Lin Xiaohua obviously won't comment on this. I don't think anyone is willing to share the final pain after the death of the heart with others. It can only be tasted by oneself.

"The following story is simple at best. The first time we met, the seeds were planted for the first time. In the years to come, I will be able to distinguish which brother is the good brother and which one is the bad brother. Don't think

It is difficult for you to explain many things to a child. In fact, it is easier to see things from his (her) simple perspective, and he/she accepts them so quickly.

, because their thinking has not yet solidified, and they have not yet learned to reject other people's opinions and protect their own world and sense of security. I didn't think it was that complicated at the time, and I didn't think there was anything weird about it. I just stubbornly classified that person as good.

Brother and bad brother." Lin Xiaohua told the story lightly, and slowly, her hoarse voice began to change and became a little thicker.

It's the kind of voice that is different from girls and young women.

The wind blew, and Lin Xiaohua grew old in memories.

Regarding the good brother and the bad brother, there is really no need to recall too many details. One is cold and aloof, with a look of contempt. The other is kind, gentle and warm, with the breath of sunshine. Such a gap between the two extremes will give a little girl

You can actually imagine what kind of impression it will leave on the child.

The bad ones get worse, and the good ones get better. Children's judgments are so simple.

Lin Xiaohua did not go into too many details about her growing up years. She only talked about the first two memories of her walking out of the courtyard gate. It was her good brother who took her. She lay on her back and was carried by him.

Walked out of the small courtyard.

After carrying her for a long time, she came into contact with many people. They looked at him with respect and spoke politely, just because she was lying on his back.

"Perhaps when I was a child, I was taken out to see a doctor? Or something else? Or maybe it was my selective forgetfulness. I only remember that when he carried me out that day, I saw the blue sky outside and the soft warm wind.

Outside the village, the sound of the rushing river water was like a 'distant' world that I had never been to." Lin Xiaohua only had one sentence to comment on this paragraph.

Another detail is that both of them were teenagers. In the middle of the night, Lin Furui suddenly woke up and went to Lin Xiaohua's room. That night, two immature boys and girls had their first love.

Deep conversation.

On that night, Lin Xiaohua saw the tearful Lin Furui for the first time. When she felt a strong desire to comfort someone for the first time, words were not enough and language was so lacking.

If a seed was sown when I was a child, and it sprouted that night and took root in my heart, I will never forget it again.

"Don't say that he is the only one in my world, because the whole process of falling in love with him is not just these two details? The little things we get along with day and night, and the extreme state of mind, that is, that person is clearly in front of you, but it is not him.

, you desperately long for him to appear. If you wait for a long time, it will become a disease, and the morbid dependence will

Love that is accompanied by ignorance is the most terrifying thing, just because their roots are too strong, and they will take root in the deepest part of the heart. How to pull them out? Pull them out by the roots, and you will tear out the whole heart." Lin Xiaohua's

The tone was so calm, but it was telling me the beginning of an unforgettable love.

I am very silent. There are many kinds of love in this world, but no matter how it starts, what twists and turns it takes, whether it is calm or intense, the most fearful thing is just taking root in the heart. As Lin Xiaohua said, so what?

Tear it off? Or just let it wither? But if it grows in the flesh and is watered by blood, it can't wither so easily. After all, it has spent so much effort on its own, so it remains in the soul.

Lin Xiaohua also told the following story in an unusually concise manner. It was nothing more than that when they grew up, Lin Xiaohua's illness was half cured with the help of God.

Why is it only half? I couldn't help but ask.

After all, I know that all kinds of gods will be more or less influenced by Lin Furui, and Lin Furui should have fallen in love with Lin Xiaohua at that time.

Because throughout the years of growing up, it was not only Lin Xiaohua who was lonely, but also Lin Furui. What was even more frightening was that Lin Xiaohua still had self-awareness and knew his own existence, but Lin Furui didn't even have this, just because others knew him.

It's that high God.

Except under God's deliberate control, family members who rarely meet each other can recognize his existence, and the rest is Lin Xiaohua.

What's even more different is that Lin Xiaohua not only gave him recognition, but also dependence, admiration, trust and love! Faced with such feelings, coupled with the years of growing up, how could a somewhat cowardly boy who had been suppressed not respond?

Possibility of not accepting it?

What's more, Lin Xiaohua was a charming woman. Even though her body was in such bad shape at that time, it could not hide her brilliance.

Otherwise, how could that superior god let it go? If he didn't recognize Lin Xiaohua, with his domineering and strength, he would definitely try his best to stop Lin Furui. After all, from a certain point of view, they are the same person.

So, under such circumstances, why was God only willing to cure Lin Xiaohua half way?

"It's very simple. The biggest difference between God and Lin Furui is control. At that time, when he wanted to come here, he was afraid that I wouldn't follow him, so he was only willing to cure half of me. There are two other reasons. First, in the outside world

, he didn’t dare to overdo it and keep the power of the Sky Pattern Stone. Secondly, he used this to put pressure on my parents to take me away." Lin Xiaohua said very simply.

Maybe time is really running out and she can no longer tell too many details.

But in fact, if it weren't for Lin Furui's existence, God would definitely not be able to take away this girl who, because of her physical disability, had an extremely tough heart that was tempered during her growing up years.

She left with him very simply. The biggest reason was that she didn't understand her parents at that time and felt that they were just flattering God. After God came, a lot of their love for her was wiped out. She couldn't possibly

No complaints.

"My parents both passed away not long after I entered here. I don't want to go into detail about the sadness at that time. I just remember the truth that Lin Furui told me, because God was afraid that I would still care about the outside world and not be at ease.

I wanted to stay by his side, so I just used some little tricks to make my parents die early.

At that time, I learned the truth from Lin Furui's mouth, that is, my parents were so flattering to God, and everything was done to cure me. As for how Lin Furui knew, it was because after entering here, he became more and more integrated with God.

." Lin Xiaohua finally talked about her parents, but she was very calm and there were no tears in her eyes.

Because this girl has already decided to pay back what she owes. She has firmed up her determination. What else is too sad?

"Have you always thought that I am a very wise woman? In fact, no, if you care, you will be chaotic and cruel, just like I can't see clearly the painstaking efforts of my parents towards me. Because I always feel that the human heart is cruel, cruel

Even with the same small mistake, my heart will not care about strangers, thinking that since you are

Stranger, you should make mistakes, because you have no obligation to be good to me. But you will care about the people you care about, thinking that I care about you and I have paid for you. Why do you make mistakes to me? So, I

It’s also cruel because they are my parents, and I take more love for granted, if strangers do this

I was naturally grateful for raising me, but what about my parents? I actually felt blamed and unwilling. Then I thought, shouldn’t I be more tolerant to the people I care about, the people I care about, and the people I’m familiar with? It’s not easy to be lucky in life, but I can still give to strangers.

understanding, why can't you give it to them? Let the feelings be more sublimated? After all, for you

Whether you are good or not is a natural thing, and whether you are good to others or not is also a natural thing originally. With the addition of gain and loss, it is no longer like this, and you start to look at the rewards." Lin Xiaohua's words were very long, maybe

It's not that she decided to pay it back and the pain really stopped, but this tolerant girl was used to hiding it.

If it really doesn't hurt, how can you have such an understanding?

I squinted and watched the wind in the sky lift up tiny debris from the war. The smell of blood was desolate, but all I could say was: "No, experience makes you wiser."

, at least much better than me, the idiot you call me."

"Oh, I've talked too much. The rest, there's really nothing to talk about. It's just the endless entanglement between the three of us here, especially after God discovered that my blood essence is a trump card for him to save his life. You may listen

After I came out, I deliberately avoided some of God’s actions and daily interactions with me, because I felt they were not worth remembering. Because He said he loved me, and the bigger reason was His absolute desire for control.

Of course, I want to control the fact that I love Lin Furui. This is also due to his arrogance. In his eyes, how can I love the humble Lin Furui instead of him? This is the answer to everything. Chen Chengyi, if there is anything else I want

I'm telling you, there's only one thing." Lin Xiaohua's voice was already very old at this point. In fact, you don't have to think about it deliberately to know that at this moment, she has completely aged.

Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of the tips of her hair, which were completely white. Could this be the sadness that dawns like blue silk and turns into snow at dusk? My heart was trembling inexplicably.

"Do you know why I said he pursues death? That is a dividing point between me and him. After this dividing point, he will gradually cease to be him." Lin Xiaohua's voice seemed to have penetrating magic power, which made me see

A night between her and Lin Furui.

The first time Lin Furui cried in front of him was when he was a teenager.

And that night was the second time Lin Furui cried in front of Lin Xiaohua. He told Lin Xiaohua that he could no longer restrain himself and became more and more like the god he hated the most. He told Lin Xiaohua that he didn't want anything in this life, he just wanted someone.

Death, because after death there is at least reincarnation and hope.

He also told Lin Xiaohua: "In this life, I am willing to give up everything, just to die, but I can't even commit suicide, he will wake up. You have to understand me, it's not that I am willing to abandon you, but that I really don't have any

If you can no longer face yourself, you will no longer be yourself, so how can I love you like this? Xiaohua, are you willing to believe it? I will definitely remember you in the next life, and I will still be your brother Xiaorui in the next life."

"Is this why you follow him like a believer, but he follows death?" I couldn't help but ask.

"Yeah, actually I can understand, and I can even fulfill his dream as mine. But what woman wants will be an illusory next life, instead of being able to stay together in front of us, even for a minute of happiness?

What? I often sigh, but in the end it fulfilled him." Lin Xiaohua said softly.

"But, in the end, he didn't want this fulfillment." I couldn't help but say.

"It's not him who doesn't want this fulfillment. Since that night, he has become extremely ill and slowly died. I witnessed the process of his death. I lived hard, maybe holding on to a glimmer of hope that he was still him, you know

Yes, there is no hope of living

It was even more difficult. I told myself countless times that I was just fulfilling his last wish. His slap shattered his hope. What else could I have left? Lend him warmth and give him hope in this life. I have been entangled until now, and that was enough.

Already." Lin Xiaohua's voice sounded like she was about to fall asleep.

"Actually, you are not fulfilling his last wish. You still want to give him relief in the end. If you can't choose death, he will always be a wretch suppressed by God, or even disappear completely. How can you bear to watch such a thing?

Happened?" I finally couldn't help but expose Lin Xiaohua's understatement.

"Haha Chen Chengyi, the Sky Pattern Stone is destroyed, the soul of God is completely imprisoned in it, and then it will slowly dissipate. There is no need to do anything because there are big benefits. In the face of failure, there must be big benefits.

What’s the harm, is this God’s secret? Look how much he likes me, Chen Chengyi. If I stop talking when I get tired, then I will die.”

"Chen Chengyi, do you know why I'm telling you this? Because I loved him so much, but his existence in this life is just a god in the eyes of others. How can I bear to let him not leave traces in the hearts of anyone except my family?"

"Chen Chengyi, I am very selfish. I told you so blindly that I actually loved him all my life. In the end, I thought you, the little guy, was pretty cool."

After all, Lin Xiaohua didn't finish all her words, and her whole body was so soft that it rested on my shoulders.

Grandma Ling Qing suddenly covered my eyes and said to me: "Chengyi, don't read this poor girl's last wish! Please open your eyes again after I cover her with a headscarf."

And my tears slipped unconsciously from Grandma Ling Qing's fingers.
Chapter completed!