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The cold hands and feet have lost their intuition due to blood loss. Even the pain that penetrates the hands and feet can hardly be felt. The images in front of them gradually become blurred, and the brain begins to feel dizzy.
"call……"
I gasped unconsciously, and there were no more unnecessary thoughts in my mind, no pain, and no other thoughts. Even the initial coldness and tiredness were almost gone, and instead I felt a vague sense of peace.
The entanglement that has always troubled me seems to have become clear...
Inexplicably, I tried to smile, but the place where my lips should be was almost losing feeling. There was only a cold feeling on my face, and I didn't even know if I had laughed.
But at this moment, a deep voice seemed to ring in my ears.
"Hmm? Have you finally made up your mind?"
There was no fluctuation or emotion in that deep voice, and it was completely cold.
At one time, he thought the voice was coming to stop him, but in the end, the whisper continued to help him and help him develop the church even stronger.
Along with that voice, a clear image appeared in the originally blurry vision...
In the dark mist that gradually filled the sight, everything in front of him disappeared and could only be vaguely seen in the depths of darkness, as if there was an invisible twisted creature that was constantly changing its shape.
That twisted shape, for some reason, made Joshua feel a kind of shuddering and frightening beauty.
What kind of beauty is that...
Neither a man nor a woman; neither a child nor an old man; neither a good person nor an evil person; neither an ignorant beast nor a wise man with knowledge...
They are sentient beings, but they are not sentient beings...
Just like when night falls, the deep darkness that hides the stars and the moon is so magnificent.
At this moment, the overly beautiful invisible creature seemed to be looking at me in the darkness. All of his five senses could only feel the cold and oppressive feeling that penetrated his bones. It was as if he was staring into the bottomless abyss and could be swallowed up at any time.
Devoured by it.
However, looking at that figure that made people feel inexplicable fear and trembling, Joshua felt an inexplicable sense of peace. At some point, his voiceless throat seemed to be able to speak again.
"I already understand...I have made my choice."
He opened his mouth and his voice was no longer stagnant. There was no hint of a dying person at all, but Joshua was unaware of this at this moment.
"Between my God and those who have mercy..."
Joshua raised his head, surrounded by darkness. In a daze, he seemed to be back in that dream again... In that dream, there was darkness everywhere around him, and only a six-pointed star by his side.
In the past, he only had God by his side, but now... he is no longer alone.
A smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, a relaxed smile that had not appeared in a long time.
"If God's will is that only the Jews can be saved but all mankind cannot be saved, then I would rather not have this God. If the price of believing in God is to abandon people, then I would rather abandon God."
The relaxed words were filled with deep relief.
He did not die for God, but for the church he established.
"Interesting mortal."
A low laughter sounded in the darkness, and the laughter was full of inexplicable and shuddering magical charm. However, Joshua did not realize that there was also a little sarcasm in the laughter.
"Human, you love the church you founded, right?"
The devil's whisper sounded in Joshua's ears.
"Of course, the church was founded by me. Its existence is to bring all human beings in the world under the same faith. From then on, we will be like brothers and there will be no more disputes."
There was a smile on Joshua's face, as if he was talking about his most cherished child. There is no doubt that this doctor once named Hana was a pure idealist, and he integrated his ideal world into
In the church, I look forward to the day when my ideals will be realized.
However, all he received in response was the devil's wanton laughter.
"Hahahahahaha... As close as brothers? No more disputes?"
"Poor humans, you don't know that in this world, all those who try to build a paradise on earth have turned it into a hell."
There is no hell in this world, because the earth is what angels call hell.
The world is hell.
As he spoke, a hand stretched out from the darkness and touched Joshua's forehead. Immediately, countless pictures flashed in front of Joshua...
After his death, his disciples and believers preached in his name in the Middle East. Eventually, the "stone" Peter realized that preaching in the fiercely contested Middle East was not a good choice.
As a result, many disciples went north to Anatolia, crossed the peninsula, entered Greece, climbed over the mountains, entered Rome, spread to various places within the Roman Empire, and spread his teachings throughout the Roman Empire.
Christianity, which is regarded as a branch of Judaism, has many differences from Judaism from the beginning. Many religions despise women and even prohibit women from believing. But Christianity, which advocates love and forgiveness, welcomes women from the beginning.
Female believers joined in. Many ladies and ladies from wealthy families did not worship the God of War or God-King. Instead, they had a good impression of the Christianity of patience and forgiveness, so they chose to believe in Christianity and became the most powerful pillar of Christianity.
But another characteristic of Christianity is more advantageous. In that era when missionaries were often concentrated in cities, Christianity often had missionaries going to the countryside because of Joshua's initial experience of preaching in the countryside, and eventually the entire countryside developed into a
results for believers.
A large number of villages embraced Christianity, and the fire... slowly spread from the countryside.
When the emperor of the Roman Empire realized this, it was already too late. Many villages, many citizens, and even the army widely believed in this Christ, which had already threatened the imperial rule.
No matter how many Roman emperors strictly prohibited it, or even went so far as to kill Christians on sight, they could not stop the spread of their religion. The Roman emperor could kill hundreds, thousands, or ten thousand people, but he killed all the people in the entire empire.
country people?
In the end, even the Roman emperor finally bowed his head, believed in Christ, and made Christianity the state religion...
Everything looks so beautiful.
When he saw this scene, Joshua's eyes were almost full of tears and he was so excited, but he didn't realize... in the darkness, the ferocious smile on the corner of the devil's mouth.
Immediately, many future pictures appeared in front of Joshua, and finally stopped on a certain picture...
Holding high the cross flag, numerous knights wearing chain mail and leather armor, numerous spear-wielding sergeants, the stern and cold front of the soldiers cut through the sky, and the accompanying priests enthusiastically preached the glory of the Holy Land.
"East! East! Brothers of all Christendom, take back our Holy Land!"
The pope, wearing a triple crown, delivered an impassioned speech.
Numerous farmers, down-and-out nobles, mercenaries, pilgrims... countless fanatical believers, waving their weapons, headed towards the holy land where "the land is full of milk and honey" mentioned in the classics.
The Crusaders, an expedition that gathered the power of the entire Christian world, fought from west to east until the heads of the pagans were rolling, and the holy city of Jerusalem was filled with rivers of blood, but they all cheered for the same name.
"In the name of Joshua (Jesus)!"
"No...it shouldn't be like this..."
Looking at this scene, the young doctor only felt that the sky was dark and the earth was dark, his lips were trembling, and he could hardly speak, but the only sound in his ears was the deep laughter of the devil.
"O Joshua, O Messiah! Listen! Look! They are killing, looting, committing adultery, and fighting in your name!"
Witch trials, tithes, atonements...
There are believers in Christ everywhere, and the name of Joshua is chanted everywhere, but the world that Joshua expected is nowhere to be seen.
The king believed in Christ, but used his public opinion to suppress the common people, claiming that the power was granted to him by Joshua; the pope believed in Christ, but only used his followers to make money wantonly, and he was always a mistress and had illegitimate children, but he kept saying that he was keeping his purity for God.
When killing someone, they said "In the name of Joshua!"
When the tax came, they said, "In the name of Joshua!"
When going to war, they said "In the name of Joshua!"
but……
"I never asked you to do this..."
Joshua's pupils gradually became blurred. The ideal world in his heart had been destroyed, and there was only deep regret and self-blame.
But in his ears, there was only the deep laughter of the devil.
"Mortal, your teachings cannot save them. What you have done is only formed a larger power group and increased my followers."
…
In front of Langnoukis, the unusually thin man finally looked at the sky in front of him, with only confusion and helplessness on his face.
In a trance, Langnoukis vaguely felt the invisible power that was always filling his body, the tough power that could be defeated but could not be defeated...