I got up very early and walked to the yard to take a last look at the scenery. The color of the bamboo forest began to darken, and the pear trees in the row on the left were already in bud, but unfortunately they were no longer visible. Murong Xuehuai once said, wait until the pear blossoms bloom.
When he came, he made me the queen. However, I was not interested in this queen.
In order to create a realistic picture of the truth about my suicide, I took out the Hedinghong that Yin Zhichuan gave me, opened the lid and put it on the table. Then I picked up a pen and wrote a letter to Murong Xuehuai. "Murong Xuehuai, I'm leaving.
The days in the palace made my life worse than death. I persisted, but failed in the end. What I want to tell you is that there are some things that do not belong to you, and it is useless to force yourself. Don't force things too much, so that you will be happy.
"
I opened the closet, picked out a white dress embroidered with plum blossoms, and put it on gently. Although the medicine was fine, I didn't know how the process would develop. I didn't have much confidence that I would be able to escape.
To be precise, I must escape alive. So I combed my hair and groomed myself as seriously as I treated real death, and only then did I give up.
I took out the pills, swallowed them gently, and then lay down on the bed. My head became heavier and heavier, and my body lost consciousness. My eyes automatically closed and I couldn't open them no matter what. I no longer heard my breathing, and I couldn't open it.
I could feel the beating of my heart again, but I could clearly hear everything going on around me.
This feeling is really terrible.
After a long time, I heard the screams of the palace maids, the sounds of the guards going back and forth, and the trembling voice of the imperial doctor declaring my death. Then I heard the sound of everyone kneeling down, it must be Murong Xuehuai coming. After a while
After the chaos, only Murong Xuehuai was left in the room. He sat on the bed and shouted at my body: "You don't want to be with me even if you die, you are so cruel!"
I heard the sound of crying and burst into tears. I couldn't help laughing. For a woman like me, he would cry for my death regardless of his status. Thinking of Shangguan Ruo's gentleness and Yin Zhichuan's affection, a woman can get so much love.
, even if I die like this, I'm afraid I should be content.
I just listened quietly for two days to the sounds of shuttles, cries, and quarrels. When I was tired, I fell asleep, and when I woke up, I continued to listen. Only then did I realize that if people live like this for a lifetime, it would be better to die.
Finally, when the funeral was held the next day and I thought I was relieved, Murong Xuehhuai stood beside the coffin and blocked the coffin. In front of the cultural relics, officials and concubines, I cried loudly. My heart was pulled together.
The resentment towards him gradually disappeared. In fact, he was considered a pitiful person.
Later, it seemed that the empress dowager came and pulled Murong Xuehuai away before placing my body in the coffin. According to the funeral ceremony of the imperial concubine of the Eastern United Kingdom, she carried the body to the mausoleum. Murong Xuehuai was weak from crying, so the empress dowager arranged
The person was sent back to Yangxin Hall to rest and did not follow the funeral.
I don’t know how long I walked. No one spoke along the way. Only the sound of clanking weapons came into my ears, which made me feel chilly. It wasn’t until the clanking of weapons appeared that I finally let go of my anxiety.
.
The coffin lid was pushed aside heavily, and someone picked me up and said softly next to me: "Gardenia, we're going home."
My consciousness gradually relaxed, and finally I couldn't stand it any longer and fell asleep.