Chapter 55 One side is dark and the other side is sunny (10)
She had nightmares one after another and always woke up in the middle of the night. After waking up, she never dared to sleep again. She was afraid that when she fell asleep again, she would really be dragged into the abyss, and then she would be shattered into pieces and never find herself again, so she had to keep her eyes open with random thoughts.
Until dawn...
And it was like this for a long time after that. She couldn't sleep well and was in low spirits. As a result, her grades plummeted after the start of school, which also attracted a lot of reprimands from her teachers. This was also the first time she was dismissed because of her grades.
The teacher invited the parents and both of them were reprimanded.
Now that I think about it, I was really stupid back then. I actually paid for the mistakes made by others and took on everything that I shouldn't have to bear!
Tell me, is she really stupid? She was so stupid that even her youth and ignorance could not save her at that time...
But she was probably lucky. During her second summer vacation in junior high school, she met her teacher, Mr. Qin!
It was precisely because of Mr. Qin's care and advice that he used his personal experience to tell her what is good, what is evil, and what remains unchanged!
Only then did she realize that her vision was so narrow and that a person's life was only a few decades. Why should she punish herself for other people's mistakes? It was a waste of time for others to laugh at her and not tell them.
of great youth!
Of course, that's what she said, but she was young after all at that time, and her passion for not letting others look down upon her made her slowly come out. Although the old things are still vivid in her mind, at least she
I no longer have nightmares and wake up every night.
It's just that that thing is like a sharp thorn deeply rooted in her heart. It will hurt you from time to time, but it can't be removed!
But as I get older, the more people I come into contact with, and the more I understand, the more I am able to comfort myself, and I gradually get used to ignoring the thorn in my heart, not being affected by it, and focusing on myself.
But now, seeing my old friend again, the thorn in my heart begins to hurt again, and the pain is still out of control!
That kind of pain made her realize that she was deceiving herself after all!
She never forgets, never lets go!
The night wind blew by, blowing a strand of her long hair and dancing in the wind...
Unknowingly, the gravel road underfoot has reached the end. At the end is a leisure pavilion. The antique style complements the decoration style of this hotel.
Hao Tianzhen found a seat and sat down, leaning against the pillar, looking at the night sky outside the pavilion. It was like a huge black curtain, and she tried to find even a little bit of light in it, which was a little bit of hope for her.
It's a pity that the night sky tonight is not strong at all, and it will eventually be dark to the end!
A coat suddenly fell on her body, and the crisp and warm familiar smell interrupted Hao Tianzhen's wandering mind. He looked at the person in front of him blankly, "If you don't sleep, what are you doing here? Do you have insomnia too?"
What is he here for? To give me a coat? Are they familiar enough?
Seeing the confusion on her face, Xiao Qianfan asked helplessly, "You should ask yourself this! Why is a girl running out in the middle of the night without sleeping?"
The balcony of his room faced the garden. He noticed her from the moment she appeared, and he noticed her for a long time. He saw that she was wandering like a wandering spirit, absent-minded, and never meant to go back to the hotel.
I had no choice but to put down the script in my hand and come down to read it.
"If you can't sleep, feel free to take a walk!" His appearance was unexpected to her. Faced with his rhetorical question, Hao Tianzhen used the same rhetoric he told the young lady at the front desk.
"Walking around casually? Then you have been casual for a long time?" Xiao Qianfan didn't believe in casualness. During the day, her mood was unstable and she made frequent mistakes and gaffes, which already made him worried.
Now I am suffering from insomnia in the middle of the night. If I wasn’t pretending to be something, how could I be like this?
Hao Tianzhen read the words "disbelief" in his eyes, but she didn't know how to explain it to him. Could she still go around shouting that she had another nightmare, dreamed about the past, and was awakened?
So, she had no choice but to change the subject stiffly and chase them away, "Here, I'll give you back your coat! You can go back and rest, I just want to be alone..."
Passing the coat over, her raised hands were almost sore, but she still didn't take it.
After a while, seeing that he really had no intention of taking the coat, Hao Tianzhen had no choice but to retract his hand, and couldn't help but mutter in his heart: If he didn't take his own coat, is this his coat?
"It's cold at night, so you'd better wear it!" Xiao Qianfan explained the reason why he didn't take his coat back in one sentence, and the meaning was obvious.
"Ah? Oh..." The sudden concern made Hao Tianzhen a little dazed, and then he put on his coat obediently.
The familiar smell on the coat made her temporarily forget all her unhappiness, and she felt much calmer.
She was even a little excited, oh, is she being cared about by her idol in person? It seems that her depression has been reduced a bit!
Originally, it was always awkward to have one more person in the pavilion, but this interruption eliminated the remaining embarrassment!
For a moment, the two looked at each other in silence, neither knowing what to say. Silence spread between the two...
Finally, Xiao Qianfan broke the silence and asked the question that had been pressing in his heart, "Do you know that dance teacher?"
"Ah? Well, we know him!" Hao Tianzhen didn't understand why he mentioned that person. Although she didn't want to mention that person, she still nodded and admitted.
Xiao Qianfan saw her evasion, so he stopped dwelling on the issue and asked instead, "Do you need a listener?"
It's better to block things than to open them up. It's you who feels uncomfortable if you keep keeping some things in your heart. If you tell them, you may feel more calm and relaxed.
Hao Tianzhen looked at him with doubts in his eyes. Why was he so sure that she needed a listener instead of an interpreter?
The point is, why does he take it for granted?
Seeing that she didn't respond for a long time, Xiao Qianfan knew that his question was a bit abrupt, "Well, it doesn't matter if you don't want to say it!"
"I just think that instead of evading all the time, it's better to face it calmly. Sometimes it will be easier to talk things out..."
Escape? Maybe! Even if you don't dare to face it calmly, you will lose your temper just when you see someone, and you will bring up the memories you deliberately forgot, which makes you feel disgusted.
Alas, now that I think about it, this is a typical example of her trapping herself in a cocoon!
Maybe he's right, it's time to talk things out. No matter how much you understand and how much you comfort yourself, it's better to talk about things calmly, because only by saying it yourself can you truly let go!
After hesitating for a long time, when Xiao Qianfan thought she wouldn't tell it, Hao Tianzhen said, "This story is not a good one, do you still want to hear it?"