I handled Min'er's funeral all by myself. Although Ruoyun Bingbing and the others helped me, I was still tired and sick for a few days. Maybe it wasn't because of fatigue, but because I felt depressed due to some insights.
The tombs of the royal family are all in the royal cemetery, and everyone has a fixed place. The place where Min'er is buried is designated for Prince Xuan's Mansion. When I was buried, I subconsciously looked around. I guess there will be a place here in the future. It's a stranger. As for me, maybe I will be here, or maybe, as the old man said, I will go with the water.
If I had a choice, I would rather go with the water than stay in this place. I am a person who likes peace and quiet, and I am even more afraid of the endless fight after death.
There was nowhere to inquire about the war on the border, so I didn’t know the date of Mo’s return. I simply decided on the baby’s name myself, and called her: Wanying-Shen Wanying.
I'm not very good at taking care of babies, so I found two wet nurses for her, both of whom came from innocent poor families. I was very satisfied.
Sometimes, I don’t understand myself. I clearly hated Mo very much when he left, and I also understood that from that moment on, we would no longer be able to treat each other as guests. But now, I take good care of his daughter and bury his baby. Concubine, maybe it's just sympathy that's causing trouble.
Maybe, sooner or later, I will stumble upon my damn compassion!
There are many fallen leaves in the palm garden, and I am relieved to know that autumn is already here
After resting for a few days, I finally had enough strength to leave the house. Wearing a thick cloak, I walked around the palace accompanied by the maid. The autumn air was crisp and the trees were dropping their leaves. The scenery would have made people feel good. , but it is full of desolation in my eyes.
This palace has become extremely depressed since the death of Mo Chuzheng Miner. As for me, I feel that I have aged a lot and I no longer have the usual energy. I even don't bother to go to Lan Yue Tower and Yi Fang.
Autumn was about to end and winter was about to come, and I received something from Yin Zhichuan. When I opened it, I found a delicate jade bracelet and a thin letter in the box.
"Gardenia, you can see words like faces.
I wanted to see you, but the wound recurred, so I had to stay in the fort to recuperate.
I have heard about the matter in the palace. No matter what, please take care of yourself. Don't be too noble and don't worry me.
The bracelet is an heirloom of my Yin family. I give it to you today. If you are unwilling to accept it, you can throw it away.
"Yin Zhichuan"
I smiled helplessly, put the box away and put it on the dressing table. A domineering person is so rude even when writing a letter. He knew that I would say that the bracelet was expensive and I couldn't afford it, but he asked me to throw it away, cutting off my escape route.
Since I sent something and wrote a letter, I must have been expecting a reply from me. Even if I scolded him, it would be better than nothing. Seeing that I hurt him, I had no choice but to write a short message and give it to his servant.
"Master Yin:
He promised to take good care of himself, but failed to do so. He is no better than a puppy.
Things in the house have been taken care of. However, life is so fragile, which makes me very sad.
I really can't afford the bracelet, and I don't want to throw it away. I'll leave it somewhere for now and return it someday.
There is no fragrant grass anywhere in the world, why bother to love a flower. When you can let go, let it go.