"Who is the person who deeply hypnotized my memory?"
Xiaoyu asked, but Jane shook her head and did not answer.
In my heart, I smiled even more------
You see, her sister is always smart and can automatically dig out the routes and questions she wants without any guidance.
"I don't know. The war back then was too chaotic. It might be the people around me, or the people around you, or even the people who participated in that war." Jane shook her head and did not continue to guide her.
So far, he simply said, "In the past few days, I will help you strengthen your training and master your skills. Don't worry, I will be there for you in everything."
Xiaoyu pursed her lips and said nothing, but her mind was still thinking about her amnesia due to hypnosis. Not only was she confused, but she was also concerned about this matter...
"Okay, I'm going to prepare breakfast for you." Jian smiled and was about to go downstairs, "You don't need to take medicinal porridge today. I searched for a new porridge recipe. You go to the room and wait for a while. I will make it for you right away.
Come back with good luck."
"Jane——!" Xiaoyu hurriedly called her, took two steps forward, and remembered another important question of his, "I have something else to ask you..."
"What else is there!" Jane turned around, her face full of indulgence, but her tone was a little impatient, "You should go back to the room and get dressed before talking to me about anything. Do you know if you catch a cold?
, Nangong Tou will definitely blame me when he comes back."
"Last night when he saw the movie, he told me something." Xiaoyu's eyelashes moved unconsciously. "He said that there are some things in me that are impossible to return to normal. You also said that my intestines and stomach are now damaged.
But after a year and a half of conditioning, he can be completely the same as ordinary people. So, what was Nangong Tou saying last night that it was impossible?"
Her question stunned Jane for a moment, and her soft and calm face suddenly became hasty and evasive, "No, it's nothing..."
Jane is a person who is good at acting, and Xiaoyu knows this, but she believes that people can't help showing their true emotions in front of their loved ones.
Jane's expression changed too quickly. This unprepared speed made Yan Xiaoyu understand in an instant that what Nangong Tou mentioned last night was incomplete and perhaps a very serious situation.
"Jane, I have to know sooner or later, right?" On the contrary, Xiaoyu's face was usually calmer, "Tell me, what have I lost?"
Jane bit her lip, as if she was thinking or struggling. She hesitated and paused for a long time, then raised her face and said slowly and quietly, "When you compared the two pictures yesterday, did you notice any differences?"
Xiaoyu thought for a while and nodded, "Yes! Why is there a little difference at the bottom of my recovery film? I always feel that something is missing?"
"That's..."
Jane hesitated again, this time still for a long time, and finally bit her lip, looking like she couldn't bear it, and said in a low voice, "Those are your ovaries."
"What!?" Xiaoyu was shocked, "You mean, my ovaries..."
"I wasn't sure at first, but then I did a B-ultrasound on you while you were in a coma, and it was finally confirmed that both ovaries were destroyed and started to be seriously infected. They had to be forcibly removed to save your life." Jane looked up and said in a unbearable voice, "I said yesterday
The medicine injected into you actually has nothing to do with the medicine that stimulates your brain nerves. It is... the estrogen that you must continue to inject in the future. These are also things that you must continue to endure and inject for the rest of your life..."
"No……"
Before Jane could finish her words, Xiaoyu turned pale, opened her eyes wide, and stepped back.
She looked distracted and pale, until she retreated to a corner, her back hit the door behind her, and after a moment of pain, she seemed to wake up and turned her eyes to Jane opposite.
When a woman loses her ovaries, she loses most of her ability to be a woman.
No longer capable of reproduction.
No more menstruation.
No longer feminine.
If you don't inject estrogen for a long time, you may even suffer from premature exhaustion, aging, loose skin and poor ability in all aspects... These are all considered normal. What's even more terrifying is that it is not surprising to grow male characteristics such as beards.
Xiaoyu had taken biology classes seriously in the police academy, and because he had rescued a woman who had lost her ovaries and was abandoned, and even committed suicide in despair, she knew a lot about this information.
At that time, she stood on the top of the tall building, looking at the desperate woman, trying her best to persuade her, telling her about life, telling her about the future, telling her that there were many, many things she could look forward to and do in the future, and also told her that there were still people waiting to be fed.
The child is waiting for her to raise her. Women, no matter how they live, must be strong and self-reliant, and never give up on themselves at any time!
At that time, the woman who committed suicide listened to her words and was moved to tears. She decided that no matter how high or difficult the medical expenses were, she would take her child and live alone.
She didn't expect that bad luck would befall her now.
A woman who commits suicide still has children to rely on.
But, what about her?
At a young age, only nineteen, I was told that I had lost the ability to be a mother forever, and that I could no longer even be called a complete woman!
The little fish's lips trembled uncontrollably.
Standing there, your body is as fragile as a piece of paper, and it will fall over when the wind blows.
Jian Yu couldn't bear it, walked up to her, supported her and persuaded her, "Those people are afraid that they will treat you too cruelly during the operation. They won't pay attention to whether it will hurt other people, so they will do harm to your ovaries."
Extreme destruction was carried out, and in the end, it was impossible to treat it, and the intestinal infection was not prevented, so it could only be cut off... This was also a last resort... Don't worry, Nangong Tou, he knew it, and he didn't say anything about it.
, I have no intention of giving up on you, Xiaoyu, don’t worry..."
"I...can't have another child..."
Xiaoyu leaned against the wall, raised his head, and looked at Jane with a confused and painful expression, "I can't have any more children..."
"Little fish..."
"I only have a simple wish... I want to be with him, I want to build a family with him, I want to call him "adult" every day, and I want to give him a child... I only have this little wish.
Just a little bit..."
Her huge eyes were expressionless and empty, as if her soul had been taken away, but there was no bright spot in the darkness.
"There is still hope. Don't worry. As long as you find a matching ovary, you can do a transplant. However, you have to wait until you find one that matches your body. On this point, Nangong Tou and I,
We are all trying our best to find them. Although you have relatively few matching types and there is no hope yet, but..."
Jane spoke out to persuade.
But the little fish squatted there, motionless, staring ahead with dull eyes, not a single tear, but his expression was extremely sad and painful.
"Why……"
She murmured in a low voice, looked at the ground, and murmured to herself as if she couldn't hear Jane's words, "Why is it that the simpler I want, the more complicated and embarrassing everything God gives me...could it be because of me?"
Was he a black cat in the past? Or is it because my surname is Jane? Is this because I have killed too many people in the past, and is this a punishment from God? "
He raised his head, looked at her and said in a low voice, "Jane, do you think God is trying to prevent the next Jian family member I gave birth to from being a monster, so it destroyed my ovaries, and somehow, let
Have I lost the ability to have children?”
Jian paused, didn't answer, couldn't speak, lowered his head, and hugged her.
Xiaoyu buried his face on her shoulder and asked in a low voice, "Nangong Tou, do you all know?"
"Um."
"Then why does he still want me?" she asked.
"Fool," Jane sighed, "because he loves you."
"……No……"
She shook her head quietly, her face still buried in her loose clothes, "Jane, he loves you."
Jane stiffened and fell silent, silently reaching out her hand and hugging her tightly.
Xiaoyu didn't hug her back, but lay on her body, motionless, like a doll, like a zombie, with no expression at all.
It wasn't until Jane carried her to the bedroom, put her on the bed, covered her with a quilt and asked her to rest for a while that she closed her eyes.
From beginning to end, Yan Xiaoyu didn't shed a single tear.
She didn't know that it turned out that when a person experiences the ultimate point of humble sorrow, it is impossible to shed any more tears.
If you still have tears, it means you still have pain; if you have pain, you still have feelings; if you have feelings, it means you still have hope.
There has never been a moment when Yan Xiaoyu felt that the world was so silent and dark, and even every second he thought about was so hopeless.
Suddenly I don't know what the next meaning is.
She suddenly doesn't know what her bottom line and future will be if she continues to humble herself...
Her ideals, her wishes, her little thoughts of living with him and giving birth to a child together, all disappeared like crushed bubbles, not even a broken phantom could be seen.
"Black cat..."
"Black Cat."
She murmured the name, looking out the window at the dazzling sky, over and over again.
I don’t know how many times I read it before I finally found out -----
For her, the best choice is whether she can go back to being a black cat and her former self, heartless and heartless.
When she thought about that moment again, she suddenly sat up and asked Jane, who was sitting opposite her, and asked her calmly, "Jane, give me another pill, okay? I want to start training as soon as possible.
."
Jane was stunned for a moment, as if she was a little surprised by her sudden return to normal expression. Then, she stood up and said hurriedly, "Oh, okay, wait a minute, I'll get it!"
After saying that, he walked out in a panic, looking anxious.
Xiaoyu sat up, put on his slippers, and walked to the window. He looked out the window at the town where heavy snow had fallen last night. Suddenly, he no longer felt any beauty. All he felt was darkness and the coldness that hit his bones.
meaning.
No matter how beautiful the scenery is, what does it have to do with her?
No matter how beautiful the story is, what does it have to do with her?
She always doesn't deserve it, she doesn't deserve it...
Yan Xiaoyu, what else do you deserve for such a humble person?
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Jane broke in and ran towards her room with hurried steps. After running back to her room and taking out the medicine she developed from the locked drawer and small box, a proud smile finally appeared on her lips.
How could it be so simple?
When they were asked to operate in the cave, they looked very cautious.
So, she took matters into her own hands and slashed at Hu Feng with several knives.
Using his medical knowledge, he accurately chopped off her two ovaries until they were bloody and bloody.
Then, she calmly used snow to clean her hands. Her subordinates were sweating and trembling, and they did not dare to say anything. It was not until she ordered to continue that she finally dared to continue using the knife.
At that time, it was obvious that after her actions, everyone holding the knife was obviously shaking unsteadily.
"I don't want Mr. Brando to know what happened just now. Do you understand what I mean?"
She asked this question, and all those people answered yes.
Later, she was naturally worried.
When the group of confidants came to pick him up, he quietly gave instructions to secretly kill all these people.
The subordinates she personally trained have always been rigorous and ruthless in doing things. At this moment, of course, they have been completely dealt with without leaving any traces.
And Yan Xiaoyu, who has been persecuted...
Thinking of her appearance just now, thinking of her helplessly hugging herself, thinking of her staring at the sky in a daze, thinking of how she looked lost and lost...
Jane suddenly smiled.
First a low smile
Then it spreads wider and wider, and becomes wider and wider.
Even though it was silent, one could see the infinite ferocity and arrogance in that expression...
She hates it!
I hate this sister all the time!
She even wanted to strangle her, kill her, bury her, poison her...
Ever since I was little, I have tried so many methods, but they always ended in failure.
Her natural ability to survive and recover was actually so high and so strong that she couldn't resist it at all.
She pretended, assassinated, and ambush, and tried her best, but she always failed and could not succeed. Therefore, she was unwilling, dissatisfied, and even more hateful, jealous, and angry.
How many years, how many years have you waited.
This simple scheming, simple calculation, faced with her who is now as stupid as a pig, so simple, pushed her to the bottom, into the abyss, pushing her towards destruction bit by bit...
Not enough, not enough.
Jane looked at the black granular pills, a cruel smile gradually appeared on the corner of her mouth, and her eyes were full of violence and evil, without any cover.
This is the beginning, just the beginning.
She still wants more, and she will inevitably see more, more scenes that she expected to see in the past but could never achieve...
"Xiaoyu, don't worry."
Staring at the pill, her voice was kinder at one moment and colder at the other, "I will take care of you and take good care of you...because...you are my...dearest sister..."
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(Thank you to Qin Hemu Daxia for giving me the gold medal and Qin Danran 8hji for giving me the red envelope, okay! ^_^)