There was no hysteria, Gu Yanzhi asked so calmly, but it was like a heavy hammer hitting Nuan Nuan's heart.
Gu Yanzhi left.
Nuan Nuan reached out to hold him, but looking at his back, she didn't know how to keep him.
The raised hand stayed in mid-air for a moment, then fell down.
…
After Gu Yanzhi left home, he drove aimlessly.
I don’t know how long I drove it, and I don’t know how I arrived at Encounter.
At this point, Nancy is not here.
Sitting in the car without getting out of the car, he touched the mobile phone in the glove box and dialed Nancy's number, "I'm in Encounter. Do you have time to come over and have a cup of coffee with me?"
"I'm at home, come here."
Nancy heard something was wrong in Gu Yanzhi's voice, so she didn't say much. After speaking, she hung up the phone and sent him her location.
Ten minutes later, Gu Yanzhi's car parked in a high-end community not far from the encounter.
Nancy called the doorman, and Gu Yanzhi's car drove in.
Parked the car and walked into the building where Nancy lived.
The elevator dinged and stopped on the 32nd floor, and the door of 3201 was open.
Gu Yanzhi walked to the door and saw a pair of disposable slippers from a five-star hotel chain placed at the entrance.
He changed his shoes and closed the door.
Nancy in the study heard the sound of the door closing, and without stopping, she just casually said, "I have a manuscript that I'm rushing to finish, so you can do as you please."
She didn't treat Gu Yanzhi as a guest and got up to entertain him.
Looking at the screen, his hands flew flexibly on the keyboard.
Gu Yanzhi stood at the entrance and took a look at Nancy's private world.
He used to be a frequent visitor to the romantic scene, and he could tell at a glance whether a man had been in a woman's home.
Here, nothing, is Nancy's personal space.
Not big, but very cozy.
She converted a three-bedroom apartment of about 100 square meters into a two-bedroom apartment.
One bedroom and one study room.
Bianhu, the lighting is very good.
The decoration style is girlish, which is very different from the cold feeling Nancy gives people.
Surprising, yet seemingly not surprising.
He didn't really feel free to visit a single woman's private space.
After entering the house, I went directly to the study.
Sunshine, just right.
With the window open, the breeze blew by, moving the window screen, and the light and shadow were beautiful.
"Sit yourself."
Hearing him come in, Nancy kept moving her hands and slightly raised her chin to signal him to sit on the window sill.
There are mats on the bay windows.
There is a small table and two small cushions on it. There is a health pot on the table, and the pot contains health tea that has been kept warm.
Gu Yanzhi walked over, sat down on the cushion, and poured himself a cup of health tea.
After that, Nancy stopped talking and focused on typing on the keyboard.
The light gauze blocks ultraviolet rays and softens the sunlight, making it very comfortable on the body.
In the air, if there is a faint fragrance of aromatherapy, it lingers on the tip of the nose, making people relax physically and mentally.
Listening to the sound of Nancy typing on the mechanical keyboard, Gu Yanzhi's heart, which had been heaving, slowly calmed down.
He finished his tea, sat cross-legged on the cushion, leaned his back gently against the wall, and looked out the window.
This is the 32nd floor. There are no high-rise buildings behind it. At a glance, you can see far away.
The view is vast.
He just watched quietly, and as he watched, time seemed to suddenly return to the time when he first saw Nuan Nuan in Country H.
Having lived among thousands of flowers, he has seen many beautiful colors and styles, but when he first saw Wen Nuan, his eyes lit up: This girl is so pretty.
It was obvious that since he became an adult at the age of 18, he has only been dating internet celebrity models. Everyone around him knows his preferences, and he also thought that the one he likes is that one.
But the moment he met Wen Nuan, he suddenly felt that this girl's appearance was perfect for his aesthetic point.
At that time, a thought suddenly came into his mind: I want her, I want to get her.
He is from the third generation of wealth, and the most important thing he has been lacking since birth is money.
Even if you don't know him personally, you can tell from his clothes and his arrogance in spending a lot of money that he comes from a good family.
In addition, his face is what others call tall, rich and handsome.
Conditions like his are very attractive in the eyes of many women.
He has never pursued women, but he has never lacked women.
If you like it, it's not an exaggeration to say that you can get it with just a tick of your fingers.
He was always successful in love, and Wen Nuan was the first woman he took the initiative to ask her to date him, and it was also the first iron brick he kicked.
When he was rejected by her for the first time, he thought Wen Nuan was just pretending and posturing.
Later I found out that she was really not interested in him and really didn't want to start a new relationship.
When did he discover that he liked Wen Nuan? It was because he had been pursuing Wen Nuan for a period of time, and then waited in front of her school in a high-profile manner, and confessed his love to her in a romantic and financial way that most girls could not refuse.
After being rejected by her in public, he lost face and returned to Jiangcheng and his own colorful world.
But he found that he couldn't go back.
The life he once loved has become dull and boring, and he has no interest in dating other women. The only people he thinks about are warmth.
He went to Country H again, and this time he stayed there directly to keep warm.
The closer I get to her, the more I feel sorry for her.
He wants to be her support.
I want to take care of her all my life, give her happiness, and no longer let her have to work so hard alone.
Finally, he finally got his wish.
But he failed to make her happy.
Every bit of He Nuan's past years went through his mind like a slideshow, and finally settled on Wen Nuan's thin and thin back.
Gu Yanzhi's eyes were moist, and he slowly closed his eyes.
This week, whether in the hospital or at home, he didn't sleep well.
Bathed in the sunshine, Nancy played soothing music at some point.
Listening to the music and smelling the fragrance of the incense, his mind slowly emptied and he fell into sleep unconsciously.
…
Mu Chenxi rushed outside the villa where Wen Nuan lived, and happened to see Gu Yanzhi's car leaving from the opposite direction.
She turned ahead and drove in.
Parked the car, opened the door and got out, and walked hurriedly inside.
The aunt at home can feel the low pressure of the owner of the family these days, and usually tries to minimize her presence.
When she saw Mu Chenxi, she knew him.
Knowing that he was the best friend of the mistress of the house, he immediately invited the person in when he heard that she was looking for the mistress.
Mu Chenxi was worried about Nuan Nuan in her heart, so she refused her aunt's invitation to sit down, "No, I'll go up and find Nuan Nuan myself."
Auntie quietly withdrew.
Mu Chenxi strode upstairs, calling, "Nuan Nuan."
Nuan Nuan has been sitting on the ground blankly since Gu Yanzhi left.
Until Mu Chenxi's voice reached her ears, she slowly raised her head, looked at the figure who appeared at the door of the bedroom, and said hoarsely: "Sister Chenxi."
Seeing her, the tears that Wen Nuan had just stopped rolling out of his eyes again.
"Nuan Nuan."
Mu Chenxi found the warmth, strode in, stretched out her arms and hugged her.
"Sister Chenxi..."
Nuan Nuan hugged Mu Chenxi back, burying his face in her neck, and tears rolled out.
Mu Chenxi hugged the thin warmth distressedly and patted her back gently, letting her vent her emotions quietly.
After a long time, Nuan Nuan stopped crying.
Mu Chenxi helped her up, walked to the side and sat down.
He took the tissue from the table and wiped the tears on her face.
He sat next to Nuan Nuan, held her hand, touched her head as before, and said distressedly: "Why are you so stupid, carrying such a big thing by yourself?"
She accompanied Nuannuan to see the doctor before.
Nuannuan said that she had never been pregnant and wanted to go to the hospital to see how the treatment was going.
She thought Nuan Nuan asked her to accompany her because Gu Yanzhi was staring at her too closely and she wanted to take a breather. Little did she know that she actually had a child during the implantation period.
And she, choosing to be alone carries such a heavy psychological burden.
No wonder she is getting thinner and thinner.
The two sat side by side, warmth resting gently on Mu Chenxi's shoulder.
It's not that she doesn't want to tell Sister Chen Xi, she knows that Sister Chen Xi cares about her, and she can't help but worry about the people she cares about.
Once she knows, she will worry about her.
Sister Chen Xi will not trust her.
She didn't want to affect Sister Chen Xi's happy married life because of herself. She didn't want to add a burden to her and let her bear it with her.
She doesn't want to.
Seeing that Nuan Nuan had calmed down, Mu Chenxi asked her, "Nuan Nuan, what are you going to do now?"
Wen Nuan said softly, "I don't know either."
"In these years, in this relationship between four people, the most innocent person is Yanzhi."
"When Cheng Jingshu came to me to persuade Lu Jingxing to divorce him, I refused, not only because I was already married to Yanzhi, and I had decided to live a good life with Yanzhi, and I didn't want to interfere in their affairs anymore."
"It's more because I don't want to see her live a comfortable life, and selfishly don't want to fulfill her needs. Deep down in my heart, I resent her. It's her unscrupulous methods that prevent Lu Jingxing and I from being together."
"I also blame Lu Jingxing. Even if I understand his difficulties, I still blame him for not firmly choosing me. Time and time again, I am not his first choice."
"What I blame the most is myself. I don't live up to expectations and I can't control my heart. When I first returned to Jiangcheng, I really wasn't sure I could resist Lu Jingxing. I really love him so much. To love someone deeply
Sometimes, when faced with his approach, it is really difficult to resist."
"I chose to marry Yanzhi, even if he was willing, I still felt that I owed him. My purpose of marrying was not pure, so I tried my best to make it up to him.
I don't dare to trouble him anymore, I'm afraid I owe him too much, so I try my best to cooperate with him, try to be his good wife, and try not to cause trouble to him or the Gu family.
I know that he used many methods and did many things behind his back to force me, but it was all because he loved me and wanted to have the complete me.
It was my fault that I couldn't respond to him. In the end, I hurt him and my parents."
"How did I turn a good marriage into what it is now-"
Nuan Nuan reached out and hugged Mu Chenxi's waist, closing her eyes, feeling exhausted both physically and mentally.
…
Gu Yanzhi woke up to the aroma of coffee, slowly opened his eyes and found that it was already evening.
There is a pink Hello Kitty blanket draped over her body.
He opened it, folded it and put it aside.
Nancy heard the commotion inside, walked in with a coffee cup, handed him a cup, "Try the newly arrived coffee beans."
Gu Yanzhi reached out to take it and took a sip, "It tastes good."
After finishing a cup of coffee in a few minutes, Gu Yanzhi put down the coffee cup and looked up at Nancy, "Thank you."
"I won't send it."
Nancy continued to drink coffee and did not get up to see him off.
She knew from Gu Yanzhi's expression that he had completely calmed down and figured it out.
…
Mu Chenxi has been with Nuan Nuan for a long time.
Until evening, Nuan Nuan sent her downstairs, watched her car drive away, and turned around to go back.
Gu Yanzhi couldn't get through on her cell phone, so she changed her clothes and prepared to go find him.
She wanted to have a good talk with Yanzhi.
As soon as Nuan Nuan arrived at the door, she bumped into Gu Yanzhi who was coming back. She stepped forward and walked up to him, "Yanzhi."
Looking at Gu Yanzhi, Nuan Nuan didn't dare to be like before. Whether she went to the company to pick him up from get off work or waited for him at home, she would give him a hug when she saw him.
Today, Nuan Nuan just looked at him cautiously.
"Go in first."
Gu Yanzhi took the initiative to reach out and hold Nuan Nuan's hand.
Feeling the coldness of her hands, my heart still couldn't help but hurt.
He tightened his grip and led her inside.
The tip of Nuan Nuan's nose felt sore and he held Gu Yanzhi's hand back.
The two walked side by side in silence.
After entering the house, Gu Yanzhi took Nuan Nuan and sat down on the sofa. He called the servants at home and gave them a day off.
After they left, he sat across from Nuan Nuan.
His eyes fell on her face, and his heart clenched tightly as he looked at her getting thinner.
He couldn't help but raise his hand to gently caress her eyebrows, looking at the face in front of him that he loved so much.
The moment she agreed to his proposal, he silently swore in his heart that he would love her for the rest of his life, that he would heal the pain she had experienced, and that she would not suffer any grievance or harm from him.
He will definitely love her more than Lu Jingxing, he will make her the happiest woman, envied by everyone, and he will never let her shed a tear or regret marrying him.
But he didn't do it.
He couldn't control his unique desire, and his pressing step by step made her become more and more haggard and thinner.
He didn't make her happy, but instead made her more miserable and tired.
He deceived himself until today, and he had to face reality.
Their marriage is nothing more than a mirage, just an appearance.
If marriage is about two people building a house together, he and Nuan Nuan did not lay a good foundation from the beginning.
But he was too hasty and just wanted to get a beautiful house as soon as possible.
In order to cooperate with him, Nuan Nuan couldn't keep up with his footsteps but worked hard to cater to him.
In the end, after several years of hard work, the two of them did build a house that looked very beautiful to outsiders.
But only those who live in the house know that the house is just a hollow box.
Can't withstand the wind and rain.
If you are not careful, it will collapse and become ruins.
Now they are standing on the ruins, devastated.
…
The moment Gu Yanzhi touched his face with warmth, he seemed to feel something.
Her body couldn't help but tremble slightly, she held his hand uneasily, tears welling up in her eyes, "Husband."
Before her tears fell, Gu Yanzhi raised his hand to gently wipe them away for her, stretched out his arms to hug her, and whispered in her ear: "Don't cry."
He wanted to hug her tightly, but he didn't dare to use force.
The big hand on her back could clearly feel the cervical vertebrae on her back. The happy marriage he wanted to give her had made her thin and skinny.
A heart aching densely.
He couldn't bear it.
I really can't bear it.
Nuan Nuan leaned into Gu Yanzhi's arms and held him tightly.
The two hugged each other quietly.
After a long time, Gu Yan put his chin on the top of Wen Nuan's hair and said, "Wife."
Warm's heart trembled.
"After today, I can never call you wife again."
Nuan Nuan's pupils trembled fiercely.
Subconsciously, she wanted to push Gu Yanzhi away and look at him, but she was held tightly in his arms.
He didn't dare to look at her, fearing that she would continue to delay the decision she finally made because of her reluctance.
"Honey, don't move, let me hug you again."
Gu Yanzhi's kiss gently landed on the top of her hair, carrying his deep affection.
Wen Nuan tightened his arms hard and choked out, "Husband..."
Gu Yanzhi gently touched her short hair and said in her ear: "I thought a lot by myself this afternoon."
"I never told you that I secretly investigated you after I found out that I fell in love with you."
"I know everything about your past with Lu Jingxing, and I know that you loved him so much that you were like a moth to a flame, scarred all over."
"At that time, I was thinking that if one day you accept my pursuit and are willing to be with me, I will definitely not make you sad."
"I will do my best to make you happy and heal all the scars in your heart."
"But I didn't do it!"
"On the surface, I treat you well and love you very much. But I am also using my love and your guilt towards me to kidnap you.
I clearly know that you feel guilty about me, but you can't refuse me, so I will use this to force you to compromise with me and do things you don't want to do."
"I tried to change you and turn you into what I wanted. I pressed on every step of the way without giving you any room to breathe. In the end, I pushed our good marriage to the point of no return."
"If I didn't love you so much, I would insist on forcing your heart.
If I could truly do what I promised you before you agreed to propose to me, and not care about the person in your heart, we wouldn't be where we are today."
She has obviously done a good job.
If he could take a step back, they could live a happy life.
"Honey, I am so looking forward to joining hands with you for the rest of my life. I never thought that one day I would tell you personally..."
Gu Yanzhi choked up.
The word divorce is so difficult to say.
He really loves her so much.
I really can't bear to let go.
"Yanzhi, I have never thought about divorcing you. From the day I decided to marry you, I have made up my mind to spend the rest of my life with you."
"I'm sorry. It's my fault. It's me who didn't control myself. It's me who made you suffer."
Wen Nuan cried until her eyes burst into tears. She never thought about divorcing him.
"Honey, don't say you're sorry. It's not your fault that you don't love me."
"The human heart is not something that can be bought or sold. You can't just buy it if you want to. I know you have worked very hard, but the human heart is the hardest thing to control."
"I know it deep down in my heart, but I still can't control myself. Unless I can stop loving you, I will always be paranoid about asking for the heart you can't give me."
"Honey, I lied. There is no way I can't let go of your heart. Even if I figure it out, I still can't ignore the fact that you don't love me."
He was really too conceited back then.
It's not that he thinks he won't mind, but he thinks that his excellence will definitely make Nuan Nuan fall in love with him.
"I can't be content, I can't be generous, I can't just satisfy the person who has you, I just want everything about you, including the heart you can't give me."
Gu Yanzhi was very reluctant to part with him.
But he also knew that he and Nuan Nuan had reached a dead end.
Nuan Nuan couldn't control her heart and couldn't force it.
And he has no way to back down and truly be selfless.
Human nature is inherently selfish.
If they continue walking, they will only make each other's lives more tiring.
He will continue to force her and hurt her in the name of love.
He couldn't control himself.
People's minds are only so big, how can they be truly magnanimous?
Especially when it comes to the woman you love deeply.
The so-called selfless love without asking for anything in return probably only exists in fictional worlds.
If they continue, Nuan Nuan will only suffer more harm.
In front of his parents that day, he was so sad that he said too many irreparable words.
It has planted a thorn in the hearts of my parents that cannot be removed.
Nuannuan and her parents will never go back to the past.
If it continues, Nuan Nuan can only compromise more and more.
Try to please.
In order to make other people happy, she puts herself at the mercy of herself.
"Honey, I've thought about it very clearly. I decided to let go and let you go free."