The autumn solstice is different from the summer solstice. Usually there are fewer words, and the personal attendants follow the summer solstice.
But Chu Xingchen also valued Qiulai.
Qiu Lai waved her hands anxiously under Chu Xingchen's gaze: "No, Your Majesty, don't listen to Xia Zhi's nonsense."
Chu Xingchen laughed; "Okay, okay, I won't listen to her nonsense. If you have anything, you can tell me."
Qiu Lai responded with a smile.
Chu Xingchen's guess was good. After Xiao Wang found out, he had already started happily planning their future and preparing dowry.
Xiao Wang had actually thought about it before for them to be cautious in their words and deeds in the future, but now he just told them about it.
As for dowry, it's a bit embarrassing to be cautious in words and deeds. After all, they are marrying a wife.
"Then it's a betrothal gift, and it will be prepared for you anyway."
Xiao Wang rarely felt a little happy.
He himself was not happy emotionally, but he was really happy for them when he saw that the cautious words and cautious actions he had grown up with could find happiness.
"That's great." He looked at his cautious words and deeds and said it was great twice.
Being cautious in words and actions makes me happy and uncomfortable at the same time. It would be great if such a good Mr. Xiao could stay with His Majesty for a long time.
If possible, they would give all their happiness to Xiao Jun.
Seeing them like this, Xiao Wang got down to business.
"You also heard that His Majesty said that it's time for me to rest. I thought it would be a good idea to rest. You have been busy with me for so long, so you should also rest this time."
"It's time to go back to your families and prepare for the wedding. During this period of rest, you can stop following me."
You can't rest assured about being cautious in your words and actions, but Xiao Wang has already made a decision.
"That's it."
A life of careful words and careful actions has always revolved around him. With him as the center, you should have a few days of your own.
"You should arrange and explain all the things on hand. I will go to Zhou Jun later..."
Just as he was talking, Zhou Buyan came.
Xiao Wang asked Zhou Buyan to sit down: "Didn't I say I would come over to find you?"
"I'll come over to you first if I have nothing to do."
Xiao Wang let Jin Yan and Shen Xing go out, looked at Zhou Buyan and asked, "Do you have something to tell me?"
"Yes." Zhou Buyan nodded and hesitated before speaking: "Xiao Wang, I heard from His Majesty that you will stay in the palace."
Xiao Wang paused: "Yes."
After saying that, he continued: "Zhou Buyan, although you can find someone else, I have been in charge for so long and I am familiar with it. I can help you manage the harem. I am good at this."
Xiao Wang didn't know why, but he suddenly thought that he was not irreplaceable, and subconsciously said the following words.
Desperate to prove his usefulness.
He was so unusual that even Zhou Buyan glanced at him.
Why does it sound like he will drive Xiao Wang out of the palace?
How could he have such qualifications?
Xiao Wang faced his gaze and realized the underlying meaning of his words.
His face suddenly turned pale.
He couldn't even hold back his laughter for a moment. This subconscious reaction exposed his true thoughts and true fear in his heart.
It turned out that he was afraid.
He had always been afraid that His Majesty would let him leave the palace, especially after Zhou Buyan was made the emperor's wife, he became even more afraid.
He was even afraid that Zhou Buyan would drive him out of the palace or suggest Chu Xingchen, but Chu Xingchen obeyed.
But he was helpless in the face of all this.
He thinks he is irreplaceable, but in fact he will always be replaced.
He is not indispensable, his illusion of himself has been exposed, and his self-confidence has been destroyed, so he is so afraid.
His fear and embarrassment were clearly revealed in front of his love rival who was unwilling to admit defeat and was unwilling to be seen through.
Seeing the surprise and astonishment in Zhou Buyan's eyes, Xiao Wang suddenly laughed.
He had already lost, but he never wanted to admit defeat.
He didn't want to admit it before, and he had been holding on in front of Zhou Buyan. He felt that as long as he held on, he would not be embarrassed, and he could still cause trouble for Zhou Buyan from time to time, and he would win occasionally.
But in this relationship, he had already lost.
After he thought so much, hesitated again and again, and pushed His Majesty away again and again, he completely lost.
It's useless for him to hold on to those dignity.
On the contrary, he seemed even more sad.
Xiao Wang's straight back suddenly relaxed, he laughed to himself and looked at Zhou Buyan.
"Yes, I'm really good at it."
Zhou Buyan felt that Xiao Wang was weird: "I know you are good at it, but Xiao Wang, this is not right."
Zhou Buyan was angry at Xiao Wang for cheating him before, but now he still feels wrong when he thinks of Xiao Wang staying.
"You are still young..."
As soon as Zhou Buyan opened his mouth, Xiao Wang knew what he was going to say, so he interrupted him directly:
"I know what you're going to say, but no, I know better than anyone else what I want to do."
Xiao Wang took a deep breath: "You may feel uncomfortable seeing me still in the palace, but I will still stay."
He has seen his own heart clearly, and he has also seen that he is not irreplaceable, but besides staying, where else can he go?
Zhou Buyan frowned: "That's not what I meant."
Xiao Wang took a deep breath: "I know you don't want to drive me away, so I also want to trouble you and don't say anything to His Majesty."
"I'm sorry about what happened before. I lied to you on purpose, but I won't do it again in the future."
"I have never begged you, this time... please, let me stay."
Xiao Wang said the word "please" and said nothing to Zhou.
His pride was shattered just to stay in the palace.
It was so difficult to say each word, but I still said it.
He begged Zhou without saying a word.
Because this is Xiao Wang’s obsession.
Your Majesty has long become his obsession, and he can't let go of those missed moments.
If there was nothing possible between him and His Majesty from beginning to end, he might give up, but no.
It was clear that His Majesty had feelings for him at first, approaching him again and again and testing him again and again.
He was stupid enough to push His Majesty away, only to regret missing it.
He regretted it all the time, because he missed it, so he couldn't let it go, and it became his obsession.
He has identified His Majesty over the years and always thought that he could still get her back. It would be so difficult for her to completely let go and look back.
Whether it's feelings or time, he has invested too much and can't let it go.
The reluctance and regret that I once felt have completely turned into obsession.
His only obsession is His Majesty.
He hasn't found a way to break his obsession, so he can only do this.
Looking at the somewhat unfamiliar Xiao Wang and the obsession in his eyes, Zhou Buyan's brows twitched:
"You don't need to beg me, your words scare me."
He exhaled: "I can't decide whether you come or go."
I can never be the master.
Xiao Wang twitched his lips, Zhou Buyan always felt a little frightened when he looked at him like this.
"Xiao Wang, whether you stay or leave, you are free, but staying...will cause you pain."
He stayed, but Xiao Wang was even more tortured.
Why bother yourself like this?
Xiao Wang smiled bitterly: "I know, I asked for it. Let's wait until I regret it one day. Maybe I will regret it tomorrow and choose to leave the palace."