Chapter 197 Maybe I’m really a monster (6,000 words)
Mr. Ye's words made Yang Jia stunned for a moment, not knowing what to say, and even felt a little ridiculous.
Aboriginal people, foreigners...
After waking up, wouldn’t he be a stranger in a foreign land?
She didn't even understand why Mr. Ye would say such strange things. After all, she had never noticed that Xiao Xiao was any different from other people... except that occasionally he would behave in a way that she couldn't understand, and she would occasionally appear to be mentally healthy.
It's a bit problematic, but this phenomenon is very common among strangers, especially since Xiao Xiao discovered it on his own and led him into this world.
What problems would arise for people who have been brought in by themselves, guided by themselves, and grown up under their watchful eyes?
"Before this, everyone thought it was the stranger who woke up."
Seemingly understanding that Yang Jia would have doubts about this, Mr. Ye said softly: "That's because no one has ever encountered such a situation."
"But you can recall what it was like when you woke up?"
"..."
Yang Jia was silent for a moment, and then immediately remembered all the details from back then.
No stranger can forget the wonderful feeling at that time.
"It's like waking up from a big dream and suddenly realizing that you are different from other people, realizing the falseness of this world, and even feeling a serious sense of rejection. From the moment you wake up, the feeling of being out of place has always existed, and the feeling of being a stranger has always existed.
The feeling of loneliness goes deep into the soul, and it is not relieved until you meet similar people, until you learn to get along with the aborigines with a false face..."
"..."
"That's probably the problem."
Mr. Ye's gentle electronic voice slowly explained: "We rarely doubt our own knowledge. Even if there are people in the Dante organization like the Fengtheo sect who mainly understand the world from an indigenous perspective, they will also
Just to find some loopholes, the ultimate purpose of their doctrine is actually to falsify, just to prove the falsity of the world from the perspective of the indigenous people."
"But what if this is actually because our cognition has been distorted?"
"If there is another kind of person who truly enters a foreign land from being an aboriginal, he can see the same things as us, feel the creeping movement of the city, and use strengthening elements, but he has always been an aboriginal.
Where is one member?"
"All strangers are awakened after being selected by the mysterious source."
"But what if there is a kind of person who enters our world while maintaining his own will?"
"..."
Yang Jia has always been a very firm and rational image.
But now when she heard Mr. Ye's words, she couldn't help but frown, and suddenly interrupted, saying: "What exactly do you want to say?"
"I want to tell you what makes him different from us."
Mr. Ye said: "There are some essential differences between him and a stranger."
"With my current understanding of the will of the city and the strangers, I can't clearly explain the difference, but I can feel a sense of crisis. I don't know what it will bring, but when I see the mysterious road
When Yin helped him awaken and was sent to our circle, we realized that perhaps the fate of Black Gate City was different from what we thought."
"..."
Yang Jia suddenly realized the key: "You recognized him when you first met him. Does this mean that you have known him for a long time?"
Mr. Ye was slightly silent: "I knew him when the Black Forest Pioneer Project was launched."
"..."
Yang Jia's expression changed drastically in an instant.
If what Mr. Ye said was referring to the four years before Xiao Xiao started having headaches, the problem would be more terrifying than he thought.
Four years ago, the old president was still alive, and he had not even awakened yet.
And Mr. Ye is so loyal to the old president, which means that four years ago, Mr. Ye knew about this plan and knew that there was a person like Xiao Xiao in this plan. Then, the old president, the old president he respected the most
, and must know these.
She didn't realize it, and her voice trembled a little: "What exactly does the old president want to do?"
"As you understand."
Mr. Ye said: "The old president has always wanted to build a Noah's ship and take everyone out."
"He thought so four years ago, and four years later, he still thinks so. However, when the old president found the mysterious path a year ago and learned more about the truth about the world, I think he should have discovered it.
Some things shook him, but before he could tell me or adjust his plan, he was forced by the hell team to self-destruct."
"It is precisely because he concealed some of his secrets that even after he died, he left behind a complete plan, but we cannot execute this plan on his behalf. We can only wait and wait for the mysterious guide to send us a person.
The new president..."
"But unfortunately, I discovered that this new president is the product of the most regrettable incident that the old president participated in back then."
"..."
After saying this in one breath, Mr. Ye paused slightly, and there seemed to be a sigh of relief in the electronic sound.
"That's what I'm going to tell you."
"I have to admit, I feel very confused right now!"
"..."
"..."
"I am indeed a monster..."
Xiao Xiao looked at his father's frightened eyes, with only a complicated and unclear smile on his face.
He had seen this kind of frightened expression on many people's faces, but he didn't care, and even enjoyed it. But now, it was his father who showed this expression to him, so he also felt confused.
I felt that I hated this expression, and even felt that his curses were a bit harsh, but there were countless words to say, and I could only smile: "But who created a monster like me?"
"you……"
Seeing Xiao Xiao smile in the face of such curses, Xiao's father became frightened like chaff.
He seemed to have lost all his energy at once and begged:
"No matter what, please, I'm sorry for you, but your brother has nothing to do with this matter..."
"Please, let your brother go..."
"..."
"younger brother……"
The annoyance in Xiao Xiao's heart became even stronger, almost making him lose control of his expression.
Why is there always such a situation, where both parties can't even talk properly and can always push themselves to collapse?
He could hear himself laughing and asking, "If I'm a monster, how can I have a brother?"
"If I were a human, why would you ask me such a question?"
"..."
"What do you want?"
Father Xiao also shouted, with a kind of hysterical madness on his face: "I am your father, do you really have to kill me or your brother? You killed Mingming without even blinking,
He is also a living person, but you killed his uncle in front of your brother like that. You don't regard people as human beings at all, and you still say that you are not a monster?"
"I understand why the Black Goat Club is afraid of you..."
"They were so scared that they even wanted to expel me because you turned into a monster..."
"You still look like a human on the surface, but inside you have long since become a monster, a crazy monster."
"You even want to kill your father and your innocent brother..."
"..."
"I haven't yet..."
Xiao Xiao tried his best to explain, but still had that confused expression on his face: "Who can make such a decision so quickly?"
"Why are you pushing me to make a decision now?"
"You sold me out without even asking me, and now you're forcing me to make a decision?"
"..."
Xiao's father breathed deeply. Probably, maybe, just because he was not an clairvoyant, he could not feel the pain and confusion of Xiao Xiao at this time. In his eyes, the smile on Xiao Xiao's face, and even the expression in his eyes
The pain was just a terrifying and twisted expression. His reason had already collapsed, and now, suddenly, it had completely slipped into the abyss.
He thought of his son, and the difficult decision in his heart suddenly became easier.
"Monster, monster, madman, madman..."
He yelled: "You are not my son, you are just a monster wearing my son's skin. You are a monster!"
He shouted these words loudly and crazily.
Then he stared at Xiao Xiao and fiercely slapped a button on the desk in his office.
While doing this action, he kept staring at Xiao Xiao.
You can vaguely see the cruel pleasure.
Father Xiao has been in pain recently.
He made that decision four years ago. Although in his understanding, he never had the right to choose, and he felt anxious and worried for a long time. However, because there were no consequences for a time, he almost wanted to
Forgetting these things, he just saw that Xiao Xiao would have some headaches during that period, but other than that, there seemed to be no major changes.
When he was taken to the Black Forest, the other party just told him in disappointment that the potion did not react and the plan was aborted.
And he successfully divorced, started a new family, and successfully avoided this son. Occasionally, when he heard from him, he only said that his son, who had good grades, had dropped out of school and only hid at home playing games every day.
The whole person is considered useless.
I don't care too much, after all, I have a young son.
Time passes like this, and everything seems to be diluted.
He didn't even mind meeting his eldest son on his birthday. Although this meeting was only because his ex-wife kept nagging on the phone, and he also felt that it was a bit too much to not see his eldest son for four years, so he agreed...
Of course, a more important reason is that the Black Goat Club is asking him about the old house. He needs to ask the mother and son...
I have to agree to the Black Goat Club's request. After all, my business and connections are all related to them.
But it was this meeting that made him feel that something was wrong.
At the beginning of the first year of junior high school, the eldest son seemed to be doing nothing, other than being silent, and nothing different from ordinary people. But it wasn't until a real gun fell out of his body that he suddenly felt alarmed and frightened.
A little bit emerged.
Then, after the misunderstanding in the hospital, he saw the mysterious ability displayed by his eldest son, and learned that the eldest son killed people without hesitation, and he suddenly realized that something terrible had changed.
It started four years ago.
He became afraid and hid in the Black Goat Club. He began to understand the fear of his eldest son. He learned that this eldest son, who had not been out for four years, had gone from being a dock worker to joining the underground darkness in a very short period of time.
In the world, he even became a high-level member of a gang. He ignored the law and killed people like crazy. He even unknowingly became a high-level member of that mysterious organization.
This feeling of fear accumulates in my heart day and night.
The Black Goat Club was originally his last place of security. When the staff of the Black Forest directly stated that they were completely unable to protect themselves, the promise of the Black Goat Club had been his last hope until the boss behind the Black Goat Club
, suddenly with a taste of schadenfreude, he drove himself out and faced this terrible monster by himself.
He knew that his eldest son had sent many people to look for him, but he was unable to hide them.
Therefore, he also had to make preparations.
Facing someone who neither the Black Forest nor the Black Goat Club could fight against, he had nothing else to prepare for.
I can only think about keeping my little son.
Therefore, his preparation was just to put a bomb in his drawer, and use what he learned in the Black Goat Club and some small objects to place some equipment that can disrupt electromagnetic waves next to the bomb to avoid
be found.
He actually didn't mind detonating it.
Because he was in the Black Goat Club and heard a lot about these people.
If you fall into their hands, death will be the most painful result.
Anyway, this madman will not spare himself. So, in order to protect his children, this result is perfect, right?
…
…
The moment the bomb was activated, Xiao Xiao saw his father's eyes.
As an clairvoyant, he saw fear, determination, and full fatherly love in these eyes.
Of course, the last emotion has nothing to do with you.
After his father pressed the button, the Eye of the Insight had already seen the bomb and the rapidly beating numbers on it. Naturally, he immediately understood his father's intention and felt an unimaginable sense of absurdity.
It comes to my mind...
What did this long-lost conversation tell me?
I told myself that I became a stranger, but there was actually a reason behind it?
Did you tell yourself that becoming a stranger in a foreign land is logically logical even from an Aboriginal perspective?
So, do things seen by aborigines represent reality, or do things seen by strangers represent reality?
The bomb quickly jumped towards the critical point of explosion, but Xiao Xiao entered a state of explosive thinking.
Everything seemed to have stopped, including the digital bounce of the bomb and the father's roar.
Xiao Xiao thought silently during this stagnant time:
According to Yang Jia and others, this world has always been false, just a pile of meaningless flesh and blood. They could have ignored it at all, but sometimes they couldn't control their emotions. They were good to their mother because they were good to her.
Good to myself, this father is not very kind to me, but at this moment, why do I still feel empty in my heart?
True or false, it doesn't seem to matter...
He listened to the sound of the bomb beating for a long time, and felt silently relieved:
If everything I have experienced is just a collective fantasy carnival of madmen, then in reality I am actually powerless to change the logic of reality. If this bomb explodes so close to me, there is no doubt that I
Will definitely die.
After all, the power of fantasy can pollute others, but it cannot change reality.
But if the world of strangers is real, everything in this world is just an extension of flesh and blood.
Then I can survive.
Because that means that whether it is this room or this bomb, their essence is just flesh and blood, and living matter.
"call……"
Xiao Xiao slowly exhaled, his eyes became confused, and he began to feel the city.
When the Hell Organization began to attack Black Gate City, the city gave itself a privilege. As a lord, he could briefly become the center of the city, allowing the flesh and blood under his feet to transfer and change, and transport him to another place.
But now, less than two hours have passed since the hell organization retreated. This privilege still exists, and I still have the ability to transfer myself.
So, in a state of explosive thinking, he took advantage of this ability after thinking for a long time.
At the normal flow of time, the floor under Xiao Xiao's feet and the surrounding walls suddenly began to melt.
Everything in reality has turned into wriggling flesh and blood. The rules of physics can begin to be easily broken in the face of the essence of flesh and blood. Xiao Xiao sat still, but the flesh and blood under his feet already had the power to send him from this office to the office.
abilities beyond.
And this also shows that the city is just a ball of flesh and blood to him.
The indigenous people are just puppets, and everything they think is essentially meaningless.
Feeling these changes, Xiao Xiao felt relieved and reached out to grab his father's arm.
Before the bomb explodes, he still has to take him out.
But his face suddenly looked horrified.
He grabbed his father's arm, but suddenly found that he was unusually heavy and solid, and he could not pull him. Even the butcher's electric saw could chop up everything, but when faced with the perverted young man's sports car, he couldn't move it.
But I feel a little powerless. Now I feel that everything is easy, but I can't hold my father in front of me, who is yelling madly.
Just like a ghost can't pull a living person.
People in fantasy cannot affect anything in reality.
The next moment, Xiao Xiao immediately focused his attention on the bomb, trying to turn the bomb into a ball of flesh and blood.
It is also impossible to succeed, everything is proceeding according to a realistic logic that cannot be interfered with by oneself.
Xiao Xiao closed his eyes in pain. The next moment, he suddenly disappeared from the office and was sent outside the building in flesh and blood.
…
…
"Bang!"
A violent explosion suddenly sounded from the office. The terrifying explosion power and airflow tore apart the surrounding walls and desks. The entire office was torn to pieces, and huge flames poured out of the windows, even on the other floor of the building.
In the conference room at the end, Xiao's father, his wife, and his son, who were sitting in fear, closed their eyes in fear amid the huge shaking.
After a long time, they realized what happened and rushed out of the conference room desperately.
But all I saw was that the office had been blown to pieces, the flames were burning, and there was no trace of life.
Just outside that office, I saw Xiao Xiao sitting on an office chair with a runner, silently lowering his head.
"Old Xiao..."
"dad……"
She and the child both screamed in fear, heart-breaking. The fear at this moment almost made them break through their fear of Xiao Xiao. This woman actually wanted to rush towards Xiao Xiao and screamed desperately: "You
What did you do? You are really a madman, you can actually kill your father... You are a devil, a monster like you, how dare you do such a thing to your father..."
Xiao Xiao raised his head after a long time and just glanced in her direction.
The eyes are red.
There was no expression on his face. He just looked at her. After a long time, he suddenly showed a weird smile and nodded gently:
"Yes, I am indeed..."
"..."
The woman and child were shocked by this smile at the same time, as if they had lost their souls.
Even the thugs who were recruited as helpers were frightened by Xiao Xiao's smile, and no one dared to say a word.
Xiao Xiao, on the other hand, seemed to suddenly become interested. He pursed his lips and said nothing. He didn't even look at the fat man in Tang suit who came up to him. He just stood up and pressed the down button of the elevator in front of him.
...The elevator did not respond. It was hit by the explosion just now and malfunctioned. However, Xiao Xiao's expression suddenly became angry and he slapped the elevator button hard.
The elevator suddenly operated normally and soon appeared in front of him.
Xiao Xiao entered the elevator and fell straight down, never looking back at the scene of the explosion or anyone else.
…
…
"He killed Xiao Zhigong?"
In the secret stronghold of a club in Black Gate City, Shepherd and the special investigators from the Black Forest Biological Laboratory learned the news. They all fell into a daze of shock. After a long time, they sighed in a horrifying tone: "It's true.
It’s crazy enough…”
"Does the power of the mother's body have such a profound impact on people?"
"..."
"How could he be so cruel?"
The short-haired woman in a suit said with fear in her voice: "How can such a person be controlled as you wish?"
"I can even conclude that he is the most failed drug tester in the history of the Black Forest..."
"..."
"How is that possible?"
The shepherd reacted for a long time before he laughed and said: "Compared with the pain he endured, I think this is nothing."
"Perhaps, only such a person can really find his fourth element..."
"...Acquire higher authority from the mother body, right?"
"..."
"..."
"Where are you now?"
When Yang Jia called, Xiao Xiao was walking aimlessly on the street, letting the horns blaring around him in confusion.
"I?"
He heard the tension in Yang Jia's voice, but he was a little unable to care where the tension came from.
He replied somewhat mechanically: "I just met my father."
"Your dad?"
Yang Jia was obviously taken aback and said subconsciously: "What did you say?"
"It was just a quarrel."
Xiao Xiaomu said in an indifferent tone: "It's like many quarrels between father and son, no one can convince the other."
Yang Jia listened to his calm tone incomprehensibly: "Then what?"
Xiao Xiao was silent for a moment and answered slowly: "He is dead."
