Chapter 38 People should not be afraid to change themselves
Chapter 38 People shouldn’t be afraid to change themselves
"Brother, have you misunderstood something? Isn't it good to be able to attend the hearing? At least it means that your family is willing to spend money for you. I remember it costs six thousand yuan, right?"
"My dad is very rich. My family lives in the Second Ring Road of Beijing. We have two buildings, a dozen suites, and a courtyard. Six thousand yuan is nothing to him."
Lin Xiao: "..."
He didn't want to talk anymore.
Just be an autistic child by yourself.
No, it should be the autistic rich second generation.
But after a while, he still said: "That's right. Your family is so rich. It's too late for me to envy you. How can I look down on you? Why do you think so?"
Kong Huaan was silent for a moment, and finally, as if he wanted to open up his heart, he took a deep breath, returned to his bed, leaned against the bedside, and talked about the past.
But the sound is still as quiet as ever.
"My family has always told me this since I was a child. If I don't study as well as others, others will look down on me. They told me to study hard."
Lin Xiao couldn't help but feel speechless.
Are all the second generation rich people like this?
How should children from poor families like them feel comfortable?
Like him, all he can do is cheat?
He couldn't help but ask: "Is your family so strict with you?"
Kong Huaan nodded: "Well, I am the only son in the family. I have not had much time for myself since I was a child. I am either at school or studying with my tutor at home. I usually have interest classes, but later some tutors thought that I was not very good.
It was difficult to talk and communicate, so I stopped teaching it, but my family still asked me to study hard, so I had to study on my own."
"You really don't talk much." Lin Xiao shook his head, finally thought about it, and said, "Maybe your family expects you to get ahead too much, but their methods are a bit...excessive."
Kong Huaan nodded silently, "Yes."
The room was silent for a while.
Kong Huaan added: "So I feel... I am very similar to the depression mentioned on the Internet. I don't dare to commit suicide, but I think my life is probably like this. If it continues like this, maybe one day I will think about it.
Did it pass?"
"Then let's figure it out now. Won't it be good once we figure it out?"
"I don't want to commit suicide now."
...So you are talking about suicide?
Is this depression?
Lin Xiao said: "But at least your grades are pretty good. The fact that you are here means you are also pretty good at math."
"Well... except for mathematics, my scores in the four subjects can definitely get me into Beijing University and Qinghua University. I was very interested in mathematics, so I participated in the league, and unexpectedly passed the exam. Finally, I joined our Shanghai Mathematics Team.
After my family knew about it, they assigned me a lot of math tasks, and also invited several people who had won CMO gold medals in the past and coaches of the national mathematics team to give me extra lessons."
"But I always have a feeling that I don't like them forcing me to study. I like to study by myself. When I am forced to study, I feel depressed, so my math is getting worse and worse.
In the exams taken in the first two days, I only got ten points in total."
"Hmm..." Lin Xiao thought for a moment and said, "I understand. You actually like to be more free and don't want to be controlled, right? Just hold on a little longer. You will go to college soon, so you can leave."
Are you in your family?"
Kong Huaan shook his head and said: "My family is in Shangjing. I can only choose Beijing University and Qinghua University. My family will not accept other schools."
"What about studying abroad? Your family is so rich, you can definitely go abroad, right?"
"I don't like foreign countries. The environment abroad is too strange and the culture is different. Moreover, I heard that people like me will be bullied abroad."
Lin Xiao: "..."
He scratched his head. Should he be asked to provide psychological counseling to this rich second generation who is suspected of suffering from depression?
But what kind of psychological counseling does he know?
But at this time, Kong Huaan suddenly turned his head and asked him: "Does your family care about you?"
"As for this... don't worry too much about it. My family used to think it would be great if I could just get into one. But later on, when I got good grades and got into 985, they didn't care anymore."
"So now you can not only go to Qingbei, but you even have the opportunity to participate in international mathematics competitions?"
"maybe……"
Lin Xiao thought for a while, maybe it was because his family didn't care about him that he was more focused on studying, right?
Just like he was quite serious about his studies even before he obtained the system, otherwise he would not be able to remain among the top thirty in the school.
Thinking of this, he couldn't help but sympathize with Kong Huaan and understand him at the same time.
Just like interest and work, when interest turns into work, interest is lost.
That is to say, Lin Xiao now truly regards learning as a complete interest, so he will not feel depressed, or even show the opposite effect like Kong Huaan.
At this time, Kong Huaan sighed and said: "I envy you very much. If I were as talented as you, my family would probably not care about me like this. By the way, what do you think you can do well in studying like this?
Experience?”
"Experience... is nothing more than being envied by others. Apart from that, the biggest advantage is that I won't be stumped when doing questions." Lin Xiao said: "Besides, there is nothing to envy. You envy me for studying."
, I also envy your family background, everyone has something that others envy."
"maybe."
There was silence again.
Lin Xiao suddenly asked: "By the way, do you have faith?"
"Faith?" Kong Hua'an was stunned for a moment, then shook his head: "I don't believe in anything."
"It can also be a target or something?"
"I don't have a goal. I will do whatever my family arranges."
"Then you should set a goal for yourself."
"I... don't know what the goal is."
"So what are you interested in?"
"Me?" Kong Hua'an was stunned for a moment, lost in memories, and finally said: "I like computers."
"Computer? Then tell your family, isn't this a good hobby?"
"They think I'm here to play games...but what I want to learn is actually..." Kong Hua'an glanced at Lin Xiao and finally said: "Actually, I'm a hacker."
Lin Xiao was in awe: "Awesome! I also wanted to be a hacker before, but I didn't know how to find tutorials, so I just gave up."
Then he said: "Then you become a hacker."
"But my family doesn't let me touch computers often, and I also... don't want them to know that I'm learning hacking skills. I'm afraid they will think bad about it."
"It doesn't matter. You can choose a major in college. If you go to study computer science, your family can't stop you, right?"
"I'm afraid... they will refuse."
Hearing Kong Hua'an's words, Lin Xiao couldn't help but feel helpless. This kind of fear of his family really made him feel the need to correct it.
So he suddenly shouted: "Brother!"
The sudden sound startled Kong Hua'an.
Lin Xiao sat up from the bed, looked at Kong Huaan, and said seriously: "Everyone has to fight for himself once in his life, not to mention, what you want now is to fight for the right to choose freely."
"So to achieve your goals, you should stop caring about what you are afraid of and change your attitude."
"People can be afraid of death, but they should never be afraid of changing themselves."
