Uneasy, uneasy, nervous, at a loss, afraid... all the emotions were ups and downs at the same time. With the dazzling red light flashing on the door of the emergency room, Xi Haitang's heart suddenly lost its normal beating rhythm. Beside her, Su Xin
There was also mist in his eyes
Recalling those green years, recalling the old times they had walked together, recalling the bright era enveloped in infinite tenderness, they couldn't help but burst into tears. Those pictures were clearly visible, and the passing years seemed as if they were yesterday.
Sudden--
The red light on the door of the emergency room went out, and the doctor walked out with a heavy face and took off his white mask.
"I'm sorry...we have tried our best..."
Xi Haitang didn't move, and Su Xin didn't move either. One second, two seconds, three seconds... Their expressions were still numb.
The doctor shook his head and said helplessly, "My condolences."
In an instant, the nerves were severed in the body, the heart throbbed violently, and the mind seemed to be suddenly emptied. Xi Haitang covered his mouth hard, but he cried uncontrollably.
Her hands were hanging on her tear-stained face, and she didn't know what to do. The warmth in her palms seemed to remain when he took her hand and swore to protect her to the death when the car accident happened.
She didn't know how much time had passed, but when she found that her teeth had bitten her palm, she felt no pain, tears flowed down her eyes, and the bitterness spread to her limbs and bones.
At this moment, the world seems to have turned dark
Su Xin refused to face the reality. She turned her head slowly and said in a trembling voice, "Haitang... tell me, this is not true... it's not..."
"I don't think this is true either..."
It seemed that something had clouded her nerves. She searched in the vast darkness, but could not find an exit to see the light. She breathed tightly, resisting this so-called reality.
Even though Xiao Mu is far from the person she belongs to in her life, he is still irreplaceable in the past thirteen years.
In those past years, he smiled faintly and held up a bright sky above her head. The years passed by peacefully, and his light and delicate eyebrows were firmly engraved in his life. Those memories that continued like a tide were in his mind.
It plays in a loop, frame by frame fixed into a solemn black and white silent film
Unstoppable crying, heavy and lengthy, like a nightmare from which one cannot wake up
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Haitang and Su Xin went to the house where Xiao Muyuan lived to sort out his belongings. The bookcases were filled with his design works, and countless trophies and certificates were piled in boxes in the corner, low-key and unobtrusive.
There is a photo of him on the table. It was a photo of him and his mentors and friends in the design circle. It was taken while skiing in Switzerland. He smiled lightly, and the smile hung quietly at the corner of his mouth. It was very natural, and his delicate facial features were all gentle.
In the arc of the sky, fine snowflakes fell on his head one after another. The transparent light shone lightly, drawing slanting shadows on the ground. It was gentle, faint, and it seemed that you could feel it in the tranquility.
The smell of mint on his body overflowed in the air, and the whole world became clear and transparent because of him.
They suddenly felt a heavy vicissitudes of life engulfing their hearts, and an indescribable sense of sadness swelled in their hearts. Countless tears were shed on the cold ground, and then seeped into the hard cracks, disappearing on the surface and disappearing in the entire world.
They found a book lying open beside his bed. There was a sentence circled in pencil——
Life is a drama. Ask about sorrow and joy. You can only ask about your heart.
Picking up the pencil he had used, the slight warmth of his skin still seemed to remain on it.
The passing years have left mottled shadows, and every growth ring has traces of him. The time and shadow, his eyes, his smile, his tenderness...
The perpetual calendar on the wall somehow malfunctioned, time stagnated, and memory was eternal...
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Five days later, it was supposed to be the day for Xi Haitang to take her two children to Denmark. The luggage was piled in the corner of the room. The air tickets were slightly covered with dust. The dust in the air filled the nose, sour and astringent.
The plane accelerated on the runway, and after a long slide, it finally rose up and rushed into the high sky. There was a huge roar in the air, which was combined with the sound of the collapse of the layers in her heart.
The huge plane gradually became smaller on the other side of the clouds, and finally turned into a faint dot. A white meandering ribbon on the horizon also gradually receded, and finally disappeared without a trace. The entire sky seemed to be dyed with the color of twilight.
Xi Haitang looked at the sky and saw that he was absent-minded. He was holding the mobile phone in his hand, his eyes were sore and painful, and he couldn't say a word.
On the other end of the phone, Gu Xijue was also silent. He had been accompanying her silently. If he could, what he wanted to do most was to fly to her side immediately, stand behind her, and gently cover her eyes with his hands,
wipe away her tears
She was very tired and ashamed. Youyou said to him, "Today is the senior's funeral, so I refunded the ticket...I'm sorry..."
The hoarse voice came through the microphone, like a thorn piercing his heart bit by bit. He couldn't see her tears, but he felt the unstoppable pain deep in her heart.
"It's okay," Gu Xijue said lightly, turned around and looked at the bustling street. Couples passed by the clock tower, holding hands, their smiles filled with a halo of happiness. I was so envious.
I will continue to wait for you...
Before he could say this sentence, he suddenly felt darkness in front of his eyes, something seemed to be surging in his head, and it hurt like death...
Dr. Will said that perhaps because of his rash trip to Lapland last time, the blood clots in his head changed due to sudden changes in air pressure and temperature from the outside world...
Seven days ago, he took twice as much medicine and twice as much
Three days ago, he tripled the dose
This morning, he reached his limit, five times
He thought that he should be able to wait until she came...
He held down his head that was about to explode, and he could still vaguely see the incomplete world between his fingers, and her face flickered vaguely...