Before sending, Gu Yanzhi deleted the words "I want to see you" and then clicked send.
When he was very tired, he wanted to see Nancy.
Even if he doesn't say anything, just being in the same room and sitting quietly together can relieve his fatigue.
I sat in the car and waited for a long time, but the screen didn't light up.
She didn't reply.
Gu Yanzhi casually threw the phone into the storage box aside and restarted the car.
The car slowly drove away from Nancy's community and slowly merged into the night.
Upstairs, Nancy stood in the bathroom, looking at herself in the mirror.
The rain soaked her hair and clung to her face awkwardly.
The eyes are red and swollen, the fundus of the eyes are covered with red bloodshot eyes, and there are still wet marks on the face.
His eyes fell quietly on the person in the mirror.
Cold to the bone.
Is this her?
He looked away with almost evasion, quickly took off his clothes, walked under the shower head, and poured hot water on his head.
Half an hour later, Nancy came out of the bathroom.
Wearing comfortable pajamas, with eye masks on her eyes, she stood in front of the mirror and blew her wet hair.
After the hair is blow-dried, it is draped smoothly over the shoulders.
His face was calm, as if the loss of control not long ago had never existed.
…
The next morning, I had a dreamless night.
When Nancy woke up, she felt refreshed.
I stood up and opened the curtains to let the sunshine in, and stretched my body in the sunshine.
I changed into home clothes and made myself a cup of coffee and a nutritious breakfast.
After breakfast, I went into the study with coffee.
When turning on the phone, while drinking coffee, you reach out and touch the phone on the side, and it will show that it is turned off.
Charge it and turn it on.
The first thing that popped up was the editor’s reminder of the deadly series of incoming calls and many WeChat messages.
I clicked on WeChat and replied: [The manuscript will be due in one hour.]
She didn't read what the editor replied later.
Exited and was about to turn off the phone when I saw two new messages from Gu Yanzhi pinned to the top.
I paused for a few seconds before clicking it.
His eyes fell on the two messages Gu Yanzhi sent last night. After a while, he exited the dialog box, turned off his phone and put it aside without replying.
The computer was started. She put aside her half-drunk coffee, clicked on the music, and opened the document.
His hands fell on the keyboard, and his fingers tapped nimbly.
Let your heart slowly sink into it through rational words.
It's not that you can't love, it's that you can't love someone without a bottom line.
Little by little, Nancy found herself back, and her gaze on the words became more and more calm.
An hour later, Nancy handed in the manuscript on time.
Close the laptop and drink the remaining half cup of coffee.
Get up and leave the study, change clothes and go out.
I went to the coffee shop first, exchanged a few words, and then drove away.
…
In the small town, it was almost noon, Nuan Nuan and Lu Jingxing were making dumplings.
After coming to the small town, Lu Jingxing's cooking skills have improved by leaps and bounds.
Adjusting dumpling fillings is now a piece of cake for him.
So, a bit of a bloat.
I also took over the task of rolling out the dumpling wrappers and let Wen Nuan take care of the wrapping.
Wen Nuan smiled and said nothing, motioning for him to come.
Lu Jingxing confidently picked up the rolling pin.
Usually, they also make dumplings several times.
The job of rolling out dumpling wrappers has always been done by Wen Nuan. Every time he is there, I feel that it is quite simple. How can it be so difficult to get him?
But, the first one overturned.
Lu Jingxing said: "This is an accident. The first one was a slut and didn't master the skills. The next one will definitely be good."
Next, continue to roll over.
I turned over a dozen of them in a row.
Nuan Nuan looked at the dozen or so different polygons on the table, and if he continued, he would be unable to make the dumplings.
He reached out and took the rolling pin from his hand and complained: "How old are you? When it's time to admit that you can't do it, you have to admit that you can't do it!"
"I can't?"
Lu Jingxing's voice suddenly became dangerous.
No man will admit that he is not good enough!
Nuan Nuan just said it casually. Looking at the face that suddenly enlarged in front of him, and meeting his deep gaze, he felt a sudden warmth behind his ears.
"Lu Jingxing!"
Slightly annoyed, she stretched out her hand to push his handsome face in front of her, and her hands were stained with flour, which made it all over his face.
Wen Nuan couldn't help but frown.
Lu Jingxing had quick eyes and quick hands. The moment she laughed at him, his big hand touched her face.
warmth:"……"
"Lu Jingxing, how old are you, why are you still so childish?!"
This commotion eliminated the ambiguity just now and made it a little more warm.
"This is called reciprocity!"
Lu Jingxing did not wipe the flour on his face, and looked at the flour on Nuan Nuan's face with satisfaction.
Nuan Nuan doesn't want to talk to him.
I nudged him with my elbow and pushed him aside. Just as I was about to roll out the dumpling wrappers, there was a knock on the courtyard door, "Knock, knock."
Wen Nuan raised his eyes.
The door was open, and she saw Nancy standing outside the door at a glance. She couldn't believe it, "Nancy?"
Nancy stood at the door with a smile on her face, looked at the two people standing side by side, and joked: "I'm not welcome?"
Wen Nuan was sure it was really Nancy, with a look of joy on her face, "How could it be! Come in quickly!"
Her hands were full of flour and she didn't have anything to wipe them with. She wiped Lu Jingxing's body casually and strode out to greet him.
Nancy had already seen the interaction between the two at the gate of the courtyard.
With a smile on his face, he raised his hand to hold Nuan's extended hand and followed her inside.
Lu Jingxing looked embarrassed, but he didn't pay attention. He looked up calmly and proactively greeted her, "Hello."
"Hello."
Nancy responded politely with a smile.
This was the first time I saw Lu Jingxing in person.
When she saw him for the first time, Nancy understood why he had been thinking about Wen Nuan for so many years.
"Nuan Nuan, you greet Miss Nan, I'll buy some vegetables and come back."
They originally planned to eat dumplings at noon, but there were guests, so the dumplings might have neglected Nancy.
Nancy gave Nuan Nuan a look, and Nuan Nuan immediately received it and stopped Lu Jingxing, "No, we can just have dumplings for lunch."
"Pack it together."
"good."
Wen Nuan was not polite to Nancy either.
Nancy put down her bag, washed her hands and came over.
The two of them cooperated tacitly, rolling out the dumpling wrappers warmly, and Nancy making the dumplings with very clean and neat movements.
Lu Jingxing wisely left the scene temporarily and went back next door to change into clean clothes.
When he came back, there were dozens of dumplings on the table.
Hearing the noise, Nuan Nuan raised her head and met her eyes. Without her opening a word, Lu Jingxing had already taken the initiative to walk to the kitchen, "I'll boil the water."
"Um."
Nuan Nuan responded.
Nancy looked at the two people who had a tacit understanding, and the smile in her eyes deepened.
Nuan Nuan noticed Nancy's gaze and felt a slight warmth behind her ears.
We ate dumplings together while Lu Jingxing cleaned up the kitchen.
Nuan Nuan took Nancy to visit, from the yard to the glass balcony at the back.
In the afternoon, the sun shines in through the glass.
"It's so nice here."
Nancy couldn't help but sigh.
It's really a great place to live.
"Sit over here."
Nuan Nuan led Nancy to the side and sat down, reaching out to clear the books on the table.
Nancy took a look. They were two completely different books with different progress. It was obvious that two people were reading them.
The other person is obviously Lu Jingxing.
Just after visiting, she found traces of Lu Jingxing everywhere in the warm residence.
It seems that during these days of being neighbors, Lu Jingxing once again infiltrated into the warm life.
Thinking of Lu Jingxing, he happened to appear.
"I have prepared some fruit and tea for you. You can chat while I go back first."
Nuan Nuan nodded, Nancy thanked her, and Lu Jingxing turned and left.
"Nancy, I'm so happy you came over."
Wen Nuan poured Nancy a cup of tea and handed it over.
Her eyebrows were crooked, and the joy brought to her by Nancy's appearance has not dissipated yet.
"I suddenly wanted to see you, so I drove here."
Nancy chuckled.
"This tea smells so good, what kind of tea is it?"
Nancy has drunk a lot of tea. This tea doesn't look like a famous tea, but it has a unique taste.
"This is the tea Lu Jingxing made by himself when Lu Jingxing and I had nothing to do in the spring and went to the tea mountain behind to pick it ourselves."
When it came to making tea, Nuan Nuan burst out laughing, "When it comes to this, I can't help but want to complain about Lu Jingxing."
"When we were picking tea, he vowed that he could do it. I believed him. He failed countless times and wasted a lot of tea. Finally, at the end of spring tea, he was able to do something good."
Nuan Nuan found it funny when he thought of Lu Jingxing rolling up his sleeves and rubbing tea leaves at home.
Of course, those who failed were not thrown away.
She gave them all to Lu Jingxing.
He has always only drank good tea, but this was the first time he drank the defective tea for half a year, and it also had a unique flavor.
Nancy looked at the tenderness on Nuan Nuan's face when she mentioned Lu Jingxing, and suddenly asked: "Nuan Nuan, are you and Lu Jingxing back together?"
Wen Nuan was obviously stunned and said subconsciously: "Why do you ask so suddenly?"
"He and I... are just friends."
It's just that when I said the four words "friend", my voice was obviously much softer, and I felt a little lack of confidence.
Nancy looked warm.
She just mentioned that Lu Jingxing was obviously immersed in love, but after hearing Nuan Nuan's words, "You haven't accepted him yet?"
Between Lu Jingxing and Nuan Nuan, the one who holds the initiative is Nuan Nuan.
"I think this is good."
Warm whisper.
"Nuan Nuan, have you ever realized that you care too much?
I remember when you first came to my cafe, you told me that you wanted to live for yourself.
Are you really living for yourself now?"
Bystanders know better.
When she first came over, she stood outside the door and looked at the two people inside the house making dumplings together.
Their interactions are anything but simple friends.
If Nuannuan really only wanted to be friends, she would not have given Lu Jingxing any chance to have an affair with her.
She loves him.
There is only a thin veil between them now.
As long as she opens her heart and is willing to accept him, they can cross the boundary of friends.
Wen Nuan reached out and picked up the already cold tea on the table and took a sip.
Why don't you know, but you just can't resist Lu Jingxing's approach now.
After the gunfire, the two broke up and returned to the town. He did not force her too hard and asked her to give him some attitude.
The relationship between them is no longer like it was at the beginning, when they only pursued physical entanglement.
What he focuses on now is companionship, being good to her, and infiltrating her life bit by bit in a way she can accept.
The two of them seemed to be back when she was twenty, but it was not like that time when they were only physically entangled.
He now thinks about her everywhere, is considerate and caring to her, and puts her feelings first in everything.
This is what she has been waiting for since she fell in love with Lu Jingxing.
The two seemed to have switched places.
She no longer loves him wholeheartedly and treats him well without any regrets, without asking for anything in return.
Now he treats her like this, no matter what her attitude is, he loves her firmly and stays with her.
"Nuan Nuan, you should know very well in your heart that you and Lu Jingxing can't really just be friends. Not to mention that he loves you so much and has been waiting for you for many years. What he wants most is to be with you again."
"Speaking of you alone, in your heart, can you really treat Lu Jingxing as just an ordinary friend?"
Every word Nancy said touched the deepest part of my warm heart.
She tried to cover it up with friends.
But her feelings for Lu Jingxing never changed from beginning to end.
It was her who took too much into consideration.
She said she wanted to live for herself, but it was so difficult to actually do it.
She still lives for others and always considers other people's feelings.
Thinking too much.
She knew it, but she couldn't really ignore it.
To Nancy, Wen Nuan did not hide her inner thoughts. She whispered: "Nancy, I understand the truth, but I really can't help but take it into consideration."
"Regarding Yanzhi, it was my choice that ruined his life. Even if he was willing to do so, in the end it was me who dragged him into a painful marriage. I owe him."
If Yanzhi had not divorced her, she felt that she could spend her whole life making up for it.
But in the end, Yanzhi fulfilled her wish and gave her the chance to choose again.
How could she pretend that this deep affection didn't exist?
"And Lao Lu, I can't help but take care of it. I love him, and the more I love him, the more I mind that I am no longer the Nuan Nuan who completely belonged to him."
"I no longer dare to choose. I am too scared of the unknown. I am afraid that taking that step will be the wrong one. In the end, he and I will not even be able to maintain the relationship we have now."
"I'm afraid of losing him again."
She has always known that the path in life is her own choice, and she must bear the consequences herself.
Over the years, she has been responsible for her own choices.
Now, she is really scared.
It's almost like escaping, trying to keep the status quo, and it won't be wrong if you don't move forward.
Nancy watched Nuan Nuan cut herself open in front of her, and reached out to hold her hand, "Nuan Nuan, you have to know that you have divorced Gu Yanzhi, and he has nothing to do with you anymore."
"You are both adults. Your marriage to him started voluntarily. It was your mutual choice. You do not need to be responsible for his pain, and you do not owe him anything."
"This is his own choice, and he should bear all the consequences, whether good or bad."
"You can't put all the fault of the divorce and the damage caused in the marriage on yourself, thinking that you ruined his life. How do you know that if you didn't choose to marry him, he would be better than he is now?"
"You always have the idea that you owe Gu Yanzhi. Is it really because of him that you don't want to be with Lu Jingxing? Do you think that he won't be sad if you do this?"
"But have you ever thought that the way you care about this and that is not really for his good, but may have the opposite effect?"
"He will always hold on to hope and cannot really come out and live his own new life."
"And Lu Jingxing, are you sure he really cares about the four years of marriage between you and Gu Yanzhi?"
"If he minds, and he cares, he won't keep waiting for you instead of starting a new relationship knowing that you don't plan to divorce."
"Even after you and Gu Yanzhi divorced, you said you wanted to be friends. As a man who loves you deeply, he was willing to be your friend, stay with you, protect you, and treat you well."
"Obviously, he doesn't mind at all the secular views on women's chastity."
"In his eyes, being with you is what his heart desires, and everything else is unimportant in his eyes."
"If you care, then isn't Lu Jingxing the same as you? Do you think he doesn't deserve to love you or be with you?"
Nancy's words were like a heavy hammer, knocking open the fog that had always shrouded her.
Let the warmth suddenly give you a feeling of enlightenment.
It is true that the authorities are obsessed with it.