All the layouts in the palace were still the same as before. When Murong Yun was in power, the Jingyang Palace, which was ineffective, was still vaguely visible.
Not far away is Chuyang Garden, where the emperor once lived the most beloved Concubine Xi. After the emperor's morning court, he would definitely go to Chuyang Garden. Even the review of memorials was held in Chuyang Garden.
It is said that Jingyang Palace is like a false appearance.
Chuyang Garden had already grown weeds and the courtyard gate was withering, but the grass and trees seemed to have magic, attracting Yang Xi's heart.
She stepped into the door, walked through the gravel path penetrated by weeds, and came outside the door of the bedroom. She opened the door gently, and a scent of dust came to her face. Something happened here in Yanyu, Murong Xi pretended to be
After becoming a sage, few people came in and out. In the side hall, all the decorations were still the same as when she was there, because there was basically no one coming and going in this place. During this war, all the original appearance was strangely preserved.
"I'll ask someone to clean up." Behind him, Feng Sufu took two steps closer, stretched out his hand to gently embrace her waist.[
Yang Xi kept silent and staggered, avoided his hug, and walked forward, "No need, I won't live here in the future."
He looked at his empty arms and couldn't help but feel a little lost. Since something happened to Helianxu, she no longer wanted to have any intimacy with him, and even if she had something in her heart, she no longer wanted to say to him.
Perhaps she had lost and sad because of her resistance, but at that time she was just resisting him, but her heart was always open to him. They were the best confidants, and they had been happy and painful together, but now
...
After calming down his spirits, he still walked behind her and said in a pretended brisk voice: "You have reduced a lot recently. Why don't we eat hot pot tonight? There are everything in the palace, that hot pot
It tastes much better than it would be in the military camp.”
Yang Xi paused.
Hotpot... That time, she temporarily proposed to eat hotpot, hoping that everyone would have a happy New Year's Eve, but she was actually unhappy. The clouds were gone, and Xu was far away in the sky. Now... not only the clouds were gone, but even
Xuye... Can't we have a whole hot pot together in this life?
Is she asking for too much, so she is destined to be unable to have it for the rest of her life?
She turned her back to him, preventing him from seeing the faint mist in her eyes, "No, I have no appetite."
"Witch!" This time, he stepped forward, clenched her shoulders, and prevented her from avoiding herself anymore, "Look at me and take a good look at me. At this moment, I am still in front of you, you can't..."
"You are still here at this moment, so, what about the next moment?" Her eyes were filled with tears, staring at him without a moment, with a cold look, "Next moment, will you fall to me like this, just like life?
In front of you, so... you will never wake up again if you close your eyes?"
"I won't!" As long as she is there, he will not want to die no matter what he says! "You forgot that I am an iron man, I can't beat you."
"You are not an iron man, you are just a flesh and blood mortal!" He had fallen down and almost died. She will never forget those things in her life!
"I'm alive, right?" He looked at her, his starry eyes clear and bright, "I'm alive, because I can't bear to let go of you, and I can't bear to leave you, so I'm alive! Witch, for you
, I will never die, I will not believe me!"
She just stood there, quietly, without saying a word, but tears kept flowing.
"Believe me." He whispered softly, stretched out his long, long, rough fingers, gently wiped away the tears from her face, and said softly: "I understand that the person you love the most is the eldest brother, but I have never wanted much.
,You understand these, witch, don't deliberately alienate me, don't say that you want these lies in asking me to find your own happiness, that's not what I want. No matter whether you love me or not, as long as you still care about me a little bit, I
All can live happily and satisfied.”
Yang Xi opened her surprised gaze, her lips trembled, but she couldn't say a word.
He knew that he knew everything she was thinking!
Feng Sufu smiled slowly, brushing her big palm across the back of her head, touching her smooth black hair, and her movements were gentle and pity, just like she was the only one he cherished most in his life. "Do you think you would ignore me on purpose
If I pay attention, I will leave you and then look for what I call spring?"
Rubbing her hair, he continued to smile and said, "How long have you been by my side, witch? How deep do I know you, don't you know yet? In this life, you are my only spring, you are,
The spring is warm, and the peach blossoms are still there. If you are not here, every day will be snowy in the winter. Witch, do you want me to live in the coldest life?"
“I’m not…”[
"But you are doing this." He held her round shoulder tightly, and the strength under his palm was tightened unconsciously, "Do you know that if you do this, it will make me feel more uncomfortable than taking my life?
After being hit by Tuobafan's two swords, do you know how much suffering I suffered in a coma? Every day, the heat and cold alternate, and after being burned by fire, I will be abused by the ice. If it is not to not want you to cry, if it is not
You said in my ear that you like me, I really don’t want to wake up, I would rather just go like that…”
"No! You can't!" She was startled, subconsciously pressing his lips to prevent him from saying more terrifying words.
He held her hand very much, pulled it down gently, and his handsome face with a sunny breath slightly pulled a charming smile, "I can't, because I can't make you sad, I can't make you blame yourself for your whole life."
Her body was trembling slightly. At this moment, except for looking at him tightly, she forgot everything else. "Sufu..."
"I know Helianxu's incident has a big blow to you." Seeing that her face darkened and the pain in her eyes deepened again, he sighed and gently hugged her in his arms: "Witch, that's not your fault,
Don’t blame yourself or be sad. If you hurt your favorite woman with your own hands, perhaps death is the relief for him.”
She closed her eyes and tears slid down.
She knew, how could she not know, when she knew that the person she almost killed was her, Xu no longer had the courage to live, how could she not understand his mood? But that was not his fault, that was all a conspiracy
, it was a plan, he just accidentally stepped into their trap.
How could she blame him for hating him? The only thing she blamed was his giving up. He gave up and survived her! Why didn't you listen to what she thought? Why didn't you give her a chance to say you didn't blame him? Why?
Xu, you left so resolutely and didn't look back at all, why are you so cruel? Why?
Do you know that she misses you so much, and her heart hurts so much...