When I thought I was about to die on the boat, it was the child in my belly who gave me hope. So, I would rather die, rather I would never see it again, than give birth to this child. I was very afraid that Si Quan would tell Lei
Yu Feng, so I threatened him, as long as he said it, we would no longer be friends.
I'm so afraid that Lei Yufeng will let me abort the child if he finds out about it. He won't want it, he won't want it.
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I don’t want to have surgery, I don’t want to have my brain cut open, I’m scared!
I don’t want to become a fool, I don’t want to lose my child, I’m really scared![
Should I not love him? Is this a punishment from God?
But thinking about all the things I had with him in the past, I don’t even have a single regret!
I am guilty. I loved someone I shouldn’t have loved, and I brought harm to my loved ones.
Dad, forgive me! Please! Forgive me!
…
Seeing this, Lei Yufeng burst into tears. Was there congestion on her brain? He didn't even know. Moreover, how could she misunderstand that he didn't want their child?
In this world, besides her, who else can give him a child?
If he had known that she had their child, he would have kept her by his side. God knows how much he regretted it, causing her so much pain and hurt.
With tears in his eyes, he turned over page after page...
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I woke up crying because he was in my dream.
He said he would take me to eat hot pot together; he said he liked to eat the cakes I made; he said he wanted to spend Christmas together...
But when I woke up, there was nothing.
Lei Yufeng, you owe me a hot pot meal, you owe me a Christmas, you owe me...because I love you, so you owe me love!
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I miss him so much and love him so much!
Hiding in the sugar cane field, I cried when I saw him and that beautiful Western girl.
In fact, in my heart, I always hope that he can live a better life than me and be happier than me. But when this really happens, my heart hurts and breaks!
It turns out that love is often so selfish. I thought I could let go generously, I thought I could see him happy, but that was all a lie to myself.[
Lei Yufeng, I love you! But I hope you can love me as much as I love you!
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The bathroom door opened with a bang, Lei Yufeng raised his head, still holding the unfinished diary in his hand.
Mu Yiyi walked slowly towards this side with her long hair loose and a towel wrapped around her body.
The soft light cast a faint halo on her fair skin. There was no expression on her delicate facial features, and she was strangely calm.
Her steps were extremely slow, as if she was afraid of falling. She should be looking at him, but her eyes were so empty, unfocused, and lifeless.
Lei Yufeng's heart tightened, and he suddenly realized something, and even his breathing froze.
Mu Yiyi can't see, can she not see again?
He wanted to go over and hold her tightly in his arms, but his whole body seemed to be filled with lead, so heavy that he could not move at all. He just watched her slowly walk over and sat on the other end.
He didn't dare to move. If he did, she would know his presence. He understood that the person she was most afraid of seeing at this time was him.
When the knot in her heart has not been opened, the most vulnerable place is the one she is least willing to show to him.
Time was flowing quietly, Lei Yufeng looked at Mu Yiyi's silent silhouette with distress, his eyes filled with pain.