Lu Jingxing sat blankly on the office chair, still holding the pen stained with Cheng Jingshu's blood and tears in his hand.
A feeling of suffocation came over him, pressing heavily on his shoulders.
…
No matter how embarrassed she was at the moment, Cheng Jingshu held the divorce agreement signed by Lu Jingxing tightly and rushed to the airport without stopping.
After flying back to Jiangnan, when she rushed to the door of the ward, the ward, which was originally empty with only Mrs. Nangong alone, was suddenly crowded with people, surrounding Nangong Jue in a circle.
Cheng Jingshu didn't know any of those people, and she only heard everyone crying.
She came late.
Cheng Jingshu's legs went weak and her body swayed unsteadily.
With a "clang", he hit the door of the ward, and he stretched out his hand to hold on to the door frame to steady himself.
Mrs. Nangong was the first to discover Cheng Jingshu. The moment the doctor announced that her son was dead, she was already crying in front of the hospital bed.
Looking at Cheng Jingshu with blurry eyes, tears fell down one after another, and she choked up and became speechless several times.
Cheng Jingshu was stunned, clutching the divorce agreement she had begged for Nangong Jue.
He stumbled unsteadily towards the bed.
Everyone in the ward probably guessed who the person was. The person was dead, and right and wrong were put aside by everyone at this moment.
No one bothered her again, and no one said another word.
Seeing Cheng Jingshu stumbling towards the hospital bed, they all automatically got out of the way.
Soon, Cheng Jingshu stood in front of Nangong Jue's hospital bed again.
The instrument was still there when she left, but it was turned off.
Tears momentarily blurred his vision.
She gently handed the divorce agreement to Nangong Jue's hand and asked him to hold it tightly, "Jue."
As soon as she opened her mouth, tears fell down her cheeks. She cried and said to him, "I can get a divorce. Lu Jingxing agreed to divorce me."
"Look, this is the divorce agreement. He has signed it, and so have I. I am no longer Lu Jingxing's wife, and we can be together."
Cheng Jingshu held Nangong Jue's hand tightly and opened the divorce agreement with one hand.
But a person who has no breath cannot give her any response.
He can't see anymore.
Her Jue, the man who loved her most in her life and who had always been devoted to her without any regrets, still failed to wait for her in the end.
He passed away with regret.
Cheng Jingshu collapsed and burst into tears. Big tears rolled down from her eyes and fell on the divorce agreement she had opened.
He fainted from her and Lu Jingxing's signature.
The legs lost their strength, slowly bent, and finally fell to the ground.
With trembling hands, he took out a ring box from his pocket.
"Jue, I have already worn the ring you bought for me. You can marry me."
Jue had prepared the ring a few years ago, and he had bought it since the night the two had an accident when they reunited.
He really wanted to be with her for the rest of his life.
Mrs. Nangong disagreed with them and approached her.
Lu Jingxing was unwilling to divorce her.
Life is like a reincarnation. What she did to Lu Jingxing was something she herself experienced once.
She couldn't bear to drag him down anymore, so she broke up with him and deliberately avoided him.
Finally he left Jiangcheng.
But not long after leaving Jiangcheng, he sent her a ring.
He said: His wife will only be her.
She has been carrying it with her for the past few years.
She is too thin now, and the size no longer fits her, and it fits loosely on her ring finger.
After putting on the female ring, he took out the male ring, held Nangong Jue's hand and slowly put it on for him.
She lowered her head and kissed him gently on the ring-wearing hand. The ring was soaked with tears. She choked with sobs and said affectionately: "I do."
She cried heartbrokenly and the pain was heartbreaking.
It turns out that people do get retribution for doing bad things.
It’s not that I won’t report it, it’s that the time has not yet come.
In the past few years, she has lived with regret all the time.
I regret my dark and despicable past.
However, in this world, some mistakes cannot be made up for by just saying sorry or forgiven.
Very sad.
Cheng Jingshu, who had been in poor health in the past few years, could not bear the blow of losing Nangong Jue, and her throat felt fishy and sweet.
A mouthful of blood spurted out, staining the white quilt on Nangong Jue's body red.
She fell softly on Nangong Jue and closed her eyes.
…
The day after Nangong Jue's death, Cheng Jingshu flew back to Jiangcheng from Jiangnan.
At the airport, she called Lu Jingxing.
Lu Jingxing was waiting for her at home.
She took a taxi back, arrived home, opened the car door and walked in slowly.
Lu Jingxing, who was sitting on the sofa in the living room waiting for her, subconsciously stood up the moment he saw Cheng Jingshu's figure.
He looked at Cheng Jingshu, who looked like a gaunt tree in front of him, with complicated eyes.
This woman he had been entangled with for nearly ten years.
When he begged her for a divorce, she delayed the divorce, and finally let him watch Nuan Nuan marry Gu Yanzhi.
The moment he lost his beloved, he hated this woman.
He doesn't want or want her to have it easy!
When Cheng Jingshu wanted her to fulfill his wish, she failed to fulfill him and Wen Nuan.
Even when he was destined to be unable to stay with his beloved for the rest of his life, he was not willing to marry her and Nangong Jue!
He gave her back what she had done to him.
Delaying the divorce will cost her.
He threatened to take Cheng Jingshu to hell with him and live in hell.
For the rest of my life, I will bear with him the pain of not being able to be with the person I love.
In the past few years, as he wished, he stared at her, she could not see Nangong Jue, and she was living in hell.
I am suffering every day.
Nangong Jue's death was a fatal blow to her.
The oil is almost running out.
This is obviously the result he wants most.
It made Cheng Jingshu miserable and miserable.
However, at this moment, Lu Jingxing looked at Cheng Jingshu, who was in more pain than himself and suffered a more tragic fate than him, but he did not feel any pleasure from revenge in his heart.
He really didn't expect that his incompetence would separate them, making it impossible for them to do so.
"sorry."
A word of apology cannot make the past resentment between them disappear without a trace, wipe it away, and treat it as if it never happened.
But at this moment, it was Lu Jingxing who apologized from the bottom of his heart.
When he and Cheng Jingshu took a closer look, they no longer knew who was more wrong than the other.
People always reflect on something when they realize they made a mistake after experiencing it.
Cheng Jingshu just looked at Lu Jingxing with a cold expression.
For example, four years ago, she caused Lu Jingxing to miss out on warmth, and she sincerely apologized to him.
Lu Jingxing didn't accept it.
The same goes for her. By now, everyone is dead, so Lu Jingxing can't be blamed, but she can't help but complain.
Sorry means nothing to her anymore.
She would not accept his apology, she could not forgive him, but she could not find the strength to hate him anymore.
Cheng Jingshu just looked at Lu Jingxing without anger and said in a calm tone: "Can you call to make arrangements so that we can get the divorce now?"
"good."
Lu Jingxing had already made a phone call after signing the divorce agreement.
Before going out, he made another phone call. After confirming that the arrangements were made, he hung up the phone.
The two left home one after the other.
Cheng Jingshu is in bad condition and cannot drive.
She got into Lu Jingxing's car.
Sit in the back seat.
It seems like the last time I took Lu Jingxing's car was last century.
Although he is only in his thirties, he has a sense of vicissitudes of life.
She sat by the window, looking at the passing street scene outside the window.
I wish I could go back to before I met Lu Jingxing and advise myself not to force anything.
But, time cannot be turned back.
…
The two of them were silent all the way, and the car drove smoothly to the Civil Affairs Bureau.
Lu Jingxing called in advance and they went to the office alone to handle the divorce procedures for them.
When the two "pah" and "pah" stamps landed on the divorce certificate and handed it to them, Cheng Jingshu suddenly burst into tears.
With tears in her eyes, she reached for a book, held it tightly, and pressed it to her heart.
He lowered his head and cried silently.
Lu Jingxing held another book in his hand, his eyes equally wet.
This scene, during the years that he and Cheng Jingshu had been entangled, they had been looking forward to this day at different times.
When I got it, I was filled with emotions.
The staff member went out after finishing the processing, leaving space for the two of them.
Cheng Jingshu cried silently for a while before calming down.
She raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, stood up slowly, looked at Lu Jingxing and asked, "Can I go see Xiaozhe?"
Because of her own reasons, she hasn't gotten along with Xiaozhe for a long time.
Two loves exhausted her.
Lu Jingxing said nothing and stood up silently.
The two got in the car again and left from the Civil Affairs Bureau to go to the private elementary school where Lu Yuzhe studied.
When they arrived, Lawrence Lu was in class.
Lu Jingxing contacted the school leaders and entered the school.
The two went to the school leader's office.
The school leader contacted the head teacher and she went to Lu Yuzhe's class.
After saying hello to the math teacher, he gently shouted to Lu Yuzhe: "Student Lu Yuzhe, come out for a moment."
Lu Yuzhe left the classroom. He was still a little nervous at first, but his eyes lit up when he heard that his father was coming to see him.
Since birth, his mother has not cared much about him.
His father has always taken care of him and accompanied him.
He is very close to his father.
Knowing that Lu Jingxing was waiting for him in the office, he immediately ran to the office.
With a face full of excitement and breathlessness, he ran to the office door, raised his hand and knocked on the door.
Hearing his father's voice coming from inside, Lawrence Lu opened the door and walked in, "Dad."
He was so happy that when he saw Cheng Jingshu standing behind Lu Jingxing, the smile gradually faded from his face.
He stepped forward and paused.
There was a time when he longed for maternal love, but the memories his mother gave him were all bad.
Every time he wanted to get close, his mother would always be unable to control herself, become hysterical in front of him, and say some strange things.
He doesn't like his mother very much and is a little afraid of her.
Lu Yuzhe instinctively looked at Lu Jingxing, asking for help.
Lu Jingxing stood up and walked to his son, squatted down to be eye level with him, touched his head, and said warmly: "Xiao Zhe, mommy wants to tell you something, go let mommy hug you."
Lu Yuzhe grabbed Lu Jingxing's sleeve and looked into his father's eyes.
Under his encouraging eyes, maintaining his trust in his father, he slowly let go of his hand.
Take steps.
He moved in small steps, and finally moved to a large distance away from Cheng Jingshu, and shouted as loudly as a mosquito, "Mom..."
Cheng Jingshu, who stood up immediately after seeing Lu Yuzhe, faced her son's obvious rejection and fear of her.
She was full of bitterness.
But I can't blame anyone.
Even though she was Xiaozhe's biological mother, she didn't spend enough time with him to keep him close to her.
It's not that she doesn't love her son, it's just that she always puts love above her son.
In the past, she would always get drunk and talk nonsense in front of Xiao Zhe because she was in a bad mood because of Lu Jingxing's wrong treatment of her.
When he loses control of his emotions, he will become hysterical, leaving deep wounds in his young mind.
She is an out-and-out failure as a mother.
Seeing that her son was unwilling to take the initiative to approach her, Cheng Jingshu squatted down and said softly: "Xiao Zhe, can you let mom hug you?"
She did not dare to approach rashly, but chose to use a questioning tone.
Lawrence Lu pursed his lips.
Facing Cheng Jingshu's overtures, he couldn't tell whether he would become hysterical again the next second.
Subconsciously he turned to look at Lu Jingxing, who gave him a sense of security.
Lu Jingxing looked at him with gentle, calm and encouraging eyes, telling him that there was no need to be afraid as long as he was here.
Lu Yuzhe then moved again, closing the distance between him and Cheng Jingshu, and stood within arm's reach of her.
Cheng Jingshu slowly stretched out her arms and hugged Lawrence Lu gently.
Take your son into your arms.
His hands, which had become rough after not taking care of them for a long time, gently stroked his son's hair.
Feeling her son's stiff body, she felt extremely uncomfortable in her heart.
The person she felt most sorry for was Xiaozhe.
Being pregnant with him was a means, and giving birth to him was also to tie up Lu Jingxing.
She puts love first and has never really put her son first.
She has always been abandoned.
She really doesn't deserve to be a mother.
Cheng Jingshu took a deep breath and suppressed the astringency in her eyes, fearing that she would lose control of her emotions and scare her son.
After adjusting her emotions, she slowly let go of Lu Yuzhe.
She looked at her son with gentle eyes and said softly, "Xiao Zhe, mom wants to apologize to you. Mom has not taken good care of you over the years. It's my fault. I'm sorry."
Lawrence Lu pursed his lips.
Looking at Cheng Jingshu standing in front of him.
He felt his mother's apology to him, but he had been alienated for too long.
After a moment of silence, he finally raised his little hand to hold Cheng Jingshu's and whispered: "It's okay, Mom."
He has gotten used to not having his mother.
Dad gave him enough love.
The sound of "Mama" made Cheng Jingshu almost burst into tears.
She choked and responded, "Thank you, son."
Cheng Jingshu hugged him again and was reluctant to let go for a while. She touched his head and said, "Go to class quickly."
"Um."
Lawrence Lu nodded obediently.
He has always been very well-behaved and sensible.
Lu Jingxing taught his son very well.
When passing Lu Jingxing, Lawrence Lu reached out to hold his hand affectionately, "Dad, can you pick me up from school tonight?"
"Okay, daddy will pick you up."
Lu Jingxing touched his son's head and agreed.
Lu Yuzhe smiled happily, left the office happily, and returned to the classroom to continue class.
Cheng Jingshu stood at the door, watching her son disappear from her sight, then turned around and left without looking back.
Lu Jingxing immediately followed up with big strides. Looking at Cheng Jingshu's thin back, he asked, "What are your plans?"
The day after Nangong Jue's death, she suddenly came back to collect the divorce certificate and came to see Xiaozhe again.
Lu Jingxing felt a little uneasy for no reason.
Cheng Jingshu stopped, raised her head, faced the sunshine, and said softly: "Go to Jiangnan, marry Jue, and be his wife."
During Jue's lifetime, she did not let him have his wish.
After Jue died, she wanted to fulfill his wishes.
Became the Duke's wife.
Lu Jingxing subconsciously stretched out his hand to hold Cheng Jingshu.
Hearing what she said made him even more uneasy, worried that she would do something stupid.
"Don't worry, I won't commit suicide."
"I just owe him too much and want to fulfill his last wish. This is also what my heart desires. I really want to marry him and become his wife, even if-"
Cheng Jingshu's eyes were filled with tears again.
I was so choked that I couldn't speak anymore.
"I'll take you to the airport."
Lu Jingxing felt relieved when he saw that she was not committing suicide.
When people hate, they have no reason at all.
I just want to destroy the world.
When one day you suddenly wake up from your hatred, you will be relieved.
Not to forgive, but to let the other person go, and also to let myself go.
Lu Jingxing and Cheng Jingshu both felt like this at this time.
"No, I'll take a taxi myself."
At the school gate, Cheng Jingshu hailed a taxi.
Before getting in the car, he suddenly turned around and looked at Lu Jingxing, who was leaning against his own car, "Lu Jingxing, I have lost my own happiness. I hope you can be happy."
From now on, Xiaozhe will take care of you alone.
She didn't say the last sentence.
Bend over and get into the car.
The car drove away slowly.
Cheng Jingshu held the divorce certificate tightly and said softly: "Jue, I'm here to marry you."