Chapter 214 He is the eldest brother and is not qualified to be self-willed!
Zuo Li thought so, but still spoke for Gu Yuanzheng.
"Mr. Gu, don't be angry with him. Two people died in front of him that day. He was still young, so he should be scared."
Gu Feichen did not speak immediately.
The study window is closed, probably because it rained a few days ago. Although it has been sunny these days, the wind is still not dry.
The light in the study room is dim and there is a faint scent of books in the nose.
"If I say that this is the first time I have discovered that my boss is so... resentful towards me, will you think I am naive?"
Hearing Gu Feichen's words, Zuo Li's nose felt sore and tears almost fell.
He may not be a qualified father.
However, he shouldn't have to endure this.
The things he did were enough to offset this.
Zuo Li finally understood.
What made Gu Feichen sad was not that Gu Yuanzheng had a conflict with him this time.
But like Zuo Li before him, he realized the child's resentment towards him.
This... is so cruel.
His own children resented him.
Zuo Li felt really distressed.
She said anxiously: "How could it be? Mr. Gu, what you said is too serious. Yuan Zheng must have misunderstood you just this time.
Then he loses his temper during the rebellious stage. He is the most sensible person, so why would he resent you?
Think about it, Suiyang said before that the person he admires the most is you.
Yuan Zheng is so sensible, how could he..."
Zuo Li couldn't speak any more.
Because Gu Feichen hugged her tightly and buried his face in her neck.
Soon, she felt warm moisture on her neck.
Gu Feichen... cried.
Zuo Li couldn't hold back her tears.
But she didn't cry out, she just hugged Gu Feichen tightly.
This is really too cruel.
A father found that his son resented him.
It's probably as uncomfortable as a son finding out that his father is not his biological father, so he doesn't love him anymore.
However, what Zuo Li didn't know was that Gu Feichen had more on his mind.
He thought that the deaths of children again and again in his memory might have something to do with him.
At this moment, Gu Feichen couldn't even think about too many details.
He also forcibly took the responsibility for the children's deaths again and again on himself.
This kind of pain was the most unacceptable to him.
Now it seems that only by holding Zuo Li tightly can he not feel so cold.
Is what he did as a father really that bad?
Zuo Li's voice was gentle, "Mr. Gu, I'm always here."
"Um."
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Zuo Li cannot do nothing.
She carried a food box and headed towards Gu Feibai's consulting room.
As soon as he entered the courtyard, he saw Gu Feibai sitting at the stone table in the courtyard making tea.
The fragrance of Biluochun tea fills the yard, and the tall flower trees next to it are blown by the wind, and the petals fall, which is really beautiful.
"Feibai."
When Gu Feibai saw Zuo Li, he smiled and said, "Sister-in-law came at the right time. I have just finished brewing the tea."
Zuo Li walked over and sat across from him, watching Gu Feibai make tea with smooth movements.
“Don’t we all drink coffee abroad?”
"I like drinking tea." Gu Feibai seemed to have remembered something happy, with a smile on his face and his eyebrows seemed to soften a lot.
"I didn't like it at first, but then someone liked it, so I started to imitate her."
The corner of Zuo Li's mouth twitched, thinking of what Gu Feibai said when the two of them were kidnapped.
The person he mentioned should be Jiang Fei, who has a dual personality.
That is, the mother of the children.
As if she didn't know about this, she said: "Is Yuan Zheng feeling better?"
Since Gu Yuanzheng came back from the hospital that day.
So I moved here with Gu Feibai.
After being caught in the rain that day, he unexpectedly caught a cold.
And this time it looks serious.
When Gu Feibai heard this, he pointed to the inside of the room: "I am locked in a room alone, and I don't know how he is doing now.
But it should be okay, he still eats the meals given to him every day."
Zuo Li breathed a sigh of relief and stood up, "I'll go talk to him."
Gu Feibai looked at the food box in Zuo Li's hand, "Isn't there any for me?"
Not really.
Zuo Li smiled awkwardly.
She came outside the room where Gu Yuanzheng lived and knocked on the door.
"Yuan Zheng, it's me."
Zuo Li was prepared that Gu Yuanzheng would not open the door.
Compared with her interactions with the other two or three children, she actually has a very good relationship with Gu Yuanzheng.
I originally thought he was the most normal person.
But now it seems that he is the one who hides the most in his heart.
There was no sound from inside for a long time. Zuo Li thought that Gu Yuanzheng was unwilling to open the door, and felt very disappointed.
"I made you some food that you like to eat. They are all bland, but they taste good.
If you have a cold, you can’t eat anything greasy or heavy, so these are just the right things to eat.”
Naturally, she didn't come here just to give these away.
Since Gu Yuanzheng didn't want to see her, she would express her thoughts through the door.
But just when she was still thinking about what to say, the door was opened by Gu Yuanzheng from the inside.
"Come in."
As he spoke, he coughed twice more,
His face was so pale that it was almost transparent, and his lips were also very white.
The whole person was wearing pajamas, but the collar was slightly open, revealing the delicate and protruding collarbone.
He is really thin,
That ascetic and delicate face has a fragile feeling like glass.
Li Shu walked in.
The room is very simple, with bed, desk, wardrobe, sofa and bookshelf.
Since I just moved here not long ago, there are only a few scattered books on the bookshelf.
Gu Yuanzheng poured a cup of warm water from the hot water bottle and handed it to Zuo Li.
The two of them were sitting on the sofa facing each other, and the food box was placed on the coffee table.
Above, the entire process was silent.
To avoid suspicion, the door was not closed.
"Yuan Zheng, do you and your father want to talk in person?"
Gu Yuanzheng was taking out the food from the food box.
Light vegetable and lean meat porridge, a plate of sweet and sour pork loin, a plate of vinegar shredded potatoes, a plate of kimchi, and a steamed pork vermicelli.
Gu Yuanzheng enjoyed the meal Zuo Li brought him without ceremony.
He had to admit that the food cooked by Zuo Li was the most delicious.
Zuo Li cooks less this year, but when she lived in Gu's small building, she could eat twice a week.
I've been coming here for more than a week and haven't had it once.
Gu Yuanzheng was thinking about something in his mind, with a calm expression on his face.
"No, I don't know what I should say to him. Aunt Zuo, I know too little about my father, and I don't want to."
Gu Yuanzheng was not very angry. His tone was calm, as if he was stating an established fact.
Zuo Li looked sad. Gu Yuanzheng's attitude really made her say something.
It's better to be angry than to be so calm now.
Zuo Li could only bite the bullet and say: "I understand that there is no empathy in this world.
Mr. Gu is definitely not qualified when it comes to being a father.
But he is outside and protecting you in another way.
He joined the army to protect the safety of the people, but he had no way to let the people know.
He is a hero in the dark. I think both me and you are protected by him.
I hope you can talk to him, as far as I know, he loves you very much."
Gu Yuanzheng was a moment slow in picking up the food, but still did not speak.
Doesn't he understand this?
Of course I know.
Perhaps these were all things he was proud of.
Zuo Li kept up his efforts: "Yuan Zheng, I don't know if you know my life experience.
My parents are still alive, I have an older brother and a younger sister. I am the second oldest child in the family.
I am not a boy like my brother, and I am not as cute as my sister.
Growing up, I was beaten the most, worked the most, and ate the least.
After I graduated from junior high school, I stopped studying. Is it because I didn’t want to study? No.
It's just that my parents said that as a girl, no matter how many books I read, it's of no use. I might as well go into a factory and make money honestly.
They asked me to make money, not because they wanted me to be rich and live a good life in the future.
It’s about earning a bride price for my eldest brother’s wife.”
Zuo Li was talking about the experience of the original owner.
But neither the original owner nor she has a very good family.
Her real parents love her.
But they were cruel and died early, leaving her alone.
A handkerchief appeared in front of her eyes, a little blurry.
"Aunt Zuo, don't cry."
Zuo Li took the handkerchief and wiped his tears.
She looked at Gu Yuanzheng, who pursed his lips. His expression was finally no longer so calm and serious, but instead concealed worry.
"Yuan Zheng, at least Mr. Gu is not like my father. He must have done something wrong, there is no doubt about it.
But, I hope you can think carefully about the good things he does to you."
Gu Yuanzheng's long eyelashes trembled constantly and he put down his chopsticks.
He lowered his eyes, his eyelashes casting a shadow on his eyelids.
"Aunt Zuo, I understand everything you said. But you don't understand what I was thinking on the rooftop of the hospital a few days ago.
I wonder if my father will save me if I have an accident."
"Why do you have such an idea? I will definitely save you."
Gu Yuanzheng picked up the chopsticks again and enjoyed the delicious food.
But when it was obviously so delicious, he felt like chewing wax.
He wasn't talking about things on the rooftop.
When he was a child, when he needed his father countless times, he was never there.
He is the elder brother, so he cannot lose his temper like the third child, act like a spoiled child like the younger sister, and he cannot learn what he likes like the second child.
He didn't feel wronged.
Only when I witness death happening in front of me.
His long-standing repression broke out.
So he "ran away from home" and enjoyed the privileges that only a pampered child could have.
This feeling...how to describe it.
very good.
What he said about whether he would be saved was actually equivalent to whether it was possible for him to choose the path he wanted to take.
The reason why I told Zuo Liduo.
It was also because Zuo Li mentioned that they passively gave up their studies, which made him feel that they were in the same boat.
Zuo Li didn't understand his heart, and continued: "Don't say you are Mr. Gu's biological son, even if you are a stranger, Mr. Gu will not fail to save you.
Yuan Zheng, why do you have such doubts?"
She won't understand.
Gu Yuanzheng thought so.
He wanted to express his inner thoughts.
But in the end he didn't say it.
He regarded this quarrel as a brief moment of "freedom" for him to experience again.
After a short experience, you will return to reality.
Until then, he will still be the one destined to kill the leader of the Gu family in the future.
But if you speak out, there will be no way out.
"Ahem."
Gu Yuanzheng finished his meal and wiped the corners of his mouth gracefully.
He smiled at Zuo Li, the smile was very light: "Aunt Zuo, you are right, I shouldn't quarrel with dad, I will go back with you."
These willful days have passed, and it's time for him to return to his own role.