Speaking of this, Li Huilan raised her head, looked at Yang Zhen who seemed to have listened very carefully, and breathed a sigh of relief. She was very afraid that Yang Zhen would not listen to her words. Because she knew that for Yang Zhen, that was once
The past that he least wants to mention. His change of heart back then may have hurt him even more than his mother who abandoned him back then.
But there are some things that she really wants to talk to Yang Zhen. She didn't have time to talk about it back then, and she thought she would never have the chance to talk about it. Now that she has this opportunity, she still wants to make it clear. No matter whether she and Yang Zhen are still together or not
Chances are, she doesn't want to let the past come between the two of them anymore.
Seeing that Yang Zhen didn't speak, but listened carefully, she continued confidently: "You don't know, he is our high school classmate. Although he is not in the same class, he is in the same school and grade. He is studying in school.
When he was young, his academic performance and performance in all aspects were always far behind yours. He is the son of a high-ranking official, but he is always suppressed by you, the child of a laid-off worker."
"He, the son of a dignified county magistrate at the time, was not as good as you in his academic performance, sports performance, and his performance in various competitions on behalf of the school was always not as good as yours, so he could only be the vice chairman of the student union. But you, the son of a laid-off worker, because
He has performed well and has always been the president of the student union."
"Although our student union at that time was just a rubber stamp and had no rights. But where do you want to put this tone in order to make people feel arrogant and arrogant? What's more, I, the school beauty of the high school back then, was not allowed to do anything but study by you.
Apart from his grades, he had nothing, not even his parents, and he was even more angry when he got his hands on someone who didn't even have parents."
"But he insisted on marrying me. There are certain reasons for these things, but they are not the main reasons. Do you remember when we were in high school, a boy cut his wrists and committed suicide after pursuing me. Although he did not die, he suffered from depression. Afterwards,
Was he also forced to drop out of school? Later I found out that that person had always been his crush."
"It's just that he was just secretly in love with her, and her sexual orientation is still normal. He still missed her until he graduated from college, saying that person was his first love. But because of me, he lost the opportunity to confess his love, and even more because of you.
He didn't even have a chance to meet."
"So he knew clearly that you and I were still in love, and even had some affairs, and yet he intervened and relied on his father's power to get me, just to take revenge on you for suppressing him for three whole days when you were in high school.
Nian. It was just to retaliate against you for stealing the love of his secret lover, causing him to lose the opportunity to continue to have a secret love."
"He has a deep affection for that person. Although he has never expressed it publicly, he has always believed that if it were not for me, he could at least pay attention to that person every day and have the opportunity to get close to him. He thinks that as long as he is given a certain amount of time,
He will succeed. I just didn't expect that apart from that incident, that person was forced to transfer to another school, so he didn't even have the chance to see him every day."
"Although he doesn't like me, as long as he can suppress you in any matter, he will feel extremely comfortable. As for the fact that you were admitted to Peking University because you had no money to study, and you were forced to join the army.
, he thinks he didn’t win against you in this matter. Because he only got admitted to the local provincial university, but in fact he still lost.”
"In his opinion, taking me away from you is not only revenge for the lover you hurt him back then, but also a way to suppress you. However, in addition to being too narrow-minded and too wishful thinking, he is a human being.
It's not bad. In the past few years of marriage, it has never hurt me."
When Li Huilan said this, Yang Zhen thought of a person. But he didn't know that his father, who seemed very low-key at the time, was actually the local county magistrate who was known as a scumbag. When he broke up with Li Huilan, he even
He has actually been promoted to the position of secretary of the local county party committee.
Yang Zhen didn't know that there were so many inside stories about his emotional frustration with Li Huilan. He didn't even know that that man would like a man and attribute the reason for his emotional frustration to himself. What was his sexual orientation?
Whether a man still likes women is his own business.
But because he wanted to retaliate against himself inexplicably for a relationship that was simply impossible, was he a little psychopathic? If his sexual orientation was the same as his, he wouldn't have pursued Li Huilan so hard, let alone because of that.
This incident was so sensational that he committed suicide by cutting his wrists.
"He has unrequited love, but sees himself as his enemy. It's a bit inexplicable why he takes the blame. The son of the county party secretary's family is a bull. He is so gay that he can do it so shockingly that he can find a scapegoat." Thinking of this, Yang Zhen couldn't help but feel guilty.
I touched my nose and could only smile bitterly.
After listening to Li Huilan's story, Yang Zhen turned his head and looked at his former lover, but said with some confusion: "Since he didn't force you, let alone hurt you, then why did you run to Shanghai and think of dancing?
Huangpu River? Although the current life is not what you want, at least you have not been harmed?"
"What happened to you after you jumped into the river? How did you end up in this era? I wanted to ask you this question when I was in southern Anhui. But it was a pity that I was so busy with my work at that time that I could never find the answer.
I’ll have time to talk to you alone and in detail.”
Hearing Yang Zhen mention that he ran to Shanghai to jump into the Huangpu River, Li Huilan gritted her teeth and said: "You can't say he is a bad person, but it doesn't mean that I am also a good person. His father is famous, and he married me into their family.
When I was there, I’m afraid I didn’t have any good intentions.”
"Although it was very covert about his son being gay, it was impossible for him as a father to not know about it at all. When his son first started pursuing me, he really thought that this marriage could cover up some of his son's certain aspects.
This aspect-oriented issue will provide him with further assistance in officialdom."
"But then, the way he looked at me became more and more wrong. That unabashed naked look, as if he wanted to take off my clothes. After marriage, he touched me several times, but
None of them succeeded. Until one day, his son was not at home on a business trip. He came to my place under the influence of alcohol and wanted to forcefully attack me. If his mother hadn't come later that day, I might have been really ruined by him."
"I ran away from home crying that day, but I had nowhere to go. I wanted to find you in your army, but I still couldn't see your people. If you don't see me, I can't go back to that home, and my parents' family is also gone.
They won't tolerate me, because if I really leave their home, my family will lose what they have gained now."
"At that time, I was frustrated and felt that the world was so big but there was no place for me, so I went to Shanghai. You once said something to me, saying that if one day we are old, we will go to Shanghai together and sit on the Huangpu River every day.
I’ll watch the sunrise and sunset, and when I die, I’ll be buried on the Huangpu River. Because you know, I like Shanghai.”
"That day on the bank of the Huangpu River, I drank a whole bottle of liquor and jumped into the Huangpu River. I wanted to die and escape. But I didn't expect that I didn't die, but I came to this era inexplicably. A woman came to this strange but strange place.
In these chaotic times, you also know how difficult it is to survive."
"Fortunately, I still have some jewelry and watches on me, so I pawned them for a few dozen yuan to solve the urgent need. In our time, a Belle Fida lady's watch that cost hundreds of thousands of yuan was pawned for only 30 yuan, which is equivalent to the amount of money for future generations."
The RMB is only a few thousand yuan at most. If my mother saw this, she would probably call me a prodigal."
"However, those things were all given by them anyway, and I no longer want them. If you pawn them, you can just pawn them. There is nothing to feel bad about. Although a few dozen yuan is not much, it just solves my problem.
Prices in this era were very cheap, far less expensive than those in Shanghai in later generations. With just a few dozen dollars, you could still live a good life for a while. Later, I found a job as a primary school teacher, and then I reluctantly settled down."
"Although I don't have a diploma, my level of education is what it is after all. People in this era are not like in our later generations. No matter what you do, you can't do it without a diploma. As long as you have real skills, it is easy to find a job.
.I am also a college graduate in later generations and have been a high school teacher for several years. In this era, I am still qualified to be a primary school teacher.
"I just didn't expect that just a few days after the stable life, I would encounter the Battle of Songhu, and the whole Shanghai would be in a fight. Although I am a bit cowardly, at least I still have the patriotism. Even though I knew about this battle,
The Chinese lost the battle, but as Chinese people are catching up, they must do their part. I learned some first aid knowledge in college, and I also rescued many wounded soldiers on the battlefield with the ambulance team.
"
"After the failure of the Battle of Songhu, I retreated with the rescue team all the way to Nanjing, and then to southern Anhui. It was not until I joined the New Fourth Army in southern Anhui that I finally settled down. Knowing that I could no longer go back, I gave up completely.
, want to start a new life.”
"Last year, through the help of the old political commissar, who is now the director of the military region, I got married to one of his old subordinates, a regiment-level cadre of the military department. I thought that life would be like this, but I didn't expect that I hadn't had time to spend the wedding night.
He was transferred to the front line and died in the anti-mopping battle."
"As for what happened next, you also know. I originally thought that life would go on like this without any changes. At this time, I have completely lost my thoughts about seeing you again. But I didn't expect that it would happen in a few dozen years.
Wannan and you met again years ago."
"Although your appearance changed a little at that time, it was not big. When I first met you, I just felt familiar. But your appearance has changed, but some of your inherent habits and personality cannot be changed.
In this world, I'm afraid no one knows you better than me."
"After I recognized you, I felt very confused. I didn't know if you still hated me, let alone how to get along with you. But in the confusion, I felt a little bit lucky. Maybe this was the arrangement of fate.
It is possible for you and me to meet again in this chaotic era."
"I have always been your woman, and you are my only man. This has never changed. I have never truly betrayed you, either mentally or physically. It's ridiculous to say that it's all a knot.
People who have been married twice are still guarding their first love."