In the evening, the guards announced that King Xuan was back. Yuan Er quickly dressed me up and even put on light makeup for me. When I arrived at the door of the palace, maids and servants were already standing on both sides of the door. From a distance, I saw
Mo, who was wearing armor and a white cloak, was riding on a horse and slowly walked towards the entrance of the palace.
Mo, whom I hadn't seen for a long time, felt a lot more mature. There was a magical power on his resolute face that made people feel excited. He held my hand and walked towards the house. I smiled and leaned against the door of the small courtyard where he lived.
On the door, I watched him take off his armor and put on the familiar green robe.
Then he carried me to the bed with a wicked smile, waved his hand to loosen the ties of the bed mattress, and the bed mattress fell down in response, immediately blocking a piece of the beautiful sky. Mo's hot lips were on my lips, passionate and intense,
It seems like they are trying to make up for the separation these days.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and responded positively to his kiss. His lips slowly moved on my body, and my body trembled. As I moaned loudly, he took full possession of me.
The passion gradually subsided, and I lay on his chest with my eyes closed. "Zhi'er, I have something to tell you. You won't refuse. The emperor of Botuo has betrothed Princess He from another country to me as a sidekick.
I am a concubine, and we will get married in three days."
I got up from him and looked at him coldly, feeling a pain in my heart. "What if I say I want to refuse?"
"You might have refused before, but I think you are sensible now and won't be so rude and troublesome. It is normal for a man to have three wives and four concubines, not to mention that I am still a prince. You understand that I treat you well, and I married a concubine.
, doesn’t mean I’m not treating you well.”
Three wives and four concubines is normal, but to me it is a complete fallacy. At first, I couldn’t figure out why the princess needed Prince Xuan to give it to her when she got married, but now I finally know. They have already planned this, and I am afraid that I, Princess Xuan, is the only one in the entire royal family.
I don’t know. He didn’t go to see off the bride at all, but to welcome her.
I quietly got dressed, combed my hair, put on my cloak and returned to my courtyard. Yuan'er was sitting by the brazier embroidering a sachet for me. Last time he only made one for Ru Lan, and even I didn't.
Yes. Seeing me coming in with a pale face, Yuan'er immediately dropped her needle and thread and came to help me.
"Gardenia, wear more clothes, I want to go out for a walk." I took out my own cotton cloak from the closet and handed it to Gardenia. Gardenia didn't say anything, put it on and supported me and went out.
It was getting dark, and there was only a little bit of light left. I don’t know when it had started to snow heavily in the sky, and the sky was falling. Pedestrians were hurrying on the streets of the capital, and even the brightly lit restaurants and brothels were dimmed in the whiteness of the snow.
I walked to the pavilion in the middle of the moat and didn't want to move anymore. Yuan'er used a handkerchief to sweep away the snow that had drifted in from the stone pedals, and I sat down. The snow became heavier and heavier, and the entire ancient city was shrouded in white.
.I handed over a jade flute in my hand and looked back. I don’t know when the big ice cube stood behind me.
I took Xiao Xiao and sadly played Liu Ruoying's "A Lifetime of Loneliness". My heart kept churning. I couldn't tell whether it was sadness and disappointment, or sadness and desolation. I couldn't get Chu Ruoxuan, and I didn't even want to stay peacefully in the street.
It was no longer possible to be around me. The big ice cube listened to me blowing for a while, then took it back and started to play. I sang this desolate song quietly, but never shed a tear.
.......
I think I will always be lonely. I will be so lonely all my life.
The one you like doesn't show up, the one who shows up doesn't like it, some love is hesitant and you still think about it, so you leave.
I thought about making do with it, but found that it was harder to make do with it, so I learned to be optimistic and live a lonely life.
When loneliness has become a habit that I no longer think about what to do, even if I am upset, even if I have no one to accompany me
How to calculate the difference between freedom and loneliness
I walked alone on the street looking at the sky and couldn't find the answer