When I heard her finally speaking out the words that worried me deepest in my heart, I thought I was crazy at that time. I was crazy about love. So I shook her body like crazy and hugged her tightly like crazy.
In my arms, I wish I could embed her into my body. I will never worry about her saying such words or having such thoughts again, let alone even taking a step away from me.
At that moment, I only had one thought, that is, Shangguan Feng'er, you can never leave me. Even if you die, you can only die by my side.
That day, I sacrificed the lives of dozens of people in Fengqi Palace to force her to stay. I thought I would be able to sit back and relax, but her indifference and aloofness made me unbearable. I would rather she hate me. At that time, I
I hated myself, and I thought she hated me to the core, but I was wrong again, she didn't hate me, because I had reached the point where I was not qualified for her to hate me.
I thought, just like before, as long as the storm passed, she and I would return to the same situation as before, without Li Fei or Shangguan Lafang, so I couldn't wait to solve everything immediately, so I began to work hard, regardless of my own safety.
He was busy with political affairs day and night, busy with solving Lu Ying's collusion with Chu State and Li Shiran's rebellion.
Suddenly one day she actually came to me. I was surprised, because even though I have been going to Fengqi Palace these days, she has always been cold and indifferent, and sometimes she even ignored me.
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I was still worried about what she had said about leaving. I was happy and at the same time extremely skeptical about her coming to me. However, the news that she was pregnant again and her general behavior made me uncomfortable.
Don't let me put down the doubts in my heart.
At that time, I secretly swore that I would never let her have anything to do with our child this time. I sent people to watch out for Shangguan Lafang and Luying, but I forgot to watch out for Li Fei. At that time, I felt that Li Fei was about to give birth, so I acted
It was inconvenient, and it was impossible for me to have the intention to murder her, but I was wrong again.
Concubine Li found her one day when she was watching the scenery on the Yudai Bridge in the Royal Garden, and framed her. She jumped into the lake, but that damn woman actually jumped in to save her. I really feel for her.
Her indiscriminate kindness is a headache, but fortunately she can swim.
After she was diagnosed with pregnancy that day, her attitude became vague again. Sometimes she would be very dependent on me, and sometimes she would be cold and indifferent to me. At that time, it seemed to me that she was aloof. I thought it was a woman who wanted to do something for me.
She often used tricks to attract men, but later I realized that she was wandering, wandering between staying and going.
Over the years, I have been thinking about the reason why she left me. At that time, I thought that maybe she complained that I threatened her with the life of the Fengqi palace servant to force her to stay with me. Maybe she was afraid that I loved her.
That way, so she left in the end.
But now I understand that there are only two reasons why she left me. One is because she does not want to be an obstacle to my unification of Yasi, and she is afraid that she will become an obstacle to my unification of Yan; the other is because the child in her belly wants to be better.
She left only to protect our children.
After all, the reason why she left in the end was all because of me. I failed to protect her well and give her a sense of security. Even when Li Fei framed her and pushed her into the lake, I always considered the overall situation first.
I saved Li Fei, so she didn't believe that I could protect our child, just like the first time.