
You can also clearly see the picture of that world in your consciousness.”
Ning Que felt that his body was gradually getting colder, and said: "That world... is very beautiful, very vibrant, and there are countless real suns, and it is full of warmth everywhere."
"You're lying."
Sangsang's voice was still so calm, without a trace of unnecessary emotion, but these words exploded like thunder in the sky above Chaoyang City, causing countless thousands of people to look up to the sky in shock.
"Your world is full of dangers. The burning sun may explode or extinguish at any time, and most places are as cold as the underworld. Whether it is a fragile ordinary person or a relatively strong practitioner,
, it is impossible to survive in that world.”
Ning Que said: "The lifespan of a star is many billions of years, how can it explode at any time? I admit that it is indeed cold in most places, but the world is really big, and you can always find a suitable place."
Sangsang said: "Even billions of billions of years are only a short time for a life that needs to last forever. What's more, your world will eventually become extinct, and nothing will be left."
Ning Que was silent for a long time and said, "Maybe there are still some memories left?"
Sangsang's words did not leave a single inch of living space for warmth: "Without temperature, there is nothing. Nirvana is the end. Without eternity, that is great terror."
Ning Que shook his head and said: "That's not the case... I admit that you are right. The outside world may really eventually die, but in the long years before that, life can go to the edge of the world, or directly
Break the world and find your way to a new world."
Sangsang said: "What if I can't find it?"
Ning Que was a little angry for some reason and said in a deep voice: "You have never lived in that world. Why are you so sure that humans will never find a new world?"
"Because I'm not human. I never take comfort in deceiving myself."
Sangsang looked at him and said calmly: "Compared with my world, the outside world is more like a netherworld, and what you want to do will make me treat you as the son of Hades."
Ning Que had not heard the words "Son of Pluto" for a long time. Many years ago, some people, including the Great Priest of Light, had been speculating that he was the son of Pluto. Later, this title briefly fell to Long Qing.
In the end, Sangsang took over the name.
Now he naturally knows that there is no Pluto at all, Haotian is Pluto, but at the same time he must admit that to a certain extent, what Sangsang said is right.
The world he once lived in was so cold, so turbulent, and so dangerous compared to this world, it was like the kingdom of Hades.
He came here from that world, brought the information of that world here, and strengthened the faith of the Academy and the Master. If the Haotian world is finally broken open and goes to the broader universe, but it eventually dies. Then
His arrival brought the shadow of Hades to this world.
This kind of reasoning made his body feel cold. He became angry subconsciously, looked at Sangsang and shouted: "You always want to win in everything, even in discussions, you have never admitted defeat even once. Why?"
Sangsang looked at him quietly with a slightly pitiful expression.
Her expression made him even more angry. He walked to the tree and slapped her hard. The black crow on the branch looked down at him, but did not fly away or make an unpleasant cry.
"For so many years, ever since you could speak, I have listened to you in everything. In the eyes of others, you are my little maid, serving me every day. If I say go east, you dare not go west. If I say eat dry food,
You absolutely dare not boil the rice until it becomes watery, but you should know very well what the real situation is. Before I said go east, you took a look eastward. When I said eat dry rice, you poured out all the leftover porridge from the night before.
Got it!"
Ning Que turned around, looked at her and shouted angrily.
"In the Minshan Mountains, I tried my best to catch a deer that year, but you just looked at me and I let it go! In Weicheng, when you were eight years old, your fat aunt proposed marriage to you on behalf of her distant nephew. You didn't
I was so happy that I almost killed that kid that night! If you said you wanted to go back to Chang'an City, I would go back to Chang'an! If you said you wanted to sell writing, I would write writing and sell it!"
"You said you wanted to rent the shop in Lin 14th and 7th Lane, so I rented it! The result was great, I almost sold my life to Chao Xiaoshu! For you, I made Long Qing's face swollen, so
Because he used you to threaten me, I didn’t care if I offended the Xiling Temple or caused trouble for the academy. I just shot him into a fool with one arrow. The result was good, he was chased by Ye Hongyu like a dog! And these and other
This place is broken!"
He pointed at the small courtyard, looked at her and said with a trembling voice: "Is it fun for you to turn yourself into the daughter of Pluto? To me, this thing is really not fun. The whole world wants to kill you, just
I carried you on my back all by myself. I was really scared at the time. I couldn’t beat them. Do you know that, but I still didn’t fight them?”
Sangsang didn't speak, just looked at him quietly.
"I have never violated your opinion. I will do whatever you want, and I will not hurt you. There is no such possibility in my consciousness. It has been like this since the day I picked you up in Hebei Road.
I pity you, I feel sorry for you, and I value you more than my own life."
Ning Que's voice gradually became lower, but his emotions became more agitated, and he said: "Because I was also abandoned by the whole world at that time. At that time, you were the only one by my side. You were able to survive because of me, and I was able to survive."
Why don't you come down because I want to feed you? What is my destiny? This is my destiny."
Sangsang raised his head and looked at the sky that was gradually being invaded by night. He said nothing. The black crow perched on the branch tilted its head slightly to look at the two people in the yard, as if trying to figure out the current situation.
"You killed the little uncle, but I wasn't born yet at that time, so I can ignore it, but... the teacher's death, I can no longer say that it has nothing to do with me."
I don't know whether it was because he talked too much or was too emotional. Ning Que's voice became a little hoarse and very low, and he was so exhausted that it seemed that he might lose strength at any time.
"At that time in Surabaya, I could have stopped you because you were my destiny, but I didn't... I thought it was because I had forgotten. But I found out later. I had not forgotten, it was just my instinct at the time that allowed me to stop you.
I forgot this, because I am really afraid of your death."
He looked up at the stars in the night sky and the moon that was about to appear. After a moment of silence, he continued: "I have never told anyone about this matter, but in fact, everyone knows it. All the senior brothers and sisters in the academy know it."
I know, but they never mention it."
"For you, I can give up nothing, I can be shameless, I can give up my life, let alone loyalty and integrity. What is morality? If it were before, I could kill all the people in the world for you.
As long as you live, as long as you are well, I don't care at all what others think of me, how they talk about me, how they laugh at me, how they hate me, or how they are afraid of me."
Ning Que retracted his gaze and looked at her. He smiled and said with tears: "But... it won't work this time. The senior brothers and sisters in the academy. Those people in Chang'an City, they are very good to me, and they are very good to you. If I let you
If you go back, the teacher will die, the Tang Dynasty will fall, and there will no longer be an academy in the world, so I can't listen to you."
The moon finally appeared in the night sky, right behind him, but it was not bright because the moon waxed and waned. The moon tonight was so dim, as if it might go out at any time.
"I will die too."
While Ning Que was speaking, Sangsang remained silent until now.
She looked at him and said calmly: "If it weren't for the academy and you, I wouldn't have been forced into such an embarrassing situation by those monks in the Xuankong Temple. You should know very well that I am getting weaker day by day. If you don't let me
If you go back to the Kingdom of God, one day
I will die. Don't say anything about becoming a real human and then practicing cultivation. I have said that I don't like to deceive myself. I am Haotian, how can I become a human? If I become a human, I will still be who I am now.
? How can you guarantee that I can survive? "
Heaven did not give birth to a Master, and eternity is like a long night. Master is the first person in the Haotian world in countless thousands of years. Haotian came to the world, which is something that has never happened in history. As for him, this guest from the outside world
, is even more special, no one knows what the final outcome of the story written by the three of them will be.
Haotian didn't know, the Master didn't know, and Ning Que couldn't possibly know, so he couldn't answer this question. He could only walk to the kitchen door, turn around and ask her: "Shall I cook you a bowl of noodles?"
Sangsang looked at him quietly, there was no disappointment in her eyes, just a little dull.
"I have no appetite."
After saying this, she walked back to the bedroom, got into bed and covered herself with the quilt. Like an angry child, she pulled the quilt up so high that it covered her face, as if this would make her feel much better.
Not long after, Ning Que walked into the bedroom, lifted the quilt, and helped her up.
She said: "I told you, I don't want to eat noodles."
Ning Que said: "Burn your feet before going to bed."
Only then did Sangsang see a basin of clear water with hot mist in front of the bed.
Ning Que knelt down and took off her shoes for her. He tested the water temperature and found it was just right. He put her white lotus-like feet into the water and scrubbed them carefully. There was no leakage even between the toes.
A night of silence.
When she woke up in the morning, Sangsang did not get up. Instead, she continued to lie in bed and looked at the roof. The clean beams had formed a spider web. The spider waited quietly on the edge of the web. When an insect hit the web, it crawled diligently.
In the past, he killed the food with the most passionate attitude, and then greedily absorbed the delicious juice.
"We can't continue like this, we need to make a decision." She turned sideways, looked at Ning Que's face, and said, "If you don't let me leave, I will kill everyone."
Ning Que rubbed his eyes and said, "There is no rice. When you buy groceries, remember to remind me to buy a bag."
They cooked a pot of porridge with the remaining rice in the rice vat. After the two of them finished drinking, they went to the market and first to the rice store. Just when Ning Que was about to pay, he suddenly discovered that there was an extra head in the rice bag.
The head of the rice store owner.
Blood seeped out from the bag. As for the rice in the bag, it had already been dyed dark red. It looked like blood rice, a specialty of Qi State, and had a disgusting smell of blood.
When the clerk and the women buying rice saw this scene, they screamed in shock and rushed out of the shop. However, before they could cross the threshold, they turned into dead people.
Haotian has countless ways to make a person die. She can make the person die quietly, with a happy expression, as if they are still sleeping soundly and in the sweetest dream.
But it was obvious that Sang Sang did not choose this method. In order to make Ning Que feel more direct and show her determination, the method she used was very bloody. There were broken limbs and broken arms everywhere in the rice shop.
Ning Que looked pale and looked at her, wanting to say something, but couldn't.
He walked out of the rice shop, not daring to buy any more vegetables. He walked quickly among the vegetable stalls with his head lowered. No matter how the vegetable vendors who were already familiar with him called him, he ignored them and even forgot that he was still carrying a bag in his hand.
Bloody rice bag.
Sangsang had no intention of letting him go. Although he didn't do anything, as his footsteps moved, all the vegetable stalls he passed turned into a pool of blood, and the vegetable vendors died miserably.
"Enough!"
Ning Que stopped at the entrance of the market. The street in front of him was full of people. He didn't dare to take another step forward. He could only turn around, look at Sangsang and shout angrily.
There was blood everywhere in the market, even covering the soles of his shoes.
Sangsang walked through the sea of blood, with no emotion on her face.
Looking at this scene, Ning Que's body trembled.
Then, he gradually calmed down, exhaustion written on his pale cheeks.
He looked at Sangsang and said, "This is of no use to me."
Sangsang said: "I want to give it a try, and what if the person who dies is a Tang person?"
Ning Que said nothing and became nervous.
Because she has thought about it.
Thoughts are anger.
Anger is anger.
And anger comes from different sources.
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(Four chapters, 15,000 words completed. I wish you all a happy weekend. I am a little tired from writing, but the content is satisfactory, so I am in a happy mood. Please vote for recommendation, thank you.) (To be continued.)