Chapter 319 Go to the side that saves people (two in one chapter)
From the window of the ward, you can clearly see the fireworks blooming in the distance.
After all, it is produced by the system store. Jing Baiye set the time before returning to the hospital, and it will automatically light up when the time comes.
He held Toru Amuro's hand carefully, and he could feel it trembling. The blond mixed-race man on the hospital bed pursed his lips tightly, and he felt fear in his body.
"Pano..."
Toru Amuro seemed to have exhausted all his strength when he pronounced the name of the drink.
"When we were in Hakone, Miss Curacao told me that he and I, and the undercover agent... looked very similar..."
Jing Baiye kept holding his hand, stood up and sat on the bed, closing the distance between them. He stared at the face he liked very much, and then looked away.
"You are indeed very similar," he said, "but the color of Panno's eyes is different from yours. His eyes are blue."
"As blue as the Blue Lagoon."
…
After Jing Baiye went to France, she took advantage of her vacation to go to Northern Europe for vacation with Panno. Because of the skill of [Body Translator], they would not be unable to understand the language wherever they went. One of their stops was Grindavik, Iceland, where there are beautiful places
blue lagoon and open-air hot springs.
He said that he was fine and could take a bath in the hot springs. Pannuo stared at him with a bandage on his face and expressed worry. He was not good at words and refused to let him go in. He spent all his energy with dry and unconvincing words.
Try to persuade him.
Jing Baiye is not a willful person. He has no rebellious stage or secondary stage. Pan Nuo was thinking about him, so he didn't want to embarrass him. In the end, the two of them did not go down and only went to a nearby lake.
It was also June at that time and Iceland was very cold all year round. They stood by the lake and blew the cold wind for a while.
Jing Baiye picked up his mobile phone and pointed it at the lake to take pictures, thinking about whether to invite Belmod or Shirley to travel here in the future. He couldn't help but poked Pannuo next to him and asked him to enjoy the beautiful scenery with him.
"Look, your eyes are so blue and so clean."
…
From the time he graduated from Jingbaiye University to his birthday this year, he and Pan Nuo had known each other for less than a year. It was neither long nor short.
In the month from the incident in April to when he first returned to Japan, he was filled with hatred. He would often dream about that day in the middle of the night. Then he would suddenly wake up and be so angry that he would smash the bedside railing with his bare hands to vent his anger.
He felt almost no pain, and would only stop when his pale palms were obviously red and swollen. He would get into the quilt and be unable to sleep for a long time.
Spiatus found out about this and said that even if the French members were as afraid of him as quails in the snow and would never dare to disobey his orders, his temperament would not allow him to be the leader of the action team there.
So let him transfer his affairs to Rum and return to live in Japan.
Jing Baiye thought that her hatred for Panno would last for a long, long time, and maybe she would still wake up in the middle of the night after returning to Japan.
But no more.
After returning, Jing Baiye had a new residence and a new job, but instead of looking for a partner, he found a subordinate with a different status than his partner.
He no longer dreamed about what happened that day, nor did he see Panno in his dream again. When he mentioned again the partner who had betrayed him and cheated him, what filled his heart was no longer hatred, but the things they had gotten along with in the past.
One drop.
He doesn't hate him anymore.
"You are partners..."
Toru Amuro's voice brought Jing Baiye back to his senses.
"Yes. I didn't have any subordinates at that time. If there was a task, I would complete it with him."
Jing Baiye stared at the fireworks outside the window. The fireworks show would last for nearly 20 minutes.
"Then what do you do to him...to me..."
Every syllable that Toru Amuro spoke was trembling, his breathing was trembling, and the whole sentence was fragmented. It was impossible to tell what he wanted to say. Even Jing Baiye, who had never had a high emotional intelligence, could tell that he was in a state of confusion.
In great pain.
Jing Baiye was about to open his mouth to comfort him, but in the next second, Amuro Toru's voice suddenly calmed down.
"Then how did he die?" The tone was tentative.
"..."
The tone suddenly changed like this. Even the best actors can't make such a natural switch. It must be dissociation disorder...
Jing Baiye was silent, and he remembered what Kyousuke Futo said. After he refused to give up Toru Amuro, the doctor had an expression of "Sure enough," with a helpless smile on his face, as if he had thought of something warm.
"Sure enough, Mr. Angstra, you will make the same choice as Mr. Spiatus."
"There is a certain chance of curing dissociation, which requires a high degree of psychotherapy skills, and more importantly - endless tolerance, care and patience."
"This is a long or lifelong course of illness, and it will be very troublesome. Maybe you will feel irritable and want to give up in the middle..."
Faced with the doctor's worries, Jing Baiye answered firmly: "I will not give up on him."
In his first life, his teacher said that responsibility is a basic quality that a person should have. It is very important to family, society and country. This is the basis of a sound personality. Spiatus also said that he must have responsibility.
Heart.
This time Toru Amuro was injured because of him, and he was the subordinate he personally chose to be by his side. He should be responsible for him to the end and not give up. He couldn't give up on him when he needed the love and care of others the most.
But there are some things he has to say clearly - the sooner he makes it clear, the better to avoid misunderstandings. Sometimes concealment is the greatest harm.
Jing Baiye was still watching the performance outside, with a calm and clear voice: "He tried to catch me with the DGSE agents, and I killed them."
Not only that, he also burned his body to ashes, climbed up the Eiffel Tower with his bare hands and scattered it.
He left Panno dead.
He asked the man who came to the United States to pick him up, accompany him on vacation in Northern Europe, take him to the amusement park to watch fireworks together, and read "The Little Prince" to him, but his body has not been found.
A month ago, Jing Baiye could tell this matter calmly. If Toru Amuro asked at that time, he would tell it casually;
But now when Jing Baiye thinks of this incident, he feels stuffy in his heart, as if he is being pressed down by a stone, or as if he is being pricked repeatedly by small needles.
He found that he could not speak out, or in other words - he was afraid to speak out about it.
……Why?
Why would he be afraid to tell this?
Jing Baiye was confused. He didn't understand the emotions surging in his heart. He didn't understand this strange feeling at all.
Toru Amuro on the other side spoke again: "Then you asked me to be your subordinate because I look similar to him?"
Jing Baiye frowned and looked over, and Toru Amuro immediately explained.
"In early April, Gin came to the training ground to find me. He suspected that I was an undercover agent and asked me a lot of questions on the spot. I still have scars on my forehead that he made..."
Hearing this, Jing Baiye raised his hand to pluck Amuro Toru's hair from his forehead, and sure enough he saw a scar on his forehead.
"..."
It's a pity that Toru Amuro did it before he was under his control, otherwise he would have stolen Gin's card and compensated him... No, if Toru Amuro had already been under his control, he would not have given Gin the opportunity to torture him like this.
"Gin is suffering from paranoia. He thinks that Panno is an undercover agent. You might be the same, if you look like him."
But it may just be a matter of venting anger and finding someone to vent to. Gin has been working as a 996 or even 007 for a long time. It is conceivable that part-time workers who do not get enough rest will have a bad temper. He can face the Spiatus who caused all this.
Forbearance, there is no need to face the bottom layer at all.
Jing Baiye put down his hand and straightened Tohru Amuro's hair, then leaned forward and hugged him gently.
He asked Kyosuke Futo what he could do for Toru Amuro on a daily basis, and he told him that he could have more contact with him. Psychological research shows that hugging and touching are good for mental health. This action simply and clearly expresses the relationship between people.
sincere love.
"Angstra..."
A slightly shaky voice full of self-doubt and worry.
Knowing that Amuro Toru had switched again, Jing Baiye sighed silently in his heart. He might have a fourth subordinate by his side, but no matter which Amuro Toru was, he had to protect him.
"Amuro, I know what you're worried about." He said gently, hugging his uneasy subordinate, being careful not to press his wound.
"I once told you that no one is anyone else's substitute. Everyone is a unique existence."
"A substitute is an insult to two people and a blasphemy to two feelings."
He wouldn't do this to Toru Amuro. No one wants to be a substitute. Those who volunteer to be a substitute either have ulterior motives or are too humble... He doesn't want Toru Amuro to be like this.
"I like good-looking people, especially Asians with natural blond hair... Yes, I have always preferred this. It was like this before Panno. Rum knew my preference and chose Panno to pick him up in the United States.
I."
"You and Pan Nuo just look a little similar, but they are completely different."
"Pan Nuo doesn't know how to cook. Every time I have to eat out or eat emergency food, you will prepare three delicious meals for me."
"You are very gentle, although you sometimes say strange things. Pan Nuo is not good at words."
"You are more clingy to me, and you will take the initiative to hug me, or ask me to hug you... Pannuo will not do this."
"You used to work in a convenience store, but now you quit... Panno's apparent profession is a detective. He opened a detective business named after the detective West-Auguste Dubin in the earliest detective novel "The Murder in the Rue Mauger"
Office."
"Pan Nuo never quarreled with anyone. In the past, when Dai Jili provoked him, he would just knock the person down without quarreling at all... You and Zhu Xing had quarreled several times, like two children who were only a fraction of their age.
"
"He is very good in French and fluent in English without an accent, but his Japanese is stumbling, and you...well, at least your proficiency in English as a foreign language is in different dimensions..."
Jing Baiye counted their differences bit by bit, just to tell Amuro Toru that he did not regard him as a substitute.
He first met Toru Amuro in a convenience store, and the second time he met was when he was picked up by him for interrogation, and soon after that he invited him to become his subordinate.
At that time, Jing Baiye only felt that Toru Amuro's appearance was very consistent with his aesthetics, and did not pay attention to other aspects at all.
Until later, he thought of Panno more and more. Because of the similar appearance, he almost saw Panno through Toru Amuro... but almost, he woke up in time and reminded himself not to treat Toru Amuro like this.
.
He didn't regard Toru Amuro as a substitute.
——From the first time they met until now, the only person he saw in their real relationship was [Toru Amuro].
Jing Baiye felt that Amuro Toru's breathing gradually became lighter and his mood calmed down.
He hesitantly let go of him, worried that he might have suddenly switched again, so he looked at those purple-gray eyes.
I saw those eyes as bright as the stars in the sky, as gentle as the lake water blown by the spring breeze. His eyes were full of joy, and they were all filled with himself.
For the first time, Jing Baiye judged a person through his eyes.
——This is Toru Amuro who cares about him very much and wants to protect him at all costs.
"Let's watch the fireworks together." Toru Amuro said, holding his hand.
"good."
Jing Baiye sat down again and watched the remaining fireworks with Toru Amuro, who was in an inconvenient position.
For a while, neither of them continued to talk, and the ward was very quiet.
In such silence, he felt a sense of excitement that spanned time and space. In a trance, he seemed to have returned to Disneyland Paris.
The blond, mixed-race, good-looking Panno stood side by side with him, surrounded by a bustling crowd, with children squeezing in the middle. At that time, he was about 1.64 meters tall. In order to see the fireworks clearly, he had to stand among the crowd.
Try to keep your head up.
Pannuo's posture of looking up became more natural. His eyes fell on the night sky and his mouth moved.
The sound of fireworks disappeared, the noisy crowd disappeared, time seemed to go back in time, Jing Baiye finally remembered what he said——
"Angstra, you said that you don't care whether you are black or white, and there is no difference between killing and saving people. I know this is your sincere words as you have been in the darkness since you were a child."
"But killing people is different from saving people. Creating or saving lives is a more difficult and greater process... I said don't kill innocent people indiscriminately, and you really start to let innocent passers-by go and just kill the enemies. In this case,
Can you..."
"...Can you go to the rescue side?"
Jing Baiye blinked his eyes and regained consciousness.
In the Mihua Municipal Building that was bombed for the first time, Toru Amuro asked him to save people.
He really did it, and got a reward that exceeded the last time he killed someone.
It was obvious that what he was watching were the fireworks far away at the Toto Tower, not the fireworks at Disneyland Paris. At this moment, he was surrounded by the injured Toru Amuro, not Panno, who took him to the park to play.
But when he saw the beautiful scenery in the distance and thought about saving people... he almost confused them again...
He took a deep breath and forced himself to forget Panno for the time being.
At the very least, you shouldn’t think of Toru Amuro too many times when you’re around him.