"Do you remember what I told you earlier about what happened when I was an adult?"
Shen Yan nodded naturally. She also knew how long that memory had brought pain to Fang Yin. Even now, she still can't help but fall into it every time she thinks about it.
Fang Yin sneered, and he also recalled those things in the past.
"Actually, it was easy to tell you at the time, but I can no longer remember many details.
Even now when I think back on that period, I don’t know how I survived.”
"Are the things you are going to tell me today related to that period of time?"
Seeing Fang Yin and Chenyan like this was very distressing.
But the pain caused by her original family cannot be relieved by her in just one or two words.
Sometimes it even takes a lifetime to resolve the pain.
"Yes...the bad things those people did made me fall into negative emotions.
After I just celebrated my adult birthday, I found that sometimes it was difficult for me to control my emotions, especially when I thought about what people like Liang Jing did to my mother.
All I can think about is repaying the debt with blood.
Later, Song Nan and Wang Qing accompanied me to see a psychiatrist. I also knew that my state was wrong, but the crux of the matter was that Liang Jing's family was not mine.
Even if I want to solve it myself, there is no way."
Speaking of that period, apart from being busy at the company, I occasionally went to a psychiatrist.
If he wasn't just venting his emotions and excess energy in the boxing gym, Fang Yin would feel that his life was very miserable and he could hardly see the future.
Compared with the current happy and peaceful life, it is like heaven and earth.
It's not so much that Shen Yan loves him, so she doesn't want to let him go.
Now, compared to her love, Fang Yin seems to have grasped her only happiness.
If it weren't for Shen Yan, he didn't know when he would be able to live such a life.
It was Shen Yan's love that gave him a new experience and made him feel the warmth of home for the first time after his mother's death.
In fact, lovers don't need to apologize, but Fang Yin can't help but say thank you to Shen Yan.
He thanked Shen Yan from the bottom of his heart for his love and companionship.
"Is that all you have to tell me today?"
Shen Yan was a little confused. If that was all, what couldn't she accept?
Fang Yin didn't know how to describe it.
"It's not as simple as you think. The psychiatrist said at the time that I might have a certain degree of bipolar disorder.
This is a disease, aren't you afraid?"
"Recently because of Ogura's incident, you feel like you've relapsed a bit, don't you?
That’s why you’re worried about telling me what happened in the past, but you’re also afraid that I won’t be able to accept it and will leave you because of my previous psychological problems?”
Although it was a question, Shen Yan's tone was very affirmative. She knew that the only person Fang Yin really cared about was herself.
Combined with his recent insomnia and his behavior of holding herself in his arms from time to time and refusing to let go, Shen Yan knew what was going on in his mind.
Just thinking about Fang Yin's uneasiness made Shen Yan have the urge to sigh.
Should we say that Fang Yin loves her too much? That's why he is afraid of her leaving.
Shen Yan could already remember that he had serious and serious discussions with Fang Yinzi on related issues more than once, but each time it was of little use.
Fang Yin was always uneasy, and Shen Yan gradually realized that his uneasiness could only be relieved by long-term companionship.
It's not something she can soothe with her verbal words.
But those were all without affecting their daily lives, but now Fang Yin's inner uneasiness has even caused a recurrence of the mental illness he had suffered many years ago.
And recently, Fang Yin doesn't know what time he can fall asleep at night, which will inevitably affect his normal life.
"It doesn't matter. Wouldn't it be better to see a psychiatrist before?
Even if it does relapse, I will accompany you to see the doctor, so what is there to worry about?"
Shen Yan looked directly into Fang Yin's eyes.
"Are you really not afraid of me? I'm afraid I really couldn't control my emotions at that time."
A faint smile appeared on Shen Yan's face.
"I was never afraid of your cold face before, now am I still afraid of your attitude when you are sick?
Fang Yin, you just worry too much.
The main task before us now is the birth of the baby and the best way to find out the whereabouts of Xiaogang.
Everything else doesn't matter.
What's more, you were sick and it was not your intention, so how could I be afraid of you?
Would you like to give me a little more trust?
Also believe in yourself a little more.
After all, you are the president of the Fang Group, if I let you go, I don’t know how many people will flock to you!"
After listening to her words, Fang Yin finally felt a little more relaxed.
He held the person in his arms and rubbed the top of Shen Yan's hair, "Don't worry, I'm looking for Xiaocang, and I should have clues soon.
What's more, as you said, he hasn't found us for so long, maybe he doesn't remember us at all."
Shen Yan nodded and held Fang Yin's hand.
"The two of us will keep holding hands.
Don't worry, I won't let go of your hand."
"Before you let go of my hand," Shen Yan didn't say this, but it was her heartfelt voice.
It's always good for two people to be in love at this moment, but she had been ready for it a long time ago.
If one day Fang Yin no longer loves her, she will take her child and leave Fang Yin.
Give their relationship a decent ending.
Shen Yan didn't know why he always had a pessimistic attitude.
It was obvious that her parents had shown a good relationship and love for each other in front of her since she was a child, and now there was no doubt about Fang Yin's love for her.
Is it because the gap between the two of them is too big?
Shen Yan is also confident that she will be able to find a job after the child is born and then become independent on her own.
Now that I can make money, I no longer feel that there is any difference between me and Fang Yin.
What's more, the two of them also discussed money very seriously.
After that conversation, Shen Yan became very open about using Fang Yin's awakening.
After all, Fang Yin said at the time that the two of them were a family.
How do families distinguish themselves from each other?
When Shen Yan makes money in the future, will he spend it on his family?
When Shen Yan thought about it, this was true. No matter how much or how little he earned, he would always spend it on Fang Yin and the baby.
Although Fang Yin is particularly good at making money, in the end he is still spending money on their home.
After thinking about it this way, Shen Yan stopped trying to get into trouble, after all, he was still taking care of himself.
Your baby cannot be short of nutrients.
The conversation with Shen Yan did make Fang Yin feel a little more at ease. He found that Shen Yan didn't care about it at all, and even actively asked him to contact the doctor in the past.
“If it hasn’t completely relapsed yet, it would be better to contact her as soon as possible and intervene directly.
Otherwise, you won't be able to control your emotions by then, and you will regret whatever you say when you look back."
No one understands Fang Yin better than Shen Yan. He is just afraid that he will do something to hurt Shen Yan and regret it later.
The first meeting between the two of them was enough for him to regret, and he didn't want to have anything he regretted for the rest of his life.
He did as he was told, and the next day Fang Yin contacted the doctor he had always trusted - Yu Bai.
Yu Bai is an older woman.
Fang Yin could feel relaxed when getting along with her.
It was also because he had been treated by her before, so Fang Yin could always be more relaxed and trusting when facing him.
Yu Bai didn't expect Fang Yin to come to his clinic suddenly and was a little surprised.
After pouring him a glass of water, I asked him, "Have you felt anything wrong lately?
It’s been a long time since I saw you coming to my place.”
Fang Yin nodded.
"Some things happened at home recently, and I feel like my emotions are a little out of control.
I always think about some particularly bloody and violent things, and my symptoms are somewhat similar to those back then, so I thought of coming to you to have a look."
Yu Bai nodded to show that she understood. To be honest, she was just surprised.
When Fang Yin first found him, his two good friends pulled him there.
At that time, he was very repulsive towards himself and did not trust himself.
He also doesn't trust all strangers. His vigilance in unfamiliar environments is much higher than that of ordinary people, and his whole body is affected by this and is always ready to attack.
But this time it seems that although he said he had some negative emotions, his condition was much better than that time.
The whole figure is as gentle as polished jade.
Although this word is very inappropriate for the president of the Fang Group, this is how Yu Bai feels.
This was her intuition as a psychiatrist. Fang Yin must have been living very comfortably during this period, at least in an environment where he could completely relax.
"Don't rush into the diagnosis now. We haven't seen each other for so many years. Why don't we talk about each other's current situation?
This is also Yu Bai's usual path. He first communicates with the patient who comes to see him first.
It's best to make the other person relax so that you can lower your guard against her.
"I've been doing well lately.
It can be said that this is the most comfortable year I have lived in recent years. I seem to have found true happiness.
I have a family again."
Yu Bai didn't expect to hear such a definite answer from him.
At least when he first came of age, when he came here, he was reluctant to say a word at first.
Later, she communicated with his two friends, and his friends were there to persuade him.
If he is unwilling to speak like this, there is no point in coming here. Is he trying to control his emotions?
It was for the sake of his friend that Yin spoke up, but at that time he was full of negative emotions and even had a tendency to seek revenge.
Not only do I not trust strangers in this world, let alone have no expectations for happiness or family at all.
At that time, Yu Bai asked Fang Yin, "If one day you meet someone who makes your heart beat, will you still hold on to this idea?
Don’t you want to start a family with him or live with him?”
At that time, Fang Yin nodded quickly.
He didn't know that he would meet Shen Yan in a few years, nor did he know that he would actually bring him a family, nor did he know that they would have two babies.
"What's there to look forward to? If I meet the person I love, I won't marry her.