I suppressed my grief and asked Bai Jing, "Where is Pipi?"

"To his grandfather and grandmother..." Bai Jing cried before she finished speaking.

I closed my eyes and couldn't control my tears. How should I face Zuo Lan's parents and my son, Pipi? In an instant, I felt that I had died with Zuo Lan... as if I had no ability to do anything again.

Where does everything originate from, but what is seen is extinguished?

This is how life is. If I hadn't taken Chen Qingyi back to meet my parents, then Chen Qingyi wouldn't have left, nor would there be any aggressiveness from my family. I wouldn't have to go to the bar to drink and relieve my sorrows... Even if I drink more glass of wine and avoid the drunk driver, I wouldn't have such a result... Everything is destined! I can't blame anyone except myself, I wish I could do it!

Pipi's innocent and charming smile suddenly appeared in front of me... The two dimples he had when he smiled were so similar to Zuo Lan... My heart was cramped... I want to live, for Pipi, I want to pour all my love on him... This is the best explanation to Zuo Lan.

......

It was a sunny day, and everyone except Pipi attended Zuo Lan's funeral... Her tombstone was close to Qi Dong's tombstone.

Her epitaph is very simple: hear, the soil sprouts; wait, the cereus blooms again, leaving the fragrance to the years...

Everyone's face was solemn... The wind was so gentle, just like Zuo Lan's quietness...

I knelt in front of Zuo Lan's parents and asked for forgiveness...

Zuo Lan's mother said to me with red and swollen eyes: "Call you scold you and blame you, Lan Lan will not come back to us again. It's just a matter of being too stupid... You get up, it's all your life!"

"Zuo Lan gave birth to Pippi for me. From now on, you will be my parents. I will definitely take care of you for the rest of my life... Sorry, dad, mom..." I lowered my head, my voice hurt...

Zuo Lan's parents remained silent...

"I have bought a house for you in Jinan. You can move to Jinan to live... Let me do my duty to be a son-in-law!"

"We don't want your compensation like this. I just hope that in the future you can fulfill your responsibilities as a father and let Pippi grow up like other children is the greatest comfort for us. If you know anything under the Lanlan Spring, you will be happy..."

My parents came to Zuo Lan's parents and said guiltily: "......... Move to Jinan, so it will be convenient to see Pipi in the future..."

Zuo Lan's parents burst into tears again! I couldn't get up after kneeling... My heart was still twitching in pain, and I was the one I would rather die!

.........

Everyone has left, I am alone in front of Zuo Lan's tombstone... Looking at her smiling portrait, I can no longer shed tears...

I took out my phone and played the song "The Legend of the Side" she liked most during her lifetime.

"I saw it and disappeared. Remember that I stood at the end of the sea and heard the soil sprouting and waiting for the pelvis to bloom again. Let the fragrance be left for the past. There is no lighthouse. I still look at it. The darkness is white. My hair is tightly grasping my torch. I tell myself that I am not afraid. I love him very much..."

With the sound of music, I looked up at the sky... It seemed that every cloud floating by was my sorry...

"Zuo Lan, my wife... tell me: Is there really that flower waiting to bloom on the other side?... Or, everything is just a passing cloud?... And a hundred years later, you are not you, and I am not me!"

Lost, I remembered the Taoist priest's words again: I will take on the responsibility of a family...it is now fulfilled.

"I wish to be a person who is dedicated to you, and I will not be separated from my old age." But I misinterpreted the Taoist priest's words... If there is really a saying of numerology, then what he said must be Zuo Lan... Only she deserves this sentence. She is the beginning of my love... But because of my fault, I failed to make her my end... I will never wait for her to be old again!

Walking on this road of redemption, did I really save myself?......No, in the running of my head, I went astray, and the redemption was just a mere career. My love had completely disappeared from the moment Zuo Lan left. It doesn't matter if I was lonely for a lifetime, or if I were with any woman......

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Drive in the car and wandering on the streets, the New Year atmosphere is getting heavier and heavier... Five days left is New Year's Eve, and among the crowds, I seem to be only my soul, and other people's happiness and pain, I am just a numb spectator.

I got out of the car and walked in the wind. The scarf that Zuo Lan woven for me on my neck was no longer as glossy as before, and it seemed to fade because of crying.

I walked into a toy store and bought a shopping cart toy. The meaning of my life is just for Zuo Lan's children and me.

The moment I walked into the house, I smiled: "Pipi, look at how my dad bought you a lot of toys."

My aunt made a "shush" gesture to me: "Pipi was coaxed to sleep by Qingyi just now, don't disturb him."

I didn't say anything, put the toy on the coffee table...

"Yixi, I'm sorry...we... shouldn't interfere with your marriage and your life!"

"Don't tell me this, it's too late!" I lit a cigarette and smoked silently.

"It's your duty to hate us... Our family will definitely regard Pipi as the pearl in our palm."

I looked at her coldly, not wanting to say a word...

"Let Pipi find a mother. The child is so young, so he can't be without maternal love... If he waits for him to grow older and understands everything, it will not be so easy to accept!" After pausing for a long time, the little aunt continued, "... As for who it is, we will never force you again..."

I pinched my fist and made a squeak... My heart was ashamed, but I shed tears again!

"Don't you always want Chen Qingyi and I to marry?... As long as she wants, I will fulfill you." I said coldly and without any expression.

My heart is bleeding. I know that Anqi will not accept Pippi, and her family will not accept Pippi... I no longer have the strength to fight for anything, nor do I want to place myself in another vortex, nor do I care about who the woman I am with. I just want to give Pippi a quietest and most peaceful environment to grow up. As long as he likes the woman I am about to marry, that's enough. Compared to Anqi, he must prefer the caring, warm and friendly Chen Qingyi.

No matter how much I hate my family, my blood is always thicker than water, and things have come to this point...

.........

Chen Qingyi gently took the door and walked out of Pipi's room. She looked at me with guilt. If it weren't for her departure, maybe there would be no tragedy today. In fact, she didn't have to do so. Due to fate, none of us could resist.

I put out the cigarette butts in my hand and said to Chen Qingyi: "I have something to talk to you."

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PS: Since I decided to write this, I must be ready to accept all negative reviews... I don't want to explain anything, but since the first time the name Zuo Lan appeared in this book, I decided to give her this ending... This is the first time I have written what I want to cry... I have also been abused.
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