As soon as Huang Ting came, he knelt down next to my brother's coffin. I was stunned when I saw him like this. Not just me, Lu Yanhui and many people around me looked at Huang Ting in surprise.

Don't understand why he reacted like this.

I walked over and knelt down to look at him: "Huang Ting, why are you acting like this suddenly? Do you know something? Did something happen to my brother?"

But he didn't look at me. He just held the coffin and cried. I was anxious: "Huang Ting, why are you like this? Can you tell me?"

Lu Yanhui helped me up: "Okay He Sang, isn't it understandable that he would be sad when his friend died? Don't press him anymore."

I shook my head: "But why did he kneel down? He must know something." Huang Ting finally stood up. He looked at me and said, "He Sang, don't ask me. I'm sorry for your brother. Many things have happened."

I'm sorry, but I won't tell you."

After he finished speaking, he was about to leave. I held him back and said, "Huang Ting, I really want to know what happened, especially who hurt my brother's legs and feet like this. You

If you know, can you tell me?"

"I don't know." He took off my hand and said, "He Sang, Brother Cheng has always treated me as a brother. I am not a thing. I have sinned so much that I will never be able to forgive him even if I die ten thousand times. You are his sister,

I just hope you can live well, and you can live well, so that Brother Cheng can go with peace of mind."

Huang Ting came and went in a hurry, but I always smelled something unusual in his hasty condolences. However, it all seemed to be shrouded in a thick fog and could not be seen clearly.

Lu Yanhui hugged me tightly: "Don't think so much, just let your brother go. When the time comes, he will be cremated. No matter if he is cremated, all the unhappy things will be burned with the fire. Do you want to

If you open up a little, you can actually relax."

I buried my head in Lu Yanhui's arms, and tears kept falling: "I can't do it. I won't be sad if I can't do it. What should I tell my mother? I promised to take good care of my brother."

He kissed my hair: "This is his own choice. It has nothing to do with you or anyone else. If you are so sad, how uncomfortable will he be when he leaves?"

I wiped away my tears and the staff pushed the coffin away. We sat outside the cremation room and waited for the urn to be delivered. I remembered what he said to me. I drove him to watch the sunrise over the sea that day.

At that time, he told me that he hoped that after his death, his ashes could be scattered into the sea and scattered to many places in the world with the rise and fall of the tide.

At that time, I thought that those things were too far away from the present and there was no need to plan them in such a hurry, but it turned out that he had already planned all of them.

I understood it too late.

I couldn't finish this matter by myself. My mental state was not very good. My soles were weak when I walked. Lu Yan looked at me like this and refused to let me send it away. He said he was afraid that I would get angry if he saw his ashes scattered into the sea.

I lost control of my emotions again. I obeyed his words and returned to the villa to rest.

I couldn't eat, so Aunt Chen brought me hot rice porridge. I asked her to take it down, but she refused, so she put it on my bedside table and told me that I could eat some whenever I wanted.

I couldn't sleep either. It was more like I was in a daze when I was lying like this. I thought about a lot of things from my childhood. I thought about us living in an old apartment building and eating dumplings around the table during the Chinese New Year. My mother was there.

I tied a red string on my hand, saying it would bless the girl for a year of safety.

Thinking like this, from morning till night, I cried silently while thinking about me. When Lu Yan came back, I didn't get up to talk to him, nor did I even look at him.

It was he who spoke to me first: "I have scattered his ashes into the sea according to your brother's wishes, don't worry."

I didn't say anything. He lowered his head and looked at the dishes and chopsticks on the bedside table, then stretched out his hand to check the temperature. It was already completely cold.

He asked me: "Have you eaten anything for lunch? What about tonight?"

I shook my head.

"You haven't eaten at all? Didn't you eat at noon or at night?" He was a little annoyed: "Why are you tormenting yourself like this? People can't be resurrected after death, so you have to risk your own life to be happy, right? Sit up quickly and go downstairs.

go for meal."

I still didn't move. He took the things off the table, and soon brought the hot food back up, took me out of the bed, and made me sit up straight.

"I can't eat. Don't let me eat. I will eat when I want to."

"When you want to eat? I think you won't eat when you want to die. Don't waste time, drink the soup quickly, eat some rice, and I'll watch you eat it."

I had no choice but to take a sip of the soup with the spoon, but as soon as I lowered my head, tears fell down. He handed me a tissue, and I patted his hand to the side and refused to move the chopsticks again.

Lu Yanhui finally lost his patience and took a spoon, scooped a spoonful of rice and brought it to my mouth. He pinched my chin and said, "Open your mouth."

I swallowed the food slowly, and he continued to feed me. I shook my head: "I really don't want to eat, just let me go."

He suddenly threw the spoon on the table: "He Sang, it's not that I won't let you go, it's that you won't let yourself go. Look at how many days have passed since the day your brother committed suicide. I feel uncomfortable.

That’s for sure, but what you eat every day adds up to less than a fistful, and you’ve lost so much weight, so what’s the point of living a good life?”

As he spoke, he lit a cigarette for himself: "Everyone has sad moments. I was also sad when Xiaoyan died. But I go to the company on time every day, attend meetings as usual, and eat and drink as usual. This is me comparing you to

Where I understand, I understand that people cannot be resurrected after death, and I have to live well."

I still refused to listen to him, so I lay down on the bed with my back to him without looking at him. Lu Yanhui said harshly: "He Sang, let me tell you, I don't have much patience. You are like this when you are around me."

I have known it for a long time, and if you continue to behave like me, I will really be rude to you."

I was confused. He was still so cruel, which made me angry for no reason.

So I sat up suddenly and glared at him: "If you want to be rude to me, okay, okay, I'll just wait here to see how you can be rude to me?"

Later, I calmed down and thought about it. There was no reason for me to be angry with him. But at that moment, people seemed to need an opportunity and a reason to vent. When they were in pain and couldn't find an outlet, they would use other things to distract them.

, I feel better.

He didn't give me a chance to hesitate, and walked straight over to pull me up from the bed. The quilt was lifted too hard, and most of it fell to the ground, but I didn't even bother to pull it up.

Lu Yanhui pulled me into the bathroom. He grabbed my hair and asked me to look at my face in the mirror. I struggled to resist, but his hand was so strong that I couldn't resist.

In desperation, I allowed him to raise my head. I looked up at myself in the mirror. I saw a very haggard face. Because I ate very little and drank very little water, my lips were dry and chapped in this dry winter season.

He also slept in bed for a long time, and his hair was as messy as an unrepaired bird's nest. In addition, he was holding him unconsciously and unwillingly, and his whole face seemed to be distorted. What was in the mirror was a

Sloppy woman, he is so cruel, he made me see myself in such an unbearable state.

In fact, I was quite disappointed with myself, but I filled up with anger and directed my conflict at Lu Yanhui. I asked him to let go of me. Since he refused, I used some brute force. I grabbed his arm.

, I bit his forearm hard, and he grunted. I decided decisively, as if I had to bite off a piece of his flesh to relieve my anger.

He didn't take any measures at all. He just looked at me without saying a word. Seeing that I was discouraged, I let go of his hand dejectedly.

Lu Yan said to me: "Look at yourself, how can you still be the same as usual? Do you really think that you are also a female ghost? I have given you all the nice words to persuade you, and I will no longer say anything to comfort you.

That’s right, I just want you to know that you shouldn’t live such a wasteful and rough life in the following days. You have to learn to be stronger. No one can help you except yourself, He Sang, except yourself.”

After saying that, he slowly let go of me and said to me: "Okay, you've been crying for so long. Please wash your face and comb your hair. We are not the only ones at home. There is also a nanny and a driver."

Well, it won’t look good to them if they see it like this.”

I took another look at myself in the mirror and then said to him: "You go out, I want to take a shower."

"Do you need me to get you something?"

"I do not want."

He went out and closed the door. I put water in the bathtub, and then slowly sat in the hot water. I washed myself from top to bottom. The shower gel was mixed with the smell of shampoo. These light fragrances made me feel happy.

I finally felt some peace. I buried my head in the water and held my breath until finally, when I couldn't stand it anymore, I suddenly raised my head and enjoyed the short-term pleasure that this extreme water activity brought me.

After soaking in the water for a long time, when I got out of the bathtub, I felt a little light-footed and even walking in slippers was not solid. I wrapped myself in a bath towel and blew my hair. After I finished blowing, I combed it before opening the door and going out.

.

Lu Yanhui was busy with his work. When he saw me coming out, he looked up at me and said, "I finally look like a human being."

Then he stretched out his arm to show me: "Such a deep tooth mark has not disappeared even after a while. How much do you hate me for using so much effort?"

"You deserve it. Who told you to provoke me when I'm unhappy?"

He was not angry: "Since you have the strength to bite me, it means you are more energetic. My dad often tells me the truth, don't pretend to be dead when you are alive. This is just for people like you. Do whatever you have to do."
Chapter completed!