Shangguan Ruoyun and Da Bingkui invited me to go hiking in the snow and enjoy plum blossoms. Yin Zhichuan also sent people to send invitations to meet up, but I declined them all.
The flowers are similar every year, but the people are different every year. Last year when I was walking in the snow and admiring plum blossoms, I danced in red and was very happy. But this year, I didn’t feel that happy mood.
I just do the things I should do in a dull manner every day, and I don't want to think too much about the troublesome past and future. I know this state is not good. However, there is no way to change it.
Recently, Yin Zhichuan's voice and appearance have always appeared in front of my eyes. Touching the cold jade bracelet on my left hand, I had to admit that I didn't know when I had some feelings for him in my heart. However, I still resisted coldly and resisted myself.
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If you are a trouble yourself, why should you let others get into trouble as well?
After more than two months of recovery, Mo's injuries were basically healed. But as expected from the big ice block, Mo was unable to walk again.
Mo was not in the pain I imagined, and his face was still as easy-going and calm as before. However, I had no idea how much pain and struggle he had in his heart.
Min'er's matter couldn't be hidden, so I told the truth. I didn't see the sadness or heartache that I should have had on Mo's face. He just held Wanying in his arms and stared at her for a long time, then fell silent.
I must have had the same reaction when I died one day. I couldn't help but laugh, and I couldn't help but secretly sigh, luckily I didn't fall in love. I can't bear such a desolate situation.
I sent the housekeeper to push Mo to pay Min'er's grave, but I didn't follow. I knew that Min'er wanted Mo to visit her, and I didn't want to know if Mo had anything to say to her.
When it snowed for the third time, the weather was no longer so dry and cold. I pushed Mo and took a walk in the back garden. Gradually, I walked to the lake, but the guards at the lake had been removed at some point.
I didn't look into the lake anymore, and I didn't expect anything. I already knew all the endings and results. I sighed and inadvertently asked this question. "Mo, have you ever loved someone?"
"Who hasn't been young! Mo loved a girl very deeply, and thought that she would be my forever." Mo told the past events calmly, so calmly that you didn't feel that it was your own story.
"What happened next?" I asked.
"After I made three military exploits, I asked the Queen Mother to choose my concubine. The Queen Mother knew that I liked her and that she was just a girl from an ordinary family, so she finally agreed. We are fully looking forward to the future when Gardenia...
Gardenia forced the emperor to marry me." Mo's voice was trembling, and I deeply felt his suppressed pain.
Ouyang Zhi, Ouyang Zhi, you are really a mandarin duck, you deserve not to be loved.
"The power of the Ouyang family cannot tolerate our rejection, so we have to accept our fate! We originally planned to accept her as a concubine in some time, and she agreed. But... Gardenia did not allow me to accept my concubine. I have to wait for a year.
To no avail and because her parents forced her to marry someone else, she threw herself into the lake and committed suicide." Mo sighed, tears glistening in the corners of her eyes.
In this way, I also understood why Mo was so indifferent to Ouyang Zhi, and why he was so indifferent to me. I am afraid that true and profound love can only happen once in this life. And Mo has already given it to the dead girl.
If anything lasts forever, this is forever.
"Mo, if I said that I am not Ouyang Zhi, would you believe it?" Mo looked at me and still sighed. "Zhi'er lost her memory after falling into the water, her temperament changed drastically, and she has feelings for both the palace and Mo. I, already
I don’t blame Gardenia anymore. Maybe, this is fate.”
I smiled softly, and finally understood that it was inevitable that Mo and I would end up together today. Shangguan Ruoyun had not known me for long before he believed what I said. Mo, on the other hand, did not believe that I was not Ouyang Zhi.
"Does Gardenia have someone you admire? It seems that you, the steward of Lanyue Tower and the Lord of Jinshuo Castle are more than just friends, right?"
It turns out that Mo knows everything, but he always pretends not to know. If he doesn’t love, he won’t care. After all, he and I are the same kind of people. “After falling into the water, I also tried to love Mo. Unfortunately,
I failed."
Mo's hand gently placed on my hand pushing the wheelchair, which made me shiver from the cold. "Can Zhi'er give Mo another chance?"
I sighed and shook my head. If anything is too close, fate will inevitably end early. There are some secrets that couples cannot share. At this moment, we are just friends, and we can only be friends.
"Earlier, it was possible. Now, I'm afraid it won't be possible. Although Gardenia doesn't want to face her heart, she also knows that she has fallen in love with someone in her heart." I said calmly.
Mo patted my hand and stopped talking. I pushed him and walked on the thick white snow...
If you have love, you will die first, and if you don't have love, you will be with him for life. And am I the one who is willing to accompany him throughout his life? If he really planned to do this, would Yin Zhichuan kill Mo in anger and even kill me too?
However, it doesn't matter if you die, everything will be painless. Living, you have to endure so many moral responsibilities and the torture of love and dislike.