After I buried the old madman's body once again, I became a human again.
Only this time, my heart is very peaceful.
Although I don’t know what means Taishan Mansion Lord used to allow me to return to this point in time, but when I thought about it, I already understood that the so-called four paths of life, old age, sickness and death were the powers he used to kill me.
, to me, maybe it’s not a bad thing.
At least this time, I have a deeper understanding of my childhood.
I originally didn't know the circumstances of my birth, nor how I came to this Niang'er Village.
But now, I understand a little bit.
Although it may not be true.
But at least it gave me some clues.
The old smoker didn't lie to me.
From the time I was born to the time the old madman picked me up, I was always in darkness, and the reason was because of the so-called five disadvantages and three deficiencies.
Even now, I can still clearly feel the darkness that was like being in an abyss when I was born.
No consciousness.
I have no sense of smell or hearing, I can't even move or open my eyes, it's like everything has been taken away.
And my bones.
The so-called method of deceiving Tianji indeed came from the old madman.
It can be said that he saved me.
If it weren't for him, I might have died long ago.
And all of this, I didn’t know in my earliest memory. In my earliest memory, I only remember the moment when I started recording.
So I didn't know it was the old madman who did all this.
So if I really want to talk about it, I have to thank Mr. Taishan Fu.
However, this is not important anymore.
What is currently in front of me is the so-called four powers of birth, old age, sickness and death. In what form will Taishan Mansion use it on me next?
Let me experience it again according to what I have already experienced.
I don't know if it's an illusion or reality, but let me experience something I've never experienced before again.
I think, maybe it's the latter.
So I am also looking forward to it.
A few more years passed unknowingly.
In the past few years, I have always stayed in the village as before, and in accordance with the old madman's request, I burned paper money at night as always. It's just different from before. This time, I no longer have to pay attention to the rules in the village.
No matter day or night, I walked in the village, trying to find the truth that I didn't know.
For example, what is the true appearance of Niang'er Village?
For example, who is the paper money that the old madman is burning to, and who are the owners of those figures I have seen in dreams, the laughing and crying that I have heard in my ears.
But after searching for a few days, I was disappointed.
Even if I didn't pay attention to those rules, even if I walked out of the house at night, I still found nothing and saw nothing.
Niang'er Village seems to be a real dry village.
Just like this day after day.
I don't know how long has passed.
I didn't wait for the old smoker either.
I didn’t wait for Liu Shan to come.
It's like I've been completely forgotten here.
Gradually, I forgot how to speak. Apart from making the dog giggle every day, I even forgot my own name.
I also started to forget what my purpose was in the first place.
Every day is so confusing.
It wasn't until a few wild dogs died at the entrance of the village that I gradually realized that I seemed to have gone from a child to a young man again.
It was also at this time that I tried to leave the village for the first time.
The moment I stepped out of the village, I even forgot why I stayed in the village in the first place and why I didn't dare to leave the village. So when I walked out of the village, for the first time in the past twenty years, I felt a surprise. .
In this surprise, I forgot about Niang'er Village.
Forgot about the old madman.
Forgot my name.
I just kept walking in one direction until I saw a city. The city was very big and seemed to be called Baiyun City. But I seemed out of place in it.
Everyone's eyes were full of disgust and rejection when they saw me.
Even when I approach them, they will subconsciously stay away, as if there is something in me that makes them hate it, I can't figure it out.
I tried to pull someone to ask him why he did that to me, but he just shook me off and left without looking back.
I started to feel confused.
Especially looking at the people coming and going around me, I suddenly felt a little out of place.
I just stood there, until it got dark, and then until dawn, until I saw a person. The person was in ragged clothes, looked very embarrassed, dirty and smelly.
When I saw him, I subconsciously looked at myself.
I understood it all at once.
I became a beggar.
beggar……
At this moment, the inexplicably hidden memory in my mind reappeared like a tide without even realizing it, and I couldn't help but smile bitterly.
I didn't dare to leave Niang'er Village at the beginning. In fact, wasn't my biggest worry that I would become a beggar and that I would starve to death?
But I never thought that Mr. Taishan Mansion would actually let me experience it.
After understanding this, I stopped worrying about why they hated me and rejected me. Instead, I followed the beggar who awakened my memory and sat down on the ground casually.
Looking at him, I started thinking subconsciously.
If before the old smoker came to see me, when I was living alone in Niang'er Village, I mustered up the courage to try to leave Niang'er Village, could I also leave?
And if I can really leave, will I become a beggar like now?
After thinking about it for a long time, I still couldn't be sure.
Because this is a completely different life for me, and even for me, the person I am now is unfamiliar.
Seemingly seeing what I was thinking, the beggar next to me suddenly came to my side. He looked at me and said, "Looking at your young age, why have you become a beggar?"
I thought about it and answered: "Maybe it's because I don't have a home."
"What a coincidence, I don't have one either." His eyes lit up and he said with a smile.
The strange thing is that when he said these words, I didn't feel any sadness at all.
I asked curiously: "Aren't you sad that you have no home?"
He shook his head and waved his hands: "In fact, life is the same."
"Have a family and live for your family."
"If you don't have a home, you have to live for yourself."
"If you can't live anymore, just die. It's not good to be free."
"Then do you think you can survive now?" I asked.
He thought for a moment and said, "I don't know either, but I don't feel tired yet."
"And you?"
"Can you survive?"
I shook my head and said, "I don't know either."
"But I know that even if I can't live, I can't die."
"Why?" He looked at me in surprise, "You don't even have a home anymore."