He could lift his hand and put it against Lu Jingxing's chest to prevent him from getting closer.
The position pressed by the palm of the hand is exactly where his heart is.
"Plop——"
"Plop——"
Feeling his irregular heartbeat, it seemed as if it was competing with hers.
In such an atmosphere, Wen Nuan couldn't look directly at Lu Jingxing. His brain became chaotic and he lost his normal thinking. After a while, he uttered, "I'm hungry."
A very normal sentence.
But because last night brought back too many past memories between the two of them, those images that were still lingering in their minds, I regretted the instant warmth that came out of my mouth.
As expected.
Lu Jingxing's hoarse voice sounded in his ears, "Are you hungry?"
I have heard him say these two words in such a voice too many times.
Every time I am hungry, I am hungry.
Since the first time, he sat at the dining table with her who was really hungry, letting her eat hers, while he slowly "ate" his.
He was "eating" her slowly, and she was so hungry that she couldn't take care of her anymore.
After finishing the meal, she was the most tired.
So much so that she didn't dare mention being hungry in front of him.
He was just afraid that Lu Jingxing thought he was hinting at him.
"Lu Jingxing!"
Nuan Nuan is really annoyed.
Lu Jingxing just teased her verbally, trying to find the feeling he had before.
Everything that happened last night made him panic.
He was very uneasy.
Holding the scale firmly and not daring to push the envelope further, Lu Jingxing stepped back.
Start the car and drive away from the community.
Half an hour later, the car stopped at a restaurant with the best night view in Jiangcheng.
The two walked in side by side and were led to a seat by the window by the waiter.
There are thousands of lights outside the large glass, and coupled with the comfortable lighting of the restaurant, the overall atmosphere is very good.
Lu Jingxing helped Wen Nuan pull out the seat. After she sat down, he walked to the opposite side and sat down, signaling to the waiter to serve her meal.
Soon, red wine that had been sobered in advance was placed on the table, which Wen Nuan liked.
Two steaks were also delivered quickly.
Nuan Nuan didn't look at Lu Jingxing the whole time. Before the meal was served, he looked at the night view outside. After the meal was served, he lowered his head and ate the steak.
This was the most silent meal the two had since becoming neighbors.
Lu Jingxing's eyes fell on Nuan Nuan, and when he saw that she was "concentrating" on eating dinner, she raised her head and drank the wine that the waiter had just poured in one gulp.
He reached for the wine bottle and poured half a glass for himself. When he was about to drink it all, he pressed the mouth of his glass with one hand and said, "Don't drink too much."
The movement was a little hurried, the liquid in the glass swayed obviously, and the red wine splashed onto the warm hand.
Lu Jingxing put down his wine glass and grabbed her wrist when Nuan Nuan closed his hand. He said in a gentle voice, "Nuan Nuan, don't move."
As he spoke, he picked up the napkin and wiped it carefully for her.
The movement was obviously normal, but the warmth gave it a feeling of electric shock.
As soon as he finished wiping, she quickly wanted to take it back.
But, it didn't twitch.
He raised his eyes, met Lu Jingxing's gaze, and listened to his gentle whisper, "Are you willing to give me your eyes?"
Wen Nuan was speechless.
In fact, it wasn't that she didn't want to look at him, it was just that after the gunfire last night, she hadn't figured out how to face him yet.
All the peace was broken because of last night.
"Lu Jingxing..."
Lu Jingxing gently held her hand, "Nuan Nuan, you won't leave me again, right?"
Nuannuan acquiesces to him living next door to her and getting along with her as a friend, allowing him to be by her side. He can see her every day, which he really cherishes.
For more than half a year, he has been guarding the boundaries of friendship, not daring to cross the line or push her even further.
Because he is really afraid of losing, and he really can't lose her again.
In the past few years, when he missed her, he could only see her from the reports. He couldn't even appear in front of her openly, and he didn't dare.
She was afraid that his presence would affect her, and that the Gu family would embarrass her because of him.
He could only minimize his sense of existence and make himself completely invisible in her world.
Now that we can be together again, we are even more afraid of losing them.
"Lu Jingxing, isn't it good for us to be like this?"
Warm voice slightly hoarse.
She knew that a relationship where she felt comfortable and had no psychological burden was unfair to Lu Jingxing.
If he didn't mention it, she would pretend not to know.
But, she was really not sure what would happen if she was with Lu Jingxing again?
She once belonged to Yanzhi, which was a thorn in her heart. Because she loved Lu Jingxing deeply, she didn't mind.
Mind that you once belonged to someone else.
When she first chose to marry Yanzhi, she had already decided not to have anything to do with Lu Jingxing in this life, and she had given up the idea of renewing her relationship with him.
Lu Jingxing looked at Nuan Nuan, let go of her hand, and said softly, "Okay."
What exactly is he forcing?
He was so aggressive, just to force Nuan Nuan to have an attitude.
Let him be sure that Gu Yanzhi has no place in her heart.
But, how could it be possible that after three years of companionship and more than four years of marriage, there would be no trace at all.
What on earth is he calculating about?
He was the one who gave up on Nuannuan.
He was the one who made Nuan Nuan choose to marry Gu Yanzhi because of her entanglement at the inappropriate time.
Because of him, I have a warm feeling in my heart.
After all, he was the initiator.
Nuannuan still loves him, even if he is not as satisfied as he was when he was twenty, he should be content.
What qualifications does he have to care?
"The steak is cold, so I asked them to make two more."
Lu Jingxing signaled the waiter to come over and quickly served two more steaks.
After that, Lu Jingxing returned to his previous appearance.
Get along with her in the warmest and most comfortable way.
Although I knew Lu Jingxing's warmth, I knew that he was just faking it.
He is sad.
But she didn't know what to say to make him not sad.
…
In a blink of an eye, another two months have passed.
As the night progressed, Nancy was sitting on the second floor where she met by chance, her hands on the keyboard but she couldn't type a word, she had no clue.
He reached for the cooled coffee on the side and took a sip to refresh himself.
After a while, his hands began to tap.
After a few minutes, it suddenly stopped.
Looking at the screen, except for the first paragraph which is normal text, the rest is Gu Yanzhi.
Looking at Gu Yanzhi filling the screen, Nancy was stunned.
After reacting, I forgot to select them all and just pressed the delete key desperately.
Seeing that Gu Yanzhi's name became fewer and fewer, and finally all were deleted, Nancy stopped pressing her hand.
However, even if she deleted all Gu Yanzhi on the screen, she could not delete the three words in her heart with one click.
If he hadn't contacted her for two months, Nancy wouldn't have known that she was in deep trouble.
From the beginning, it was Gu Yanzhi who took the initiative.
She is more like a listener, the one waiting.
From the chat software, it can take a few months to only contact once a year.
Then he entered reality and he appeared in her cafe.
She still plays the role of listener.
With more contact, she became his confidant.
After his divorce, the two became vaguely ambiguous.
Finally, the accident a month ago.
She thought that the peaceful relationship at Gu's house the next day would be the end of the story.
But unexpectedly, he never appeared again after that day.
This is the first time since his divorce that he has not contacted her for such a long time.
The two meet almost every week, often two or three times a week.
Cool suddenly.
How could someone as smart as Nancy not know that Gu Yanzhi was alienating her?
Habits are a terrible thing.
Having fallen, it is impossible for her to return to the beginning with Gu Yanzhi.
During the two months when Gu Yanzhi didn't find her, Nancy kept her schedule so full that she had no time to think about it.
However, as soon as it was empty, the army was already defeated.
In the past few years, she has been guarding her heart carefully.
I don’t want to have too much contact with people, and I don’t want to open my heart to anyone anymore.
If your heart doesn't move, there will be no pain.
But she never thought that no matter how careful she was, she would still get lost.
She once again tasted the feeling of wanting to see someone.
Longing gnaws at the bones.
The more depressed you are, the more you think about it.
The so-called calmness and rationality are just because we are outsiders.
Only bystanders can be clear.
Loving someone is too painful.
Once she was bitten by a snake, she was a little afraid to love someone.
When you have love, even if you deceive yourself and others, the sweetness is greater than the pain, but withdrawal is really painful.
"Pah——"
Nancy closed her notebook hard.
As soon as she arrived, the second floor became her private space.
There were a few guests downstairs, chatting.
She didn't want to appear in front of others in such a rude manner, so she turned around with staggering steps and went to the lounge.
He opened the drawer and took out a box of cigarettes, which Gu Yanzhi had left behind.
She sat on the chair with her legs bent, took out a cigarette, lit it, and took a long drag.
It had been so long since I had smoked that Nancy choked on the first sip. She took some time to get used to it.
One mouthful after another, puffing away the clouds.
Soon, she was surrounded by smoke and her vision became blurred.
Through the smoke, she seemed to see the most painful days when she first returned to Jiangcheng.
She never leaves her hand to smoke or drink from her mouth.
I get drunk every night, relying on the numbness of tobacco and alcohol to stop thinking about that man and fall asleep.
But at this time, he smoked one cigarette after another. Instead of eliminating Gu Yanzhi's figure from his mind, he became more and more awake.
I want to see him, I want to see him crazily, I can't suppress it.
Nancy casually put out the half-smoked cigarette and quickly sat up from the chair.
After curling up for too long, she suddenly stood up and couldn't stand firmly. Her knee hit the table leg, causing her to stagger in pain.
She didn't care about the pain, nor did she care that she was too rude at the moment. Unlike herself, she just wanted to see Gu Yanzhi, and even if she did, she wouldn't know what to say.
Nancy reached out and grabbed the car keys on the table and rushed out the door.
He leaned into the car, started the car, stepped on the accelerator, turned the steering wheel, and drove into the traffic, heading towards the community where Gu Yanzhi always lived after his divorce.
…
Half an hour later, Nancy arrived outside his community.
She had been to Gu Yanzhi's place several times, and the car automatically recognized it and entered the community and parked under the building where he lived.
He opened the car door and rushed inside in the rain.
Enter the elevator, press the floor, and finally stop outside Gu Yanzhi's door, raise your hand and ring the doorbell.
She left the coffee shop and then came to Gu Yanzhi's home. Along the way, her brain almost lost normal thinking. There was only one thought in her mind, which was to see him.
He pressed the doorbell almost mechanically, waiting for Gu Yanzhi to open the door.
Not once did anyone answer.
I pressed it a second time and still no one answered.
She pressed it a third time.
When she was about to press the button for the fourth time, a gust of cold wind blew by. Nancy suddenly shivered and woke up instantly.
The hand that was placed on the doorbell and was about to continue pressing it quickly retracted it as if it was electrocuted.
She looked at the unfamiliar door in front of her. When she first came here, she had praised Gu Yanzhi's good taste.
But at this moment, the door seemed to suddenly open a huge mouth, trying to swallow her. Nancy took several steps back, eyes full of disbelief.
She couldn't accept that she could still behave in such crazy and irrational ways just because she wanted to see the man she loved.
This kind of self is completely unlike her.
Nancy suddenly turned around and strode away as if running away.
He rushed all the way back to the car, opened the door and got in, and drove away from Gu Yanzhi's home as quickly as possible.
Half an hour later, Nancy returned home and rushed into the bathroom.
…
Gu family
Gu Yanzhi turned off the computer and stood up, picked up his coat, put it on, and strode out.
All the employees outside had gone off work, leaving only him who returned to the company after get off work and continued to work overtime until eleven o'clock when he had nowhere to go.
This has been the case for two months in a row.
Take the exclusive elevator all the way to the second floor.
Got in the car and drove away from the company.
It was past ten o'clock, and there were very few pedestrians and vehicles on the road.
While waiting for the green light at the intersection ahead, he raised his hand and squeezed his eyebrows tiredly.
That day at home, his father told him to cherish the people in front of him.
After that, he became even busier.
Either on a business trip or working overtime at the company, my time is filled up.
But every time I leave the company, I feel exhausted both physically and mentally.
There was still more than thirty seconds left before the green light ahead, and Gu Yanzhi stared blankly.
"Crack-"
Big raindrops suddenly hit the windshield. Soon, the green light became blurry, and he reached out to turn on the wiper.
As the countdown continued, I watched the wipers sweep in front of my eyes.
My vision became clear again, and the green light sounded at the same time.
He released the brakes and drove the car into traffic again.
The new residence is less than three kilometers away from the company, and there is another traffic light ahead.
There was another red light ahead, and several cars were blocking his way.
Gu Yanzhi looked at the wiper and was stunned again.
In the blur, before the wiper wiped down, through the mist, he seemed to see a familiar figure flashing before his eyes.
Suddenly, the trumpet sounded.
The light turned green ahead, he released the accelerator again, and the car drove forward.
It seems like he hasn't seen Xixi for two months.
During this period of time, it gradually became clear in my mind what I was neglecting through work.
Without waiting for instructions from the brain, his hands turned ahead automatically, and instead of going home, he went to Nancy's residence.
He has always been greedy for the warmth she gave him.
I don't want to go home and face a cold room.
I yearn to open the door every time I go to Nancy's house.
The soft light filling the room warms the heart.
In the past, if he didn't say hello in advance, he would just walk around and send her a WeChat message before going upstairs.
Today, Gu Yanzhi held his cell phone.
Two months later, he opened the chat software again and saw a bunch of messages, except Nancy.
Ignoring other people's messages, he looked at Nancy at the top and reached out to open the dialog box between them.
The last message was a voice message he sent two months ago after he drank too much.
Open it, I actually have a lot to say.
But in the end, I only typed out three words: [Are you asleep?]
I don’t know whether she didn’t see it or something else, but Nancy didn’t reply.
Gu Yanzhi typed out another sentence: [I'm downstairs at your house and want to see you.]