Song Xuan accompanied Ji Huai to the hospital.

The doctor was a psychiatrist whom she had made an appointment through her connections. He had good qualifications and a good reputation as a person.

After Ji Huai sat down, she walked out and waited for him in the corridor.

I walked back and forth many times, raising my wrist from time to time to check the time. He didn't come out for half an hour or an hour.

"boom!"

"I don't!"

Suddenly there was a fierce sound inside. Song Xuan was startled and quickly walked over to open the door, only to find that the door was locked.

She became more and more anxious outside.

After a while, the door opened from the inside, and Ji Huai walked out with his head lowered, his whole body filled with a decadent aura, and he looked at each other.

There were very complicated emotions in his deep eyes, including guilt, embarrassment, sadness, embarrassment and embarrassment, and a little uneasiness.

Song Xuan said nothing and forced a smile, "Can we go back?"

Ji Huai nodded slowly and said nothing.

"Then..." Song Xuan glanced at the doctor and thanked her sincerely, "Doctor, we will leave first, thank you."

"Yes." The doctor nodded.

It has been raining for the past few days. Song Xuan was holding an umbrella in her hand. Ji Huai beside her remained silent. The atmosphere was a bit heavy. She was also thinking wildly in her heart. Could it be that the matter was serious?

"Let's go to the bookstore first. I want to buy books." Ji Huai suddenly said.

"Ah? Oh, there are so many. Let's go now." Song Xuan thought she heard wrongly at first. What kind of book should she buy? She quickly reacted and followed him, "I remember there is a big bookstore here, just in the second shopping mall.

Lou, shall we go now?”

"kindness."

The bookstore on the second floor.

Ji Huai walked inside. He looked at the books on the bookshelf carefully and passed them row by row.

Song Xuan doesn't know what book he wants to buy. He is not a person who likes to read. He likes to play games with He Chenxiang the most. He also likes to drink and chat. Did the doctor say anything to him?

Ji Huai stayed in the psychological area.

"Counseling and Treatment of Psychological Disorders", "Self-Treatment of Psychological Disorders", "What are Psychological Disorders?"...

Song Xuan watched him take down a book. As long as it was about psychology, he took down all the books. Finally, he picked eight books and turned to look at her, "Do you want to buy a book?"

"I want to buy it too. I want to read history books recently." Song Xuan nodded, afraid that he would be reading a book and she would sit aside and not know what to do.

She chose a history book, thinking that it was too expensive in bookstores, so she went back to place an order online to buy a series.

Ji Huai took it to check out together, and even applied for a membership card, which would give him a discount.

He carried the book and the two of them walked back.

Along the way, Song Xuan looked at him out of the corner of her eye several times and hesitated to speak. When she got home and went downstairs, she still didn't say anything out loud for fear of hurting him.

After entering the elevator, Ji Huai looked ahead and said in a low voice, "The doctor said that I have a mental disorder, possibly anxiety, and am on the verge of becoming slightly manic. I will self-anaesthetize and escape myself, and may even develop into depression."

disease, hurting others, or hurting yourself.”

Although Song Xuan had heard of these terms, and had a little understanding of them when she was in school, she was not a major in this field, so she had just skimmed over them, and had no in-depth understanding of these mental illnesses. "Well, what does the doctor recommend?"

In fact, these issues are quite complex. There is still relatively little research on mental illness in the medical field, and she feels a little heavy.

"Try to self-regulate, divert attention, self-intervene, and in severe cases, you may take medication to intervene." Ji Huai said, looking sideways at her, expressionless, or in other words, he was still in the stage of disbelief and had not yet clearly understood.

Know.

"Well, mood is very important. When it comes to psychology, few people are absolutely healthy. There are more or less problems. Drugs hurt the body, but it still needs to be adjusted by its own mechanism. The human body is a very powerful self-regulating machine.

It will definitely recover." She comforted him.

Self-regulation is the best, as long as it can achieve clinical cure, she is really afraid that he will get worse. Mental illness is more terrible than physical illness. It destroys the body and mind, from the inside out, completely. What will happen then?

?

The elevator door opened, but Ji Huai didn't go out. He stared at her face with a stubborn look and a hint of hope, "Really?"

"Of course." She nodded affirmatively.

Before she finished speaking, she felt that Ji Huai breathed a sigh of relief, pressed the door button, held her hand and walked out.

Song Xuan looked at his figure with worry in her eyes.

When Ji Huai went to take a shower, she called the doctor to find out more about the situation. She felt really uneasy and restless.

What the other party said was roughly the same as what Ji Huai said, but in the end he emphasized, "In fact, he has been suppressing it and has not exposed it. I guess you played a big role in it."

Song Xuan didn't quite understand.

The doctor told her that based on the current situation, there may be two extremes. Ji Huai only has her by his side, and he may use her as a vent object. She will be injured by then, because his body functions will shift in order to protect himself.

The method is instinctive. The other is that she will pull him out of it, which is often called the power of love.

It's hard for doctors to judge which one it is at the moment, because Ji Huai is not sick. At most, he has some shadows in his childhood, has inner obstacles, is suppressed, and is on the verge of breaking out.

Song Xuan hung up the phone and looked at the dark sky in the distance outside the window, feeling unspeakable in her heart.

Speaking of the power of love, she herself didn't believe it. Ji Huai had quarreled with her so many times. Looking back, it was obvious that he had vaguely regarded her as a vent object. All this seemed to have an explanation.

She understands the fragility of life and the ruthlessness of disease better than ordinary people. The reason why miracles are called miracles is not what ordinary people expect. But Ji Huai is better. It is not a terminal illness. After treatment, he can live a normal life. As long as the knot in his heart is untied.

, let go of those obsessions and resolve the shadows.

"Would you like to order barbecue and drink?" He Chenxiang's voice came from outside.

"No." Ji Huai was not in a high mood. As soon as he finished speaking, he opened the door and walked in. He looked at Song Xuan who had put away his emotions in a hurry, "Do you want to take a shower?"

"I'm going." Song Xuan's tone became much nicer to him.

How should I put it, although he had hurt her during the quarrel, she felt relieved when she thought that he himself was not feeling well. Maybe it couldn't be cured, but she still didn't want to leave him at this time.

I can't bear it, and I can't bear it.

After returning from the psychiatrist, Ji Huai was not in a very good mood.

I read every night instead of drinking with He Chenxiang or playing games. I just read in my room. When I read, most of them frowned, sometimes in confusion, sometimes in anger.

Sometimes I would have dinner with her after get off work and go to work together in the morning.

When Song Xuan came home from get off work, Ji Huai did not talk and laugh with the two of them in the hall as before, but stayed in the room. She sighed helplessly in her heart.

Her loneliness has been reduced a lot. Even in a shared apartment, Ji Huai is with her and never leaves her alone. When she comes back, she only has to cross the hall to find their small home. She doesn't want much.

That's what she wanted before. If he stayed with her more like this, the two of them wouldn't quarrel so much.

However, it made her very sad to think that this was because he knew she was sick and was in such a state.

She opened the door, and he leaned on the bed and read a book again. He read it over and over again. Sometimes he would think there for a long time, with his eyes struggling.

Song Xuan got into bed after washing herself, leaned against him, and asked, "What time did you get home from get off work?"

"I'll get home at half past six." Ji Huai replied.

"Then what did you have for dinner? Did you order takeout or eat with them?" She looked for a topic. She got off work a little late today and had already eaten when she got home.

"Tian Shao works the evening shift and ordered some maocai with He Chenxiang." Ji Huai reached over her head, hugged her, and played with her hair, "What time did you get off work?"

"I didn't come back until nine o'clock. The hospital has been busy recently and there are few manpower. Zhang Jie asked for leave to have a miscarriage. The new nurse doesn't know much about it. It may be even later in the next few days." Song Xuan then put his book down.

He stood aside, then put his hand on his frowning brow, stretched it for him, and half-jokingly said, "Why do you always frown? Aren't you afraid of getting wrinkles?"

"What am I afraid of as a man?" Ji Huai didn't care at all.

"Like a little old man." She said with a smile again,

Ji Huai also laughed, and continued what she just said, "If you get off work late, I will pick you up."

He goes to and from work regularly and has weekends off. His work is not difficult, and his salary is pretty average.

"Won't it be troublesome? I can come back myself." Song Xuan spoke softer and quieter.

He used to pick her up, every day at first, and the two chatted on the road. Later, he often ate, chatted and drank with He Chenxiang and the others, so he rarely went there. Occasionally, he would call and ask him to deliver something, but he would still pick her up.

Will go.

But she still wanted him to pick her up. In the past, the two of them would hold hands and chat and walk back. When they came back, it was very late. It was time to pack up and go to bed, so that she would not be left alone in the room.

"You won't be lonely when we come back together. I have nothing to do anyway." Ji Huai answered.

"Then you come and pick me up." She didn't hesitate and put her arms around his neck, "You can't break your promise."

"Yeah." He nodded.

Song Xuan's eyes fell on the book he was reading again, and she asked cautiously, "How are you doing with your reading?"

Ji Huai is much calmer now, but she is afraid that this is the calm before the storm, and she is also afraid that he will get into trouble and his condition will worsen by then.

"Just like that, some things can be understood, and some are not clear, but I didn't become like this for no reason." Ji Huai looked at her, his eyes changed, and he was slightly excited, "I wasn't like this before.

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To be continued...