Yifeng Garden is still as quiet as usual, without extra palace maids and eunuchs, and without much hustle and bustle of the world.
After waking up after attempting suicide, this place became one of the most common places Yang Xi lingers with.
Stepping on the weeds climbing the pebbly path, she felt the vitality under her feet that was trampled casually but still tenaciously, and her almost lost thoughts were picked up again. Her steps were light, and she quickly stepped across the path and stepped into the palace gate.
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Ruyan was sewing her little clothes in a corner of the side hall, with an inadvertent smile on her face. She never could not accept the full thought and love of the child in her belly. Now, there seems to be too much ordinary life.
An expectation and touching.
Seeing this, Yang Xi felt relieved quietly. At least, she still has hope and will look forward to the future.
The two palace maids serving beside him saw Yang Xi and saluted respectfully: "See Concubine Xi! Concubine Xi is healthy!"
Ruyan turned around and smiled at her faintly. She knew each other very well and did not require too much etiquette. She waved to the palace maid and said warmly: "Go down."
The two palace maids retreated quietly.
Yang Xi sat down beside her, poured a cup of hot tea and started drinking it in small sips. "You are living a comfortable life, but you are pitiful to the guy who is looking forward to seeing you all day long."
In the past, Ruyan always condemned this topic softly and no longer continued. Now, after hearing that too much, she is not so disgusted. However, a complicated feeling suddenly arose in her heart. She shook her head.
, smile without saying a word.
Yang Xi didn't say anything, but just held her hand and took the pulse carefully. After a while, she put down her white and tender wrists, "It seems that someone has taken good care of you, and I don't need to take this pulse in the future.
Now.”
"What are you talking nonsense?" Ruyan Rourou cursed, "No one else has come to this place except you."
"The others want to come, but you don't allow it." Hearing her loneliness, Yang Xi smiled knowingly and whispered: "Yun promised that he could enter Yifengyuan at will. As long as you want, he would be at any time.
Everyone can come to meet you, and of course, you can also keep warm."
"Don't talk nonsense!" Ruyan gave her a blank look, her pink face turned red, "Empress Xi, pay attention to your image."
"I have always been careful enough. It is rare that you don't have other eyes to look at me. Can't you breathe a sigh of relief?" The deep palace courtyard was so stressed that people could hardly breathe. So what if they were the most favored concubine? In the end, it wouldn't be the case
It is just a toy that the emperor was greedy for a while.
"It can be seen that Murong Yun treats you sincerely, why do you always have no confidence in yourself?" Ruyan frowned slightly and said softly: "Maybe he is different from other kings. He is willing to guard you for the rest of his life.
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"Do you think I care about this?" She didn't know her feelings for Murong Yun, but she knew what she needed now.
"You don't care, is it because...he?" Wang, has always been a topic that the two of them tried to avoid. Now that they mention it again, they still feel a little pain in their hearts. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't.
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"He is my only love in this life." Yang Xi smiled slightly and said that Feng Ba was never shy. She didn't say it before, but she just didn't want to bring up unpleasant memories of Ruyan.
Ruyan didn't expect that she could express what she was thinking so bluntly. In comparison, she seemed superficial. "Do you miss him?"
"I think, I always think about it, but I understand that many things are hard to stop. Now that he has Murong Yan by his side, I believe life will not be bad." Although Murong Yan is not a kind woman, she can only take a look at her
It can be seen that she truly loves Feng Ba.
As long as he is good, why should she care about who is by his side? No matter who it is, that person will never be her. He has no memory or affection for her anymore.
"Ruyan, I don't understand something." After calming himself, she stopped thinking about the things that made her heart worried. She approached Ruyan and whispered.
"What's the matter?" She was rarely seen as so serious. Ruyan leaned over and waited for her to speak.
"Do you know that there is a medicine in the world... or witchcraft that can make people's behavior uncontrolled and do something that surprises you?" She tried to lower her voice and said:
"At that time, I was not unconscious, but I couldn't control myself."
"The technique of relieving the mind." Ruyan's face changed slightly, and she said suspiciously: "Why do you ask this?"
Yang Xi pursed her lips, took a deep breath, and whispered: "I committed suicide that day, not my own consciousness, but I couldn't control my own behavior."
Suicide is the most cowardly behavior. She might have thought about it when she was desperate and indignant, but at most she just thought about it. That day she did plan to perform a thrilling scene for Murong Yun, but that was just a performance!
Ruyan trembled all over and her face turned slightly pale. "Are you sure?"
She nodded vigorously. God knows how afraid of pain she is. The scar is deep and cruel. How could she do it? She can pretend to be indifferent to everything in front of others, but she can't even deceive herself and play pervertedly
Self-harm.
"I thought you didn't want to stay with Murong Yun..."
"Ruyan, perhaps for people of your time, a woman's chastity is more important than life, but I will not end my life alive just because I cannot commit myself to another man."
Thinking, a happy smile suddenly flashed across his face, "I had committed suicide before, and it was Sufu who stubbornly allowed me to survive, and he taught me that living is more important than anything else."
Only by living can you have hope and finally live the life you want to live.
Ruyan looked at the inadvertent movement on her face and said in surprise: "Did you fall in love with him?"
"I don't know." Her relationship with Feng Sufu was not something that could be explained clearly in a few words. "I just know that it is a little weaker than the relationship between Baba, but it is a little casual."
After calming her spirits, she said in a deep voice: "Do you know the people in the world who can cure their minds?"
"Yes." The most important thing is to do, and emotions can only be put aside. "I heard that the national teacher is back, have you seen her? She is one of the few people in the world who know how to reduce the mind."
National teacher Ge Shixuan... Although the woman looked cold and unruly, she had a faint sense of righteousness between her eyebrows and eyes, unlike someone who would harm others with evil witchcraft.
However, people's hearts in the world are unpredictable, and things in the world are always unpredictable.
"The mental reduction technique needs to work, but is there a requirement for distance?" She bit her lower lip, "I mean, can it be used if it is too far away?"
"No." Although she did not understand the mystery, she had heard from her master, "The person who casts the spell must be within several miles of the person being cast, and must have something close to the person being cast."
"Things close?"
"Hair, nails, close-fitting clothes, shoes and socks are all available." Ruyan pondered for a moment and frowned: "According to the teacher, the person who is cast will completely lose consciousness. You should not remember your feelings at that time.