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After seeing off Fang Yiai and waiting for Sun Yunniang to rest, she looked at Jin Qi and Jin Lin lying side by side on the warm bed. After Jin Ling'er finished washing, she turned around and saw Cui Yu frowning in front of the bed with his hands behind his hands and a somewhat gloomy expression.
Fan.
Jin Ling'er glanced at the two children whose names were written on the kang under Cui Yufan's name, struggled for a moment, and then asked in a somewhat unfamiliar voice, "What are you worried about?"
Hearing Jin Ling'er's somewhat concerned words, Cui Yufan turned around and looked at Jin Ling'er intently, without saying a word, but with a look of expectation and exploration in his eyes.
"If you don't want to say it, forget it." She frowned slightly, Jin Ling'er's tone returned to the cold tone of the past, and her face turned into a coldness that usually made people a thousand miles away. She turned around, took off her coat, and was about to talk to him.
Clothes on the kang.
"Ling'er." Cui Yufan seemed to sigh and reached out from behind to hug Jin Ling'er into his arms.
Jin Ling'er, however, seemed to be frightened, and stepped out of the reach of Cui Yu's arms, looking at Cui Yufan with some caution.
However, after seeing Cui Yufan's injured expression, Jin Ling'er felt a little conflicted and unnaturally avoided Cui Yufan's burning eyes.
"Oh, Ling'er, I've been very busy in the past four years or so, and I haven't been able to take good care of you and the children. It's my fault." Cui Yufan looked at Jin Ling'er with a hint of heartache in his eyes.
He said with some self-blame and helplessness, "The affairs of Chongwen Hall will be over after the Chinese New Year. I think I can have some leisure time. Thank you for spending time with you and your children."
Jin Ling'er glanced at the child on the bed, pursed her lips and said nothing.
"I don't force you, I just hope you can give me an accurate answer. I will wait as long as it takes. Give me an exact time, okay?" Cui Yufan said softly, stepped forward, and wanted to reach out and raise his hand.
Thinking of Jin Ling'er's beautiful face, she could see the emotions in Jin Ling'er's eyes.
Listening to Cui Yufan's somewhat submissive words, Jin Ling'er twisted her sleeves tangledly, her eyes were too far away to look directly into Cui Yufan's eyes, and she avoided Cui Yufan's touch again and struggled to say.
, "I, give me some more time."
Seeing the struggle and wavering in Jin Ling'er's averted eyes, Cui Yufan nodded and said, "Okay, I'll wait for you."
"My godfather will be back years ago. It's not good for us to live in this yard anymore. I have the house in Jinghuai Lane cleaned up. What if we move out in the spring? We won't leave here.
Even if it's far away, it's all in Yanshoufang, but it's just a street away. How about it?" Cui Yufan said softly, as if seeking Jin Ling'er's opinion, and walked slowly to Jin Ling'er's side.
"Can we wait until after the New Year?" Jin Ling'er said somewhat ostrichly.
Cui Yufan made a tentative move, and when he saw that Jin Ling'er didn't dodge again, he boldly took Jin Ling'er, who was a little stiff, into his arms, held Jin Ling'er contentedly, and said in a cheerful tone,
"It's all up to you."
Jin Ling'er sighed in despair, closed her eyes, struggled with her heart, and kept asking herself, why is this person not that person?
Feeling that Jin Ling'er was still unable to relax, Cui Yufan couldn't help but sigh in his heart, but he also understood that there was no need to rush emotional matters. He could only pat Jin Ling'er's back safely and said considerately,
"You should have a good rest. There should be people still awake in Chongwen Hall. I'll go back to Chongwen Hall."
In response to Cui Yufan's thoughtfulness, Jin Ling'er opened her mouth, but in the end she couldn't say anything to ask him to stay. She just nodded and told him to be careful on the road and not to freeze at night.
Cui Yufan couldn't help but feel disappointed when he failed to hear Jin Ling'er's words of persuasion, but he still had a considerate and gentle smile on his face, and in turn told Jin Ling'er to take care of his health.
After sending Cui Yufan away, turning off the lights, Jin Ling'er lay fully clothed on the bed, looking sideways at the two sleeping children beside her.
Thinking about her acquaintance with Fang Yiai, Jin Ling'er couldn't help but laugh. Maybe even she didn't know how much bitterness there was in her smile.
Thinking about Fang Yiai's eyes looking at him, except for the occasional inquiry, they were basically clear and free of impurities, and his heart felt helpless despite the pain.
Yes, I did what I did when he was tired. Although it was mostly due to the effect of Hehuan Powder, I asked myself that I have never regretted it. These two children were gifts given to me by God.
If she had to do it over again, Jin Ling'er would still choose to follow the same path.
Just thinking that after Fang Yiai came back, all she thought about was the kindness and thoughtfulness of the Seventeenth Princess, Jin Ling'er couldn't help but feel sad, but what qualifications did she have to feel sad?
The Seventeenth Princess was given to him by the Emperor, so he probably didn't even have a choice, and he wasn't the kind of person who kept himself low and stayed in other people's backyards to earn husbands with other women, so what qualifications did he have?
No matter who is in his heart?
I had already given birth to two children without him knowing it, so I should be content. Let him live his happy life.
She also thought about her meeting and acquaintance with Cui Yufan, and how she met him again with a big belly. He accepted his mother and son regardless of the reason, and was considerate and caring when they met each other.
Maybe, I should hide the people in my heart and think carefully about the future of my child. Cui Yufan should be a good person to rely on?
Turning over and thinking about this idea, Jin Ling'er suddenly felt even more irritable.
I turned back and forth a few times, looking at the peaceful sleeping faces of the two children, and thought to myself, oh, think about it slowly, don't rush at this moment.
After thinking about it, I hugged my child and fell asleep quietly.
Cui Yufan, however, did not go to Chongwen Hall as he said. Instead, after detouring two streets, he went to Yang Mansion with a serious look on his face.
After entering the study room with Yang Chengyi, Cui Yufan learned about Yang Fan from Fang Yiai and told Yang Chengyi in a bad tone.
"Didn't you say you would take good care of Fan'er for Le'er? This is how you take good care of Fan'er?" Cui Yufan said with a cold face.
"The Hou Mansion, since the incident with Hou Luanpei, has been strict in selecting maids and servants, and no one can get in." Yang Chengyi frowned and explained, "The guards in the Hou Mansion are not low in martial arts. I
People don’t dare to get too close, they can only watch from a distance.”
"Besides, it's not convenient for me to take action against someone like me in public." Yang Shengyi said helplessly with a sad look in her eyes.
"What an inconvenience." Cui Yufan said with a cold face and a hint of sarcasm in his mouth. After saying this, he flicked his sleeves and walked out of the Yang family's door, without even giving Yang Chengyi a chance to stay.
Yang Chengyi stretched out her hand, but in the end she didn't say anything to save her. She let out a long sigh and sat slumped in the chair. She was a little confused, whether what she had done for so many years was right or wrong.
Cui Yufan still did not go to Chongwen Hall. Instead, he asked for an ordinary room in an inn not far from Hou's house and rested.
Because Niu Saihua was due to give birth around the festival, Mrs. Fang was worried, so she took Lu Yi and his wife to live temporarily in Fang Mansion, living in the small courtyard that Fang Yiai and Lu Yi used to share.
In order to avoid suspicion, Fang Yiai was hurriedly moved to a wing in Fang Yize's small courtyard for temporary accommodation.
After settling Niu Saihua, who was about to give birth, and counting the time, he felt that Fang Yiai should have come out of Fang Xuanling's study, so Lu Yi brought two bottles of wine to see Fang Yiai.
In the middle of winter, Fang Yiai was lying on the roof, looking at the stars and the moon seriously.
"You are quite cheerful, you are not too cold, just lying on the roof like this." Lu Yizong got on the roof, sat next to Fang Yiai, handed Fang Yiai a bottle of wine, and took care of himself.
Drinking wine and looking at the night sky.
"You were so considerate in bringing me the wine, how could I be so cold?" Fang Yiai said nonchalantly.
"Don't worry, the stable mothers my mother hired are all experienced and my sister-in-law's body has always been strong and the fetal position is correct. Although the first birth is a little difficult, I think it won't be a big problem." After coming over for a while, I saw that Lu Yi was a little worried.
He only cares about drinking wine, Fang Yiai will not be born, he persuaded.
"My mother used to say that when a woman gives birth, she is wandering around behind closed doors. I don't understand it deeply. I just felt that when my mother gave birth to my second sister, I was worried and scared for several days. I was afraid that my mother would leave me alone." Lu Yi said.
Mother, of course, is his biological mother.
"Looking at Sai Hua now, looking forward to and scared at the same time, my heart is clenching fiercely. Do you know, I even kneaded the child into blood again and let it flow down slowly, so as not to hurt Sai Hua.
I have even had the thought of it." After Lu Yi finished speaking, he took a sip of wine.
"My mother is watching over there. When the time comes, I will invite my godmother to watch inside. My aunt will also be called over. There are also a few experienced gentlemen. What else is there to be afraid of? Our family always has medicinal materials on hand.
Yes, nothing will happen." Fang Yiai said.
"My sister-in-law is giving birth for the first time, so she is a little nervous. You can't let her panic when she sees you, otherwise it will affect her mood." Fang Yiai sat up, patted Lu Yi on the shoulder, and warned.
"I know. Let's not talk about it anymore. I see that you are in a bad mood after you came back today. What's going on? Is it because of the affairs of the Wu family and the Hou family?" Lu Yi asked.
"No, the prince has already made up his mind about that matter, so I don't need to waste my time on it." Fang Yiai lay down with a look of sadness and said.
"That's strange. It's rare to see you like this. Could it be that you had a quarrel with the princess? It's impossible? Your recent separation has been better than your wedding. You are so sweet." Lu Yi asked curiously.
"Tell me, can a person's heart really be opened and released?" Fang Yiai did not answer, but asked extremely seriously.
"Isn't it possible that your kid has fallen in love with someone else?" Lu Yi looked at Fang Yiai in disbelief and said.
"Where are you thinking!" Fang Yiai glared at Lu Yi dissatisfied. If he hadn't been on the roof now, he would have kicked him with his big feet.
"It's just that when I was having dinner at my godmother's house today, after I saw Cui Yufan taking Jinlin away from my arms, I suddenly felt a sense of emptiness in my heart, which made me feel a little uninterested." Fang Yiai
He said with some confusion.
"Emotions, you are envious that my child is about to be born, and you also want a child by your side. Then you go to your father and mother and ask them to ask the emperor and the empress about their intentions, and try to get you and Princess Gaoyang to go as soon as possible.
When you get married, you will have a fat boy soon." Lu Yi said teasingly.
"Maybe." Fang Yiai said lightly, even he himself didn't know what he felt in his heart.
Lu Yi and I were chatting on the roof until midnight, and when we were about to break up and rest, the concierge hurried over with a lantern, saying that General Hou's mansion urgently invited Fang Yiai.
p: It rained yesterday, and I haven’t been exposed to rain for a long time. Then, ahem, I won’t talk anymore.
The two updates I owed yesterday were made up in the past two days. Today is the third update. Thank you!