Looking at Yang Zhen, who was looking at the ceiling of the room, looking very silent, Li Huilan, who had woken up from her passion, sat up, and after a simple cleaning, she said softly: "You don't have to worry about anything, and you don't have to worry about anything.
I'm responsible, and there's no need to feel sorry for me."
"We are all adults, and it's okay to indulge once in a while. I abandoned you back then, and now it's me who repays what I owed you. Now, the status gap between you and me is too huge. Are you a dignified Northeastern couple?
The commander-in-chief of an army of 100,000, and I am just a small confidential officer at the headquarters."
"I also know that I am not good enough for you now, and I will never stalk you. As for other aspects, I will find a way, you don't have to worry. That girl Yuan Zhiruo has a pretty good personality and appearance.
She is also much prettier than me, and I think she will be your good wife in the future."
Li Huilan said these words very generously, but in fact, I'm afraid only she knows what she actually thinks. In fact, after saying these words, Li Huilan felt a stab of pain in her heart. At first, she and Yuan Zhiruo secretly
The fight had shown that she was not willing to give up her relationship with Yang Zhen completely.
It's just that the Yang Zhen now is completely different from the Yang Zhen she remembers when they fell in love in later generations. Although the big boy back then had a rough life, he loved to talk, laugh and have a cheerful personality. He was replaced by a famous one.
War general, commander of an army of hundreds of thousands. His city is so deep that even I, who know him well, can hardly see through it.
Now the distance between me and him is getting bigger and bigger, so let’s ignore it for now. But in later generations, there will still be an emotional experience between the two that is difficult for both of them to forget. At that time, I was deeply hurt.
This man who vowed to love her for the rest of his life.
Although there was a reason for the incident at the beginning, Li Huilan, who had been to Yang Zhen's army several times in later generations and knew that Yang Zhen had not been looking for a girlfriend since he broke up with her, knew that she had hurt him deeply at that time. Although Yang Zhen never mentions it now
At that time, Li Huilan knew how deeply Yang Zhen was hurt by that incident. Not mentioning it does not mean that she has truly forgotten it.
Today, Yang Zhen's silent expression after the incident made Li Huilan, who originally thought that they could renew their relationship, feel cold in her heart. When she said these words, Li Huilan really felt her heart ached. Li Huilan even thought that Yang Zhen would
His actions were an act of revenge for the harm he had done to him in the past.
What Li Huilan, who was a little frustrated with not getting a response for a long time, didn't expect was that just when she was getting up and about to get out of bed, Yang Zhen's voice came from behind her: "After all these years, you still don't have a real relationship."
Understand me. Am I such an irresponsible person in your heart? Do you think I went to bed with you just to retaliate for your choice back then? You should understand if I, Yang Zhen, am such a superficial person."
Hearing Yang Zhen's words, Li Huilan, who was about to give up completely, turned around and looked at Yang Zhen in surprise. Yang Zhen's words made her almost unable to believe her ears. Just this
Duan Xingfu came too suddenly, leaving her somewhat at a loss.
Seeing the surprised and happy expression on Li Huilan's face, Yang Zhen sighed slightly: "I still say the same thing, no matter what choice you made back then, I never hated you. Don't say we weren't married yet,
Even if you are married, you still have the right to choose the life you want."
"People always have to look forward. Since the past has passed, don't think too much about it. When I was in Wannan, I promised you that I would always protect you and take care of you in the future. I will definitely
I will never break my promise. You know my character. I will definitely do what I promised."
Hearing Yang Zhen's promise, Li Huilan turned over and pressed close to Yang Zhen's side again, listening to his heartbeat. After a long silence, she mentioned what happened back then and said, "You know why I went to you in the first place?"
When the army went to Shanghai after looking for you but not seeing you, which path did they choose to take on the Huangpu River?"
Yang Zhen didn't answer the questions raised by Li Huilan, but just listened quietly. In fact, he didn't want to know anything about the inside story of their love affair. Although he knew that Li Huilan was not the kind of vain woman, he would rather sit there at that time.
The social trend of crying on a BMW and not laughing on a bicycle makes it difficult for him to believe that people will never change.
And for Yang Zhen, he doesn't want to mention the things of the past. Because no matter what the reason was, it has passed. Since he has come to this era, he should completely integrate into this era. The things of future generations,
Some things that should be forgotten should be forgotten.
In Yang Zhen's view, there is no need to dwell on the past. But out of some concerns about Li Huilan's feelings, Yang Zhen did not say what he didn't want to hear. He just continued to choose silence. Especially here.
Under such circumstances, it was difficult for Yang Zhen to say no.
And Li Huilan, who was clinging to him like later generations, did not answer with Yang Zhen. She hugged the once-familiar body and continued: "Back then, I was not willing to break up with you. We have been together for six years, you
You know that I am not the kind of woman who is greedy for vanity."
"But I really had no choice in the face of my parents' pressure to kill me. You may not know that that person is only interested in men. He pursued me relentlessly, not really falling in love with me, just for
Marry a woman to give your family an explanation."
"As for the fact that he is gay and only likes men, his father, who is the secretary of the county party committee, should know. In fact, his father, who has a lot of mistresses, has several illegitimate children. As for whether this son can be given to him
I don't really care about carrying on the family line.
"But his father couldn't afford to embarrass this person. He was afraid that if the news about his son's homosexuality spread, it would disgrace him as the county party secretary, and even affect his career development. Especially at that time, he was in a competitive market.
He doesn't want to be caught by his political opponents regarding his position as Minister of Organization. Even if it's his family life, he doesn't want to."
"So, even if he finds a woman to support him at home, his father is willing. Anyway, he won't care about such a small amount of money for him. As for whether the marriage between that woman and his son is really happy, he doesn't care at all.
No matter what, all he cares about is his official position."
"When he saw his son pursuing me, he knew the general reason for pursuing me. But in order to cover up this matter that he thought would embarrass him if it was spread, he promised my parents that as long as I agreed to marry
Give him a son, and give my underachieving brother a job in the county government."
"Furthermore, I have been laid off for many years. Because I have no other ability, I can only rely on doing odd jobs to make a living. The little savings I have on hand are also used by me who can do nothing but eat, drink, whore, and gamble. In my twenties, I spend all day
He can also take care of his brother's squandered parents who do nothing but eat and drink with a bunch of friends."
"He can ask his subordinates to work on several municipal projects for my parents that are sure to make a profit without losing money. He also promised that for the start-up capital my parents need, he can arrange finance in the name of supporting the re-employment of laid-off workers, or in the name of
The entire project payment was paid in advance, and my parents only had to show up when the project was awarded and settled."
"After a few transactions, I guarantee that my parents will be able to earn hundreds of thousands, enough money for them to support themselves in old age and buy a big house for my brother to marry. If I can give birth to a child for their family, I will give my parents another five dollars."
One hundred thousand. He is the local emperor of our county, and what he says is not a matter of words. As long as he nods, there is nothing that cannot be done in our county."
"My parents, who have been poor all their lives, have seen such good things. Especially for my younger brother who has nothing to do all day and wanders around. Not only is he given a job, but he can also be arranged to enter an institution that others can only dream of entering.
My heart was moved at that time.”
"I disagreed with him, so he threatened me with death. My brother, who had never cared about his sister, also changed his ways all day long, and even beat him. After joining the job, he squandered almost all his salary.
My sister doesn’t even have any decent clothes, forcing me to nod.”
"Because in their eyes, you, a soldier, can't give them anything. If I married into the county party secretary's family and climbed to the top of the county party secretary's family, all the difficulties my family faces would not be a problem at all. Especially my three-generation only child, who was taken over by me.
The extremely selfish younger brother who was pampered by his parents."
"No matter what their starting point is, they are my parents who gave birth to me, raised me, and supported me through college. In the face of family affection and love, I can only choose family affection. To you, I can only say I'm sorry. Leave me.
, you may be sad, but you will persevere in the end.”
"After marrying that person, although there was no emotional basis between us and he knew clearly that I didn't love him, overall he was pretty good to me. At that time, I was completely discouraged.
I gave up and thought my life would be like this for the rest of my life."
"He has never touched me after marriage. We have been actually separated since marriage. I thought he had some psychological factors at the time. You are my first man, and you know the reason. Like him
A proud and arrogant son of an official will be so angry knowing that his wife is no longer a virgin and has had an abortion for someone else."
"Our high school classmates all knew what happened to us back then. I thought it was for this reason that he didn't touch me. But he never touched me after they got married. I was puzzled.
, I can’t help but feel lucky. At least I haven’t felt sorry for you physically. Maybe, it’s not bad to live like this for the rest of my life.”
"But it wasn't until one day when he was having an intimate relationship with a man at home that I stopped him from getting off work early because he wasn't feeling well. I didn't know that he actually liked a man. He was pursuing me just to silence his family, and more importantly, he was pursuing me.
He did it to his father, of course, to show off his abilities to you, the person who always dominated him in school, and also to get back at you."