Qin Huan stopped, and after a while, she turned her head and met Shen Yinchen's eyes as he looked at her.
Shen Yinchen stared at Qin Huan and asked again, "Is it because of dropping out of school?"
Qin Huan pursed her lips, and after a few seconds, she said lightly, "You know everything."
Shen Yinchen said, "Because Fu Chengjue said that either you dropped out of school or I dropped out, so you chose to go back to him?"
Something flashed across Qin Huan's eyes, her pink lips parted slightly, and she said, "Now that you know everything, I won't hide anything from you anymore. Yes, Fu Chengjue did tell the principal that the two of us Only one can stay.”
Shen Yinchen frowned and said coldly, "Did Fu Chengjue use such despicable means to force you to stay with him?!"
Qin Huan said calmly, "Achen, this is not the key to the matter."
Shen Yinchen suddenly became emotional and said angrily, "Then what is the key? Does Fu Chengjue really think he can cover the sky with one hand?! Qin Huan, don't be afraid, stay with me, I will protect you!"
The sadness in Qin Huan's heart seemed to be gathering into a stream, surging and wanting to overflow. She resisted the swelling in her eyes and the soreness in her nose, and said, "Achen, why did you know this earlier but never asked me?"
Shen Yinchen didn't answer immediately, so Qin Huan asked again, "Don't you have any temptation in your heart? You want to see what I will do after I know about this?"
Shen Yinchen frowned, "Qin Huan..."
Qin Huan raised the corners of his lips, revealed a sarcastic smile, and said, "Achen, let's stop deceiving ourselves, okay? You don't ask, because you want to see how I choose; and I don't say, I just want to We have to weigh the pros and cons. Two years have passed and we can’t go back to the past..."
Seeing the tears suddenly welling up in Qin Huan's eyes, Shen Yinchen became anxious. He lifted the quilt and subconsciously turned out of bed. His right foot was in a plaster and he couldn't use force at all. He stepped on the ground regardless of the severity, and it hurt like a It was so painful that he fell forward.
Qin Huan was shocked and rushed forward to hug Shen Yinchen. Shen Yinchen hugged Qin Huan and hugged her tightly. There was a hint of trembling and fear in his voice as he said, "Qin Huan, don't Go, never leave me again, I'm sorry, it was my fault, it was my fault, can you forgive me?" Qin Huan's vision was instantly covered by white mist, and she choked with sobs. It took her a long time to come out. He said, "Go back to bed first."
Shen Yinchen shook his head, held Qin Huan's waist, put his head on her shoulder, and said stubbornly, "I won't go back. As soon as I go back, you will leave."
Qin Huan opened his eyes desperately, but tears still flowed down uncontrollably.
When Shen Yinchen saw Qin Huan motionless, he whispered, "Qin Huan, please, don't leave me again. Without you, I really don't know how I will live in the future..."
Qin Huan suddenly thought that Shen Yinchen suffered from depression, her face changed, and she fell silent.
"Qin Huan, forgive me. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm really scared...I'm scared that you will leave me. I promise I will never test you again, not even once. Do you believe me? good?"
Shen Yinchen tightened his arms. Qin Huan felt that he was about to suffocate, but it would be better if he could die in Shen Yinchen's arms like this.
He closed his eyes and calmed down his mind secretly. After maybe a minute, Qin Huan finally said, "Achen, we can't go back..." "We can go back! As long as you are willing, you can definitely go back!"
Qin Huan gritted his teeth and said, "We are no longer the people who only thought about each other. You don't know how much I have suffered and suffered in the past two years. I really want to go to school, even if ...The price is to betray yourself once, Ah Chen, can you understand me?"
With her eyes closed, Qin Huan suddenly felt desolate in her heart. Sometimes the words she spoke were like water being poured out. She had done such a dirty thing and yet she came to ask Shen Yinchen if he could understand her. She was really the most beautiful person in the world. Damn people.
Shen Yinchen was silent, Qin Huan had already thought about it.
After a while, Shen Yinchen slowly said, "Qin Huan, come back, let's start over, forget the past, you believe me, I can give you whatever he can give you!"
Qin Huan shook his head and wanted to push Shen Yinchen away, but Shen Yinchen held his arms tightly. Qin Huan had no choice but to say, "Achen, we used to be people with feelings and beliefs. You and I both know that. , we can’t go back like this.”
Shen Yinchen's whole body was trembling slightly, and the arm holding Qin Huan's waist was a little loose. Qin Huan could feel it, and felt sad in her heart, but this was all her own fault. She used her strength to pull the distance between the two, and Qin Huan felt it. Huan turned around and was about to leave, but Shen Yinchen grabbed Qin Huan's wrist and said, "If you leave, I will really die."
His voice was soft, not threatening, not sad, just plain statements.
Qin Huan's pupils suddenly shrank. She didn't look back. Her wrist was pulled by him. She only heard Shen Yinchen's calm voice coming from behind, "Do you still want to leave me?"
Qin Huan's head turned back mechanically, and the two looked at each other. There were still tears in Qin Huan's eyes, and she spoke slowly, "Achen, do you know? You told me that you had depression, and I First it was heartache, and then... it was uncontrollable fear. I don’t know if you, who are so fragile, can still accept me who is so unbearable. Maybe, I already knew it would end like this. Your illness has already caused me Because of the pressure, you may call me shameless or heartless, but, Ah Chen, I beg you not to use this method to make me blame myself, I really can't bear it."
Shen Yinchen's face had already turned pale. The rising sunlight shone in from the window. Shen Yinchen had his back to the window, and his whole body was covered with gold, but it could not warm his cold body.
His thin lips parted slightly, and he only said three words, "So?"
Qin Huan felt that her heartbeat was still for a few seconds, and she slowly spoke, she said lightly, "So, just think it's for me, can you live a good life in the future, like a normal person, so that I can feel that my It doesn't feel so guilty to leave, is that okay with you?"
Shen Yinchen stared at Qin Huan. He didn't know how long it took before he whispered, "Is it really impossible to go back?"
Qin Huan shed a big tear from his right eye and replied, "I can't go back."
Shen Yinchen's hand holding Qin Huan's wrist gradually loosened, and Qin Huan glimpsed from the corner of his eye, bursting into tears.
Withdrawing his hand, Shen Yinchen looked at Qin Huan and said softly, "Okay, if you feel happy, then so be it."
Helpless, powerless, helpless.
Qin Huan's heart ached to the point of paralysis. He opened his lips slightly and wanted to say something, but could not say a word.