"I know." Song Xuan also nodded, strongly agreeing with him.

Ji Huai's eyes dimmed again, he was angry and impatient. Finally he closed his eyes and hugged her in his arms. The strength was a little stronger, but Song Xuan didn't dare to move and hugged him. "It's okay. Come back."

Past.”

"I want to kill someone." Ji Huai's low tone echoed in the silent room.

Song Xuan's face turned pale with fright.

"I used to always think about how to kill her, how to kill someone without anyone noticing. I hate everyone, and I hate living, but I don't want to die. I don't want to die."

"I don't want to see her. She always appears in a very annoying way. When I see her, I feel bad. I feel like hitting someone."

.....

Song Xuan listened to him talking continuously, as if he was venting. No wonder he always went back to Ji's house and was in a bad mood when he came back. If he wanted to quarrel with her, the more violent the quarrel, the better. Sometimes she didn't want to quarrel, but he wouldn't comply.

No mercy.

"Then you hate me too?" Her tone was a little disappointed. She didn't know how to warm a world-weary heart. Maybe she was a person who was incompetent in love.

Confused and sad.

Ji Huai said without hesitation, "I love you, I don't hate you."

He said, hugging her a little tighter, "You are different from her."

"Then have you thought about a future with me?" She asked the question she had always wanted to ask.

Hearing this, Ji Huai stiffened up and didn't reply to her for a long time.

Song Xuan guessed it and wanted to cry a little. He had never thought about the future or marriage, so he didn't care where he lived and would not move out because he had no future.

She came to live with him because she wanted to get married.

"I don't want to have a child and repeat this kind of life." Ji Huai looked at her again, very seriously, "When you are born, you will suffer. Why give birth? Why get married?"

Seeing Song Xuan glance away, he relaxed his mind and said hesitantly, "We can continue to live together like this without having children."

Song Xuan is a traditional girl who wants to get married and have children step by step and live an ordinary life. She did not answer, but whispered softly, "Go to sleep, I'm a little sleepy."

"Isn't this bad?" he asked again.

She got up from his arms and reached out to turn off the light. The room instantly became dark. Ji Huai pulled her over again, held her with both hands, and asked again, "Then what do you think?"

She still didn't speak.

Ji Huai was impatient and irritable. He reached out to turn on the light and stared at her, asking for an answer, "Why don't you speak?"

There was no trace of sleepiness in Song Xuan's eyes. She looked at him, struggled for a while, and finally said, "Ji Huai, when you feel better, I will move out."

"I told you, I won't move until the one-year contract expires..."

"You are here, we... are not together anymore." She interrupted him with a very gentle tone, "I can stay with you for this period of time, even a year, but not for a few years. I still have me.

life and purpose.”

"You mean to break up? Just because you don't want to get married?" He was very emotional and kept questioning her.

Song Xuan was sad, but did not escape, "Ji Huai, this is not the life I want."

"Is it because of my illness? You said it clearly." His face was ashen.

Based on previous experience, Song Xuan knew that he was on the verge of an emotional outburst and was about to start a big argument again. She tried to slow down her voice and said, "It's not your illness. You said you love me. The so-called love means letting me rent a house here to accompany you."

If I live a life without any plans, goals, or future, what will happen if my love is gone? What else do I have?"

"Whether you're not married or you're a DINK, it all has a future. Does it mean that one day at a time, it's the future you planned for me? I'm very sad, but I know that this kind of life has no future."

His face looked ugly. She didn't dare to provoke him and quickly changed the subject, "Don't talk about it now. We haven't talked about marriage yet, so we won't talk about it anymore."

"Then let's get married." Ji Huai made a concession. After saying that, he had a complicated expression about the next step of having children. He moved his mouth several times but did not say anything out.

"Don't force yourself, go to sleep." Song Xuan didn't want to embarrass him. When his condition improved, she would be relieved to leave.

At night, neither of the two people lying on the bed could sleep.

I don't know how long it took before Ji Huai's worried voice came over, "I don't have a plan because I just want to live. I'm afraid I won't like the child I have with you, and you will be very sad. I don't want to make you sad."

Sounding a little helpless, Song Xuan wanted to cry, she really did.

"Xuanxuan, I'm sorry." He apologized.
Chapter completed!