The final change in the bottle made Xie Songhua feel a little complicated.
I was happy that Xie Tu was not bewitched, but at the same time I was annoyed by the real reason for Xie Tu's change at this time.
"How about it?"
Xie Tu's voice called her out of her emotions, and Xie Songhua quickly put the bottle away, "It's okay, I was just worrying too much."
Xie Tu smiled slightly and nodded, then poured some water from the teapot on the side and washed his fingers, wiped them dry and then picked up the square embroidery bandage again.
"Tu'er, it was a chaotic day, and I think your emotions were also very complicated, so I don't want to ask too many questions. It's just you and me now. Can you...can you tell me the reason?"
Xie Tu's embroidery movements paused again. This time she finally raised her head and her eyes became serious.
"Third sister, you don't have to be so cautious." The smile on the girl's face was a little shallow, but it had a clean smell. "After something like this happened, I know that the person who really cares about me is you."
"No, actually..."
"Third sister," Xie Tu interrupted her, the smile on her face somehow revealed a hint of sadness, "There are some things I just want to tell you, but I'm not sure.
You said it, can you understand it?"
These words made Xie Songhua unable to say what she originally wanted to say.
She originally wanted to tell Xie Tu that everyone in the family cared about her, the old lady cared about her, her aunt cared about her, and her eldest brother and sister, but in fact everyone was worried about her.
But Xie Tu's words made her understand that what she said meant that her real thoughts only wanted to tell her one person, and she was different from everyone else.
This is a heavy trust, but Xie Songhua can only continue.
Xie Tu seemed to have made up some kind of determination. She put the embroidery bag aside, then stood up and pushed the window open wider so that she could have a wider view and make it difficult to see the surrounding situation clearly.
He slowly poured a cup of tea and handed it to Xie Songhua's hand, "I'm not happy."
Her first words stunned Xie Songhua.
Xie Songhua keenly felt that this was not the marriage she was talking about, so he simply shut his mouth and just listened quietly.
"I have been unhappy for so many years," she tugged at the corner of her mouth, her eyes looking like a misty spring rain. It was not majestic, but made people feel wet and cold, "because I have no one to rely on. I am
A child with a family but no parents is very young, so I stay in my own home and live under the shelter of others."
"Tu'er."
These words made Xie Songhua feel sad, and she called her softly unconsciously.
"At that time, when my eldest sister had just been diagnosed and could not marry and have children like a normal woman, I was sick and happened to be lying down in my grandmother's house. I heard it. Then after my wife and the master left, I heard
My grandmother complained to Mother Shen that my wife had given birth to a useless child. I was five years old that year."
Xie Songhua opened her mouth gently, but did not say anything, but gently held her hand.
"When the second sister was eight years old, she showed the second wife's account book to my grandmother and pointed out the omissions in the account book. I heard my grandmother praising the second sister for her ability. I don't know why, but I always felt that my grandmother's eyes at that time were like
It's like looking at a piece of embroidery that you are satisfied with.
Then when I embroidered the first piece of embroidery that was approved by the master, I saw that look on my grandmother's face again. I didn't know what kind of look it was at that time.
Until one time I went with my grandmother to visit the Hou family in Jinxiang, and the fourth girl from their concubine came out of the palace. When my grandmother talked about the marriage of the fourth girl with Mrs. Hou, I saw that look in her eyes again. "
"Tu'er, you can't just think about things like this."
Xie Songhua knew that Xie Tu had a sensitive temperament and was precocious, but he never thought that she would be so sensitive.
Xie Tu pursed her lips and smiled, "I know, I know it's easy to get into trouble by thinking like this, and I also know that my grandmother doesn't actually regard me as a tool at all, but Third Sister, when I understood this, I was already a teenager."
In other words, she always thought this way during those critical years of her growth.
Xie Tu knew from her expression that she understood what he meant, so he didn't explain too much.
She looked up at the sky outside, "When I was a child, I envied every sister in my family, and then carefully hid this envy. But I kept thinking in my heart, wondering when I would be able to get rid of this envy and cautiousness.
Come out until I see my second sister coming out of the cabinet.
I secretly saw her eyes red in the room, but she was crying with joy.
Only then did I realize that I was not the only one who felt like I was in a prison."
Xie Songhua thought of Xie Yun's resignation. At that time, she had only been here for half a year.
She is still unfamiliar with everything, and she doesn't have much affection for her second sister.
Even though he had a good relationship with Xie Tu at that time, he was not aware of her sensitive thoughts.
The smile on Xie Tu's face grew bigger, "When I saw that she got married, I actually felt a little envious in my heart, because from then on, there was someone who could give her the right position. She was the wife.
In the future, she will still be the mother of her own child, and no one will care about her parents or how she was treated at home."
"So, from that moment on, you were actually looking forward to getting married as soon as possible?"
A red cloud flew up on Xie Tu's face, but she was not really shy. She nodded gently, "Well, I think when I get there, I can have a home of my own!"
But at that time, I was worried that my grandmother and the person chosen for me in the future would not like me and what to do if he did not love me. At least... the second brother-in-law seemed to be very satisfied with the second sister.
Then, third sister, you told me that we can choose our own attitude towards marriage. If I don't pursue those so-called marital relationships, it doesn't matter much to me whether there is or not.
What's more, I later discovered that even though my second brother-in-law, who I thought liked my second sister, turned out to be nothing more than that, I became even more convinced of this."
She didn't expect that the views on marriage she and Xie Tu had spoken had such a great impact on her, but even now, even if she and Xiao Yu have settled the case, she still feels that what she said at that time was not a big mistake.
"So, I have no fear at all." Xie Tu's eyes bloomed with an indescribable beauty, which seemed to inject some vitality into her whole body. "I just want to wait for my marriage that belongs to me."
When it comes, I just hope that the so-called marriage does not have too high requirements for me, and that my future life should be something that I can see at a glance."
Having said that, what else does Xie Songhua not understand?
Even though Xie Tu was hesitant and uneasy about the Su family's marriage at that time, it was just the uneasiness and fear of a young girl facing a completely different life that was about to appear.
After she calms down, she will naturally be able to accept it calmly and calmly.
No matter which angle you consider it, this marriage in the Su family is the best for Xie Tu.
"When I think about it carefully, this marriage that Xie Li didn't want is simply a gift from God. Is there any other family that is more suitable for me?"
There was a bit of confusion in her eyes, like Jiangnan that had just had a spring rain. It looked misty, but had a unique charm. "I really want to marry you, third sister. I have something to do with that person, but not everything."
relation."
"So..." Xie Songhua's lips trembled slightly.
Xie Tu finished the rest of her words for her, "So, even without him, it's not impossible."
