Xiao Xiao clearly felt Yang Jia's shock and abnormality from her reaction, and even a little bit of horror.
In his heart, he suddenly felt an indescribable feeling of boredom. He even wanted to hang up the phone and throw it away from him. What was Yang Jia thinking at this time? He was shocked that he had killed his father.
, and regarded himself as a monster like his dead father? Perhaps, he should explain it? But what is the meaning of such an explanation...
Ridiculous and ridiculous, his heart was filled with disgust for this world.
What I hate the most is myself.
However, countless chaotic thoughts flashed through his heart in an instant, and these thoughts were about to overwhelm him.
Yang Jia's answer suddenly exceeded his expectations: "Where are you?"
"I'll pick you up."
"..."
Such a reaction suddenly made Xiao Xiao startled. He stood quietly for a long time and said slowly: "Why?"
"Why else?"
Yang Jia whispered: "Because your current condition is very bad, wait for me."
Xiao Xiao listened quietly to the voice coming from the microphone. After a long time, he slowly nodded.
After hanging up the phone, he sat down on a bench on the street, lowered his head, and watched the traffic flow forming lines in front of him.
There was always a dull sound echoing in my head, making it impossible for me to form effective thoughts.
It's back to the same state four years ago...
My thoughts seemed to have been beaten into paste. A mysterious and unknown force entered my head, shattering everything. I also lost my ability to concentrate. I couldn't think or perceive. There was only one thing.
A clear feeling, that is, pain, like being in a nightmare with a high fever, chaos, depression, and time is endlessly stretched.
The ability to think explosively allows you to do things that many people cannot do.
For example, you can react a little faster than others, understand something a little faster, and even perceive external pain a little longer.
But the only thing he couldn't resolve was the painful feeling that emerged in his mind.
Not only is it impossible to resolve, but due to the explosion of thinking, the perception of pain in one's mind is doubled.
Xiao Xiao actually really wanted to see Yang Jia, and especially wanted to see other people at this time.
But he didn't know how long it would take for him to see her when he allowed his mind to wander. Maybe Yang Jia would rush to where he was immediately after hanging up the phone, or maybe he would drive there normally.
It took twenty minutes, but she used the Brander's ability to get there in five minutes. However, in her own world, these five minutes might feel like five days...
...even as long as five years.
This discovery caused Xiao Xiao to suddenly fall into a deep panic.
When you are in pain, you always want someone to accompany you, as if this can dilute your pain.
But unfortunately, when you are in pain and alone, time always becomes longer, leaving you with no way to escape.
Everything in this world can be discounted.
Only pain always requires a person to bear it silently and clearly.
…
…
My mind is filled with all kinds of weird ideas.
Xiao Xiao just sat on the bench, letting his thoughts extend, silently enjoying the tearing and painful feeling in the loneliness and silence. He saw that the city in front of him had turned into flowing lines.
The image of the person shaking in front of me is meaningless. After editing in a disorderly manner, the shot is played back ten to twenty times faster. You can see the distortion and collapse of the whole world.
I also wanted to take a deep breath to get myself out of this state.
But I can't do it. Some particularly easy things always seem to be harder than heaven in some painful moments.
So he simply let it go and carefully savored all the anger, hatred, sadness, and pain.
Father is dead.
Perhaps the only option to dilute this pain is to deny him.
Denying his real existence, believing that he is just a facade in this city, just a monster wearing his father's skin.
Because he is a monster, everything he does has no substantial meaning to himself.
But at this moment, Xiao Xiao could not deny his truth, because just before, when he was fighting against the white devil, the power of the third stage of the seer was used to the extreme, and then at that moment, he suddenly saw the world
Reality, seeing all illusions disappear, all twisted and mysterious things disappear, a world that is clean and could not be more real.
Foreigners all look forward to returning to their hometown.
The world there is real, and the people are real, just as they are in memory.
So, what I saw at that time was the real world?
…
…
I don't know how long it took, but in Xiao Xiao's perception, it was as if he had turned into a fossil, and a thick shell appeared in his mind.
He suddenly heard Yang Jia's voice and slowly woke up.
There was a feeling of being separated from the world, and I was vaguely reminded of my father's death, as if it had happened many years ago.
He tried hard to concentrate, looked up, and saw Yang Jia...
...quarrel with others.
At this time, she seemed to have changed her clothes not long ago, and her hair had not been completely dried. She frowned and looked at an old man standing next to her, holding a dog, and said displeasedly:
"He's not in good condition either, so why should he give up his seat to you?"
"I'm not telling you whether your condition is good or not..."
The old man held the dog and spat: "This kid is rude. I've been telling him for a long time that he doesn't pay attention to anyone."
"Besides, I just asked him to get up, move his seat, and sit over there. What? Are you tiring him?"
"..."
Yang Jia's eyes were displeased and she said coldly: "There is no need for him to give it to you."
"The bench is public. Anyone can sit here and rest. You can do it, and so can he."
"..."
"But my old man comes here every day. It's just right to sit here when the dog is tired..."
The old man became angry and almost poked Yang Jia's face with his finger: "Go over there and sit on the lawn."
"My legs and feet are not good, so I just don't want to go there."
"You young people are of such caliber now that you can't even move your legs?"
"..."
Yang Jia's pretty face turned pale with anger, but she was speechless.
"Boom!"
At this moment, Xiao Xiao was completely freed from the confused and chaotic feeling, and suddenly drew his gun and fired a shot into the sky.
The violent sound made Yang Jia startled, and the old man was also startled.
The dog led by the old man was also stunned.
People watching the excitement on the roadside or pedestrians passing by were suddenly stunned.
Then Xiao Xiao frowned, suddenly raised the muzzle of his gun again, and fired two shots into the sky one after another.
"Bang" "Bang!"
"..."
There was silence all around, and suddenly everyone ran away with their heads in their arms. The old man threw the dog away and ran away like a kite.
"What's wrong?"
It wasn't until the surroundings became clean that Xiao Xiao raised his head and said to Yang Jia belatedly.
"fine."
Yang Jia looked at his confused eyes and found that he seemed to have no idea what had just happened.
Not only was he a little worried, he said, "How are you?"
"fine."
Xiao Xiao shook his head and said: "I was a little unhappy at first, and even now, I am still a little unhappy when I think about it. After all, he is my father. I can understand that he sometimes prefers another child, and sometimes even feels that
I didn’t care what he did, but when the critical moment came, I couldn’t accept it all of a sudden, and... I felt like I was really hit.”
As he said this, he laughed self-deprecatingly, stretched out his hand to rub his face, and said with a smile:
"But it's all over."
"..."
"It's passed?"
Yang Jia's eyes suddenly looked a little unbelievable.
Just after listening to what Mr. Ye told her, she immediately called Xiao Xiao, but she didn't expect that as soon as the call was connected, she heard that Xiao Xiao said that he was quarreling with his father and that his father had died...
...Normally Yang Jia wouldn't care about these things. Even if Xiao Xiao really killed his father, Yang Jia's sense of him would only stay at a strange level.
For example, a person who can destroy a toy that looks like his father.
But the key point is that, according to Mr. Ye, Xiao Xiao is from an aborigine, and he lives in the cracks.
He is different from abnormal people in his attitude towards certain things.
Then he...
With this idea in mind, she rushed over as quickly as possible, but she only saw Xiao Xiao sitting on a bench on the street in an extremely depressed manner, letting an old man holding a dog next to him scold him without saying a word.
She said a word without any reaction. The depression and desolation on his body at that moment almost made her feel frightened. Then she didn't even care about his image and wanted to ask the uncle to leave quickly and let Xiao Xiao be quiet for a while.
But she never expected that Xiao Xiao would act so calmly when he woke up.
It seems like that happened a long time ago.
Time can dilute everything, leaving only a little desolation in the eyes.
She didn't know how to describe this weird feeling for a moment, so she slowly sat down next to Xiao Xiao and didn't take the initiative to ask anything.
Xiao Xiao, on the other hand, suddenly asked after sitting quietly for a while: "Is there any cigarette?"
Yang Jia was stunned for a moment, looking a little embarrassed. She was no longer used to carrying cigarettes with her.
What's the use of bringing it?
How many can you put into your mouth?
But just as he was struggling for a few seconds, suddenly there was a slight noise in the sewer pipe not far away. Xiaosi pushed open the sewer cover with his head, got out of it, and silently took out a box of unopened menthol-flavored cigarettes and a
He put the lighter next to Xiao Xiao, then took two steps back and whispered: "Brother Xiao, don't worry, I just taught that old man a lesson..."
"I picked up the poop that his dog pooped on the road and threw it into his bed..."
"..."
Xiao Xiao's reaction was half a beat too slow and he couldn't help but be stunned for a moment.
Looking at the mint-flavored cigarette in his hand, he thought silently: "Did Xiaosi wash his hands before buying cigarettes?"
It's already picked up anyway, so it doesn't matter.
He silently tore open the package, took one in his mouth, lit it, and let the refreshing feeling flow into his mouth.
Then he said to Yang Jia: "You, as well as Mr. Ye, know everything about Black Gate City very well."
"But, about the Black Forest Biological Research Laboratory in Black Gate City, and the Black Goat Club among the aborigines..."
"……understood?"
"..."
Yang Jia concentrated slightly and realized that Xiao Xiao already knew a lot of things.
She pondered for a moment and whispered: "I know their existence and their operating logic, but I don't know much about it."
After a pause, she added an explanation and said: "As strangers, we can do many things, but there is one principle that can never be ignored: we are not the masters of the city, the will of the city is the black door.
We are the true masters of the city. We are only existences that serve the will of this city. Everything we can do is only possible with the permission of this city."
"So, there are always some things in this city that we cannot get involved with."
"Just like the native... people in this city, the price we exchange for them will be different due to their own influence and different functions on the city's operation. And all the secrets in this city, some
They can be easily displayed in front of us, but some are hidden deep in the city. If we investigate and understand them, it will cause dissatisfaction or even rejection in the city."
"..."
Xiao Xiao listened carefully and suddenly said: "Then what will happen if I forcefully break into the black forest and see all their secrets?"
Yang Jia was stunned for a moment, shook his head and said, "No one has done this before."
"Similarly, I don't recommend you do this either."
"..."
She seemed to be organizing her own words, and after a while, she continued: "In this city, I have fought against the guy codenamed Shepherd. His power is hard to understand, but I can also understand it."
We know how dangerous he is, but even so, until the city gives us clear instructions, we can't pay him bystanders, and it will even be difficult to even investigate him."
"Because whether you are dealing with him or investigating him, it is an act that goes against the will of the city."
"Investigation means peeping. For the will of the city, or the mysterious source, peeping is a crime."
"It is a blasphemy against high-ranking existence."
"..."
"Is peeping a sin?"
Xiao Xiao suddenly felt a strange feeling in his heart after listening to Yang Jia's words.
The ability of the clairvoyant is to see all the secrets of the city without being bound by rules.
Doesn’t that mean that this is an innate ability to blaspheme?
Although this was the first time he talked about Yang Jia's words, he actually knew something about it before. He just didn't think about going against the will of the city. Of course, it didn't matter anything else. But now, he has developed a strong feeling for the Black Forest and the Black Goat Club.
Interest, or in other words, this is not an interest, but a responsibility, a responsibility that you are responsible for yourself, so you must understand it...
So what should you do?
Will you be punished for investigating these matters without authorization?
With a slight movement in his heart, he suddenly raised his head and looked at one place.
The Black Forest Biological Laboratory, as a landmark building in the city, may be very mysterious in the eyes of many ordinary people, but in the eyes of strangers, at least their location and nature are not secret at all. Xiao Xiao knew that he was located in the city
Which location.
The eye of the clairvoyant appeared, and the city in front of him began to become deeper.
The buildings between the Black Forest Biological Laboratory and himself became blurred or even disappeared in an instant.
I can directly see this huge building complex, and even seem to be able to see directly through and get a glimpse of everything inside.
[Warning: You are touching the core of a taboo]
[Points are being deducted...]
【……】
But Xiao Xiao just looked at this black building. Just when he tried to look into it, he suddenly received a strong signal. At the same time, he felt a splitting headache, and his eyes seemed to see a bright light.
Feeling generally unwell, at the same time, my points were like a stopwatch that was accelerating. The points fell rapidly in an instant, until my eyes completely moved away from the black forest.
In just one glance, more than three hundred points were lost.
"So strict?"
Xiao Xiao couldn't help but feel slightly shocked, realizing that there was nothing wrong with what Yang Jia said.
Not to mention forcing your way into the Black Forest, even if you just peek into the Black Forest, you will be severely punished.
How long can these 100,000 points last?
He temporarily gave up the idea, looked at Yang Jia, and said, "But what if I do have something that I want to know?"
"Not a stranger..."
"..."
He tried to explain: "It refers to the indigenous people and some things that happened among these indigenous people."
"You really want to know this?"
Yang Jia's face turned a little serious at some point.
She stretched out her palm, held Xiao Xiao's hand, and whispered: "This is not the first time you have such doubts. Maybe this is a side effect of the insight route. You will always doubt something.
, but when you had doubts before, I took you to see the edge of the city and dispelled your doubts, but for your doubts this time..."
After a slight pause, she looked into Xiao Xiao's eyes and said, "Our world is an abyss."
"If you look too deeply, you will be in pain."
"..."
"It turns out she already knew..."
Xiao Xiao looked at Yang Jia's eyes and suddenly understood.
The insight was unusually sharp, allowing him to discover that Yang Jia already knew the problem he was facing.
I was originally worried about whether to tell them, but I didn't expect that Yang Jia knew these things, and after knowing these things, she was not wary and suspicious of herself, but advised herself how to stay away from these things...
I was silent for a long time, just in my own consciousness, silent for a long time.
Xiao Xiao suddenly said: "I may not be considered a real stranger, and I may not be considered an aborigine..."
"I don't even know what I am..."
"...Then how do you understand me?"
"..."
Yang Jia was also a little surprised when she heard this. She thought Xiao Xiao would hide the secret. After all, even she and Mr. Ye could deeply understand the impact of this truth on the world of strangers. However, she did not expect that Xiao Xiao would actually be there.
I admitted it in front of myself.
"I don't know everything..."
After a long time, she spoke slowly. She didn't want to lie in front of an insight, so she just said slowly:
"So I don't know what status you are in."
"..."
"but……"
She remained silent for a moment, then met Xiao Xiao's gaze and said softly: "At least I still remember it before everything happened."
"I didn't wake up, and you didn't encounter these things before."
"We were still classmates at that time."
"..."
Xiao Xiao's eyes gradually changed, and it was difficult to describe the feeling in his heart at this moment.
"Especially, although you are now very remarkable in the eyes of others, you have become a legend who defeated the Hell Organization."
Yang Jia's smile became more relaxed and she said with a smile: "But in my eyes, after all, he is just a newcomer who has just woken up."
"It is also the responsibility of us as guides to answer the inner doubts of newcomers."
"Last time, in order to answer your doubts, I took you to the edge of the city."
"Then, in order to answer your doubts this time, it is appropriate for me to take you to see the core of the city."
"..."
Xiao Xiao listened to Yang Jia's words quietly, and suddenly felt his eyes a little sore.
