The moment he said the divorce, Gu Yanzhi couldn't control his tears, they fell one drop at a time.
Take a deep breath and suppress the astringency in your eyes.
He gently and slowly tightened his arms, hugging the warmth tighter.
I really can't bear it.
It's not that he doesn't love her, he just loves her so much that he doesn't want to and can't bear to embarrass her anymore.
He couldn't bear that she would wrong him anymore because she owed him.
In the past few years, he has made her really tired.
It's like a vicious cycle.
He forced her to love him, but she couldn't fall in love with him, so she tried her best to lower her attitude to make up for him.
There are many things that I don't want to do, but I can't say no to him because of my debt.
He blames her for not relying on him.
Calm down, actually I don’t dare.
I dare not owe him more for fear of not being able to pay him back.
In this marriage, she lost herself and did not dare to have one.
It took him four years to make himself understand that one-sided love cannot change everything.
It's not wrong to love someone, what's wrong is that he is too confident, confident that as long as he loves Nuan Nuan enough, he will be able to change the other person.
He was wrong.
How wrong.
He should not try to change others. The only thing a person can change is himself, and he should not force others.
But if time could be turned back, to the day Nuannuan agreed to his proposal, would he refuse?
The answer is still no.
Humans are not machines. There are a few people who are in an emotional whirlpool and can really be rational.
The vast majority of people do things they know they can't do, and they just take chances.
Who doesn't have such a moment in their life?
Maybe?
Maybe I can?
He tried.
It ended tragically.
He no longer has the confidence to give her happiness, and if he continues, it may only cause more harm.
His deep love is her burden.
"Is it really irreversible?"
Nuan Nuan hugged Gu Yanzhi tightly.
Obviously knowing that they can't go back, but——
Gu Yanzhi touched Nuan's head, placed a kiss on her forehead, looked at her deeply, let go, stood up, turned his back, and said in a hoarse voice: "I will let the lawyer contact you in two days, where are your parents?"
I'll explain."
"Nuan Nuan, you have to be well. Go find Lu Jingxing, he has been waiting for you."
After saying that, Gu Yanzhi strode out.
With a soft "bang" sound, the door closed behind him, and tears burst into his eyes.
The warmth slid down the edge of the sofa, and I sat on the carpet, hugging my knees, with big tears falling down.
She knew that she and Yanzhi could never go back.
But even if she gets divorced, she will not return to Lu Jingxing.
…
Cheng Jingshu sat quietly on the balcony on the second floor, with the curtains open and the sun shining on her, but she couldn't feel any warmth.
She had forgotten how long it had been since she saw Nangong Jue.
A year ago, Nangong Jue was engaged to a woman from a scholarly family under the pressure of his mother.
After she separated from Nangong Jue, her mother-son relationship with Xiaozhe became increasingly weak.
It's all her fault.
She is a love-first person, but she is not a good mother.
She locked herself in her room every day and lived a closed life.
She only knows how to pay attention to Nangong Jue's news every day, feeling silently heartbroken.
She only ate one meal a day and became thinner and thinner.
Now, only the skin and bones are left.
When she decided to leave Nangong Jue, she also thought that time is the best medicine, and one day she would be able to forget him.
But every day after losing her, her life was worse than death.
When she learned that he finally compromised with his parents and married another woman, she read the report and cried all day and night.
The next day, she went out.
I carefully selected a gift and sent it abroad to wish him a happy engagement.
She has loved two men in her life.
For Lu Jingxing, she chose to get it by any means necessary, which ultimately made all four of them unhappy.
With Nangong Jue, she learned not to use force and allowed herself to choose to let go.
I just hope that he can be happy, even if his heart is cut by a knife.
In this life, she has loved, hated, and done whatever it takes to live it. She has also been deeply loved and firmly chosen. She has also achieved success.
After experiencing great sorrow and joy, she has given up on herself.
She didn't know how long she could hold on, she just felt like a withering flower.
As the days go by, she is withering away bit by bit.
From the moment Jue got engaged, she knew that she had nothing left in her life.
Yesterday was Jue's wedding.
She didn't blame him, didn't keep her promise, and finally compromised with her parents.
She just wants him to be well, that's all.
She cannot be happy, but when she sees Jue being happy, she will be happy for him.
"Knock knock."
There was a knock on the bedroom door.
"Madam, there is a lady named Nangong downstairs looking for you."
When Cheng Jingshu heard the word Nangong, a glimmer of light came into her dull eyes.
She staggered to her feet and stumbled from the balcony to the door.
I ran barefoot all the way downstairs and rushed to the door.
There were cars parked at the door, the doors were open, and a woman was standing beside the car.
It is Mrs. Nangong.
She was no longer as noble and elegant as when they first met a few years ago, and looked at Cheng Jingshu who rushed out with a haggard look on her face.
Eyes facing each other.
Neither of them can overlap the woman in front of them with the person they saw a few years ago.
"Jue'er wants to see you one last time."
One sentence was like a heavy hammer hitting her head hard.
There was a clear "clang" sound, accompanied by a feeling of dizziness, and the body was shaking.
Mrs. Nangong stretched out her hand to support Cheng Jingshu.
Cheng Jingshu looked at Mrs. Nangong.
Look at her swollen and bloodshot eyes.
Her eyes quickly turned red.
…
The plane landed in Jiangnan, Nangong Jue's hometown.
A city with beautiful mountains and clear waters.
Cheng Jingshu thought she would cry after understanding Mrs. Nangong's words, but she had been calm from the moment she got in the car.
Until, he stood outside the door of Nangong Jue's ward.
She suddenly stopped.
Mrs. Nangong stood beside her, looking at the skinny woman next to her, her eyes wet with tears.
Why did she force them to separate back then?
Now, she doesn't even have a chance to regret it.
"Jue'er has been waiting for you, go in and see him."
Mrs. Nangong helped Cheng Jingshu open the door and patted her gently.
As if a switch was turned on, Cheng Jingshu walked in mechanically, and the ward door slowly closed behind her.
She stood in the ward and looked at the man lying on the bed not far away.
The face she thought about day and night blended into the whiteness of the snow.
"When Jue'er was still conscious when he was sent to the hospital, he kept calling your name. It's my fault. I'm sorry for you. It's my fault that I didn't help you and made Jue'er like this."
The moment Cheng Jingshu heard Nangong Jue calling her name unconsciously, her heart was severely torn into pieces.
She remembered that when Lu Jingxing was in a car accident and was lying in critical condition on the hospital bed, the person he unconsciously called out when he was unconscious was Nuan Nuan.
At that time, she really envied the warmth and being able to be loved so deeply by a man.
Now, she became the one who was envied, but she only felt heartbroken.
She would rather Jue be well than let him know in this way that she has become the person he will never forget.
Cheng Jingshu dragged her extremely heavy legs to Nangong Jue's bedside, and her knees went weak.