Wen Nuan left for more than an hour before returning and walked into the ward with a thermos bucket in hand.
The moment he opened it, the fragrance wafted out, and Gu Yanzhi could tell that it was made by Wen Nuan himself.
Wen Wen served a bowl of porridge. The porridge was filled with stomach-nourishing ingredients and cooked according to his favorite thickness and taste.
"Yanzhi, drink some porridge."
Nuan Nuan stood beside the hospital bed, his tone was very soft, and sounded like he was trying to please.
I took a spoonful and put it to his mouth.
Gu Yanzhi hasn't looked at her since she came back.
Everything she did to him seemed like irony.
The movement of his hand was faster than reason. He raised his hand uncontrollably and waved away the warmth.
Knocked over the bowl of porridge in her hand.
Unprepared for the warmth, the freshly cooked porridge was piping hot and sprinkled all over her body and hands.
The back of my hand was visibly red.
Gu Yanzhi couldn't help but feel sad when he saw it.
Almost immediately, he reached out to grab her wrist and check her wounds.
But as soon as I took action, I thought of what she had done.
The big hand hanging aside quickly tightened, and he looked away to prevent his heartache from showing. He said in a cold voice: "Nuan Nuan, I don't need your hypocrisy."
Because of her kindness to him and her family, he had unlimited expectations in this marriage.
Let him think that she really wants to spend the rest of her life with him.
But she slapped him hard in the cruelest way to wake him up from his self-constructed dream.
A heart was torn to pieces by her.
Drenched with blood.
Nuan Nuan looked at Gu Yanzhi.
What hurts her is not the burn, but his attitude towards herself.
Silently, he put down the empty porridge bowl in his hand and went into the bathroom to clean it without leaving.
Some machines reach under the faucet.
How could she turn the situation into this? The person she least wanted to hurt was hurt like this by her.
After a while, the warmth pushed back the tears in his eyes.
After turning off the water, I was about to go out when I heard Gu's mother's voice coming from outside, "Yanzhi."
As soon as Gu's mother entered the ward and saw Gu Yanzhi lying on the bed with a haggard look on her face, her eyes quickly turned red and she stepped forward with heartbroken eyes.
Looking at her son who had toiled herself to be like this for the sake of warmth, she felt full that it was not worth it. Why bother? When she saw her son like this, she couldn't bear to blame her. She could only speak softly and care, "Is it better?"
When Nuan Nuan heard Gu's mother's voice, Nuan Nuan paused.
He opened the door anyway and called softly, "Mom."
Mother Gu heard a warm voice.
The expression on his face changes momentarily.
He looked up at Wen Nuan with a cold look on his face, "Don't call me mom, I can't bear it."
Wen Nuan lowered his head and remained silent.
I didn't know what to say for a moment.
How much she liked warmth before, now she hates it.
As long as she thought of how she had failed the Gu family and her son, she could not suppress her anger.
"Who are you showing off your grievances here? What does our Gu family owe you?"
"Isn't Yanzhi tortured enough by you? How else do you want to torture my Yanzhi?"
"Didn't I make it clear enough yesterday? Let you get out of our sight.
We, the Gu family, don’t want to see this woman like you again, don’t appear in front of us again, get out!”
There are thorns in the letters of Mother Gu.
Warm lips moved.
I want to say I'm sorry, but it won't help.
Finally, he swallowed it silently, turned to look at Gu Yanzhi, and wanted to give some advice, but when he saw his cold profile, he swallowed the bitterness in his throat and turned around to leave.
…
Gu Yanzhi stayed in the hospital for a few days.
Nuan Nuan went there every day, but Gu Yanzhi stopped paying attention to her.
He had never touched a bite of his favorite food.
On the day he was discharged from the hospital, his father and mother went to pick him up.
She didn't know what Gu Yanzhi and Gu's father and mother said. They just turned a blind eye to her and didn't say anything bad to her.
After Gu Yanzhi came back, he checked into the guest room.
He didn't talk to her, he just treated her as invisible.
No matter what she did or said, there was no response.
Mu Chenxi has been worried about Nuan Nuan since the previous phone call.
Even if Fu Yanshen arranged for her, she still couldn't let go.
She asked Fu Yanshen to organize the situation so that she could call Nuan Nuan and ask her and Gu Yanzhi to come over.
When Mu Chenxi received a call, Nuan Nuan and Gu Yanzhi had been in a cold war for three days.
This week, Nuan Nuan doesn’t know how he got through it.
She is really tired.
The moment he heard Mu Chenxi's voice, the emotions that Nuan Nuan had suppressed for several years collapsed.
"Sister Chenxi..."
I choked up as soon as I opened my mouth.
Standing on the balcony, my legs slowly slid down, and I fell to the ground, feeling completely powerless.
"Nuan Nuan, what's wrong with you?"
It had been a long time since she heard such a helpless voice from Wen Nuan.
The last time was the first time she was pregnant and I called her in panic.
Like a lost child, he called her name helplessly.
"Sister Chen Xi, I made everything so bad. I thought hiding it was the best thing for Yanzhi and my parents. They are so good to me. I just don't want to let them down."
"They all hope and expect me to be pregnant with the Gu family's child. I don't want to give them hope and let them down."
"I have thought about telling Yanzhi, but I am afraid to see his disappointed expression, and even more afraid to see his expression of pretending not to care in order not to make me feel guilty."
"When Yanzhi married me, he was the one who tolerated me all the time. I really owe Yanzhi a lot, and I really don't want Yanzhi to bear all the bitterness because of my fault."
"What I feel most guilty about in this marriage is that Yanzhi always lowers himself to dust because he loves me."
"If my heart is cruel enough, I can enjoy his efforts with peace of mind. But I can't. It hurts me to see him in pain."
"I really want to respond to him, I really want to dig Lu Jingxing out of my heart, but I can't."
"I can't control my heart. I know what Yanzhi wants. As long as I am willing to say I love him, he will stop pressing me every step of the way."
"But I can't say it. I can't lie to a man who loves me so much."
"It's my fault. I shouldn't have chosen to marry Yanzhi to protect myself and Ke Yan."
"After marriage, the better they treat me and Ke Yan, the more I feel owed. I can only work hard to be Yanzhi's wife and try to make them both happy."
"I always remind myself that I am Yanzhi's wife. I cooperate with Yanzhi to show affection because I know that if Lu Jingxing sees that I am living a happy life, he will not destroy my happiness."
"As long as he doesn't show up, Yanzhi and I can live a peaceful life together. I will be a good wife and a good daughter-in-law of the Gu family."
"But I'm not. I'm an out-and-out bad woman. I don't deserve them to treat me well."
Mu Chenxi listened to Wen Nuan's collapsed cries, and every word was filled with depression that left her unable to breathe.
"Nuan Nuan, is it because you haven't conceived a child yet? You've already taken off the ring. It's not your fault that you can't conceive a child."
Mu Chenxi remembered the longing look in Gu Yanzhi's eyes towards the child at the last party.
She thought that Nuannuan never got pregnant and the Gu family put pressure on her and crushed her.
He immediately spoke out to comfort the collapsed warmth.
At that time, Nuan Nuan and Gu Yanzhi had just gotten married.
Gu Yanzhi wanted to have a child in advance, but at that time, all conditions were not mature and Nuannuan was not ready yet.
And because she felt she owed Gu Yanzhi, she couldn't bear to refuse his coercion, so she found herself.
It was she who accompanied Nuannuan to the hospital for the ring insertion.
She understands Nuannuan.
Nuan Nuan and Gu Yanzhi's marriage is special. It is not a good time for them to have children just after getting married.
Nuan Nuan was not leaving a way out, she just wanted to give Ke Yan time to adapt to the Gu family.
I don’t want the appearance of another child to cause a psychological shadow on Ke Yan.
When she and Fu Yanshen didn't want a second child, it was because they took the young minister's feelings into consideration.
It sounds selfish, but for mothers, the little life that is yet to come is always no match for the child that has already been born.
Nuan Nuan also took this step because she was responsible for her children.
She knew that Gu Yanzhi always had a thorn in his heart because of her love for Lu Jingxing.
She didn't want to let Gu Yanzhi have his thoughts by rejecting him, so she thought of delaying it for a while in such a gentle way.
After waiting for a period of time, she finally got used to it and became pregnant again.
I just didn't expect that I still haven't gotten pregnant even though I've had the pregnancy test for a long time.
"Sister Chen Xi, no, it's not like this..."
"It's me, it's all my fault. I was careless and didn't notice that the ring was loose, which led to the pregnancy and the baby was unhealthy."
"I agreed to abort this child, but until now I have been unable to conceive another child."
The warmth completely collapsed.
Squatting on the ground, crying loudly.
She remembered that she went to get the ring, but unexpectedly found out that she was pregnant.
Before she could react, the doctor told her that she couldn't have the baby.
At that time, her brain buzzed and went blank.
At that moment, she touched her belly and felt confused.
She thought of Yanzhi and her parents' kindness to her and their expectations for their children. She really didn't know how to tell Yanzhi and her parents.
The Gu family has a child, but they can’t have it!
This is too cruel for Yanzhi and his parents.
The only thing she could think of was to hide it first and then work hard to get pregnant as soon as possible.
But she didn't expect that after taking away the child, she would never be able to conceive another child.
As time passed day by day, she didn't say anything at first, but later she didn't have the courage to speak.
She blames herself very much.
Very guilty.
From the moment she lay on the operating table and removed the child, her heart was filled with regret.
There are all kinds of reasons that cannot be changed because of her.
She is a sinner.
She owed the Gu family.
One wrong step, one wrong step after another, turned the situation into what it is today.
The phone fell from his hand, Nuan Nuan collapsed and burst into tears.
She was so immersed in grief and collapse that she didn't realize that Gu Yanzhi had returned early.
He stood at the door for who knows how long.
Just quietly looking at the woman crying bitterly not far away.
The woman he loved to his core.
My heart felt like there was a big hole in it.
A cold wind blew in, chilling my bones.
"Nuan Nuan?"
Mu Chenxi, who was on the other side of the phone, heard Wen Nuan crying, got up worriedly, called Wen Wen's name, and walked out.
She is going to find Nuannuan.
Nuan Nuan, who was out of control, heard Mu Chenxi's worried voice and reached out to touch the phone with blurred eyes.
Not touching it, I raised my head from my knees.
Only then did he discover Gu Yanzhi's existence.
She quickly turned her head and looked at Gu Yanzhi at the door in panic.
Eyes full of panic.
She didn't know how much Yanzhi had heard of what she just said to Sister Chen Xi.
He would be even sadder if he knew that the child was missing because she secretly had the ring.
His lips moved and he murmured hoarsely: "Yanzhi..."
Mu Chenxi had already reached the downstairs of the company and stopped when she heard Nuan Nuan calling Gu Yanzhi.
Finally, he hung up the phone silently.
I didn't listen to the subsequent words between the couple, but I didn't trust the warmth either.
After calling Fu Yanshen and saying that he was looking for Nuan Nuan, he drove to look for Nuan Nuan.
…
When Gu Yanzhi looked at him in Nuan Nuan, he calmly walked towards her.
He took one step at a time to close the distance, and he didn't stop until he reached her side, and slowly squatted down to be at eye level with her.
Seeing the tears streaming down his face, he didn't hug her into his arms as soon as he saw her tears like before. He just looked at her as if he wanted to see through her.
The two looked at each other quietly.
Warm tears couldn't stop flowing down.
After a long time, Gu Yanzhi raised his hand to hold Nuan's face, and gently wiped away the tears on her face with his fingertips.
His movements were as gentle as ever.
It was as if he hadn't heard anything just now.
There has never been any conflict between them.
He is still the same him, the man who loves her to the core.
But Nuan Nuan knows that it is not the case anymore.
His expression was so difficult to understand that she couldn't figure it out.
The gate in my heart opened, and I could no longer control my tears.
More tears rolled out of my eyes, and there were more and more warm tears.
The person she couldn't bear to hurt the most was Yanzhi.
But in the end, the person who hurt him the most was her.
When Gu Yanzhi's hands were soaked with her tears, he stopped wiping away his tears.
He just held his warm face and looked at her.
"Yanzhi..."
Nuan Nuan's lips trembled slightly. She didn't know if Yanzhi heard it, and she didn't know if she should use this to tell him the truth about her taking away the child.
Stab him again.
she……
"I heard everything I needed to hear."
Gu Yanzhi's voice was very soft, like a lover's whisper, and he looked at her and whispered softly.
Nuan Nuan's eyes were full of panic.
For a moment, she didn't know what to say.
The only thing I can say is sorry are the three words Yanzhi least wants to hear.
His lips moved for a long time, but he didn't say a word.
Gu Yanzhi looked at Wen Nuan with deep eyes and sighed silently.
That sigh was like a heavy hammer hitting Nuan Nuan's heart.
Her heart was aching dully.
Seeing that she was about to speak, Gu Yanzhi put his finger on her lips and said softly, "Nuan Nuan, if I hadn't accidentally heard you and Mu Chenxi talking today, would you have planned to hide the truth of this matter from me for the rest of your life?
"
"Even if I want to divorce you because of this matter, are you not going to say it?"
Warm lips trembled even more.
With just a slight expression, Gu Yanzhi seemed to be right.
Sometimes he wished he didn't know warmth so well.
If he didn't understand her, he could pretend not to see her, and he could deceive himself and convince himself that Lu Jingxing was no longer in Nuan Nuan's heart and that Nuan Nuan had fallen in love with him.
But, there is no if.
The bitterness in Gu Yanzhi's heart spread infinitely, and he still couldn't help his eyes turning red as he looked at the woman he loved so much in front of him.
Just like her, he told her what he had hidden deep in his heart.
"Nuan Nuan, do you know? I just stood outside the door and heard what you just said, and I suddenly felt like a failure."
"I failed so much that my wife didn't want to get pregnant but she was too careful not to tell her husband. Instead, she chose to go and get pregnant secretly."
"Nuan Nuan, even if I want to tie you up with a child again, and I force you again, as long as you insist that you don't want to, I will still back down."
"That child of ours..."
Gu Yanzhi's voice was choked with sobs.
He pursed his lips, suppressed his heartache and continued: "The doctor found out that she is not healthy, so we can't have her. My parents and I will be really sad and sad when we find out."
"My parents may blame you if they know the reason, but I won't. We are husband and wife. I am your husband. I want to be the person you rely on. I will protect you."
"No matter what happens, I will bear the ups and downs with you.
I will convince my parents to be considerate, and I will tell them that you did this because I forced you and you couldn't bear to disappoint me.
I won't let you bear it alone, but why did you first choose to bear it alone when it happened?"
"When can you truly regard me as your husband and your support?
Really recognize that we are one, and not just a shield for you to avoid Lu Jingxing to protect Ke Yan."
It's not that he doesn't know the reason why Wen Nuan chose to marry him.
Lu Jingxing didn't get divorced at first, but he was still entangled with her.
Wen Nuan was afraid that he would make mistakes and be implicated beyond words, so he chose to marry him.
Her fear and worry was simply that she loved Lu Jingxing too much and was afraid that if she couldn't resist his entanglement, she would go astray and become a mistress that everyone yelled at, so she would have the next best option of marrying him.
After making the choice, she felt she owed him.
So, I don’t want to owe more.
But if the relationship between husband and wife is so clear-cut, are they still husband and wife?
"Warm, do you know how much I love you?"
"When I found out that you secretly took away my child, I was angry, angry, disappointed, and heartbroken, but even so, I never thought about divorcing you.
I can't bear to divorce you."
"But I'm so sad and heartbroken, I don't know how to face you.
I think we should calm down first, and I will definitely come up with a solution that can turn this matter around and allow us to continue on."
"But--"
"Nuan Nuan, I suddenly feel so tired. I have loved you for so many years, but you have never given me even the most basic trust between husband and wife."
"You really broke my heart this time."
Knowing that she chose someone to carry a secret, he felt mixed feelings in his heart.
Husband and wife should be one.
But she never seemed to regard him as a community member.
She was too considerate of him and was cautious in everything.
They are treating him as an outsider, afraid of this, afraid of that, and afraid of trouble him.
She was making up for him more.
He worked hard for many years, but in vain.
Gu Yanzhi slowly retracted his hand and stood up slowly.
Looking at Wen Nuan as he stood up and raised his head to look at him, he raised a bitter smile on his lips and asked her softly, "Wen Nuan, if it were Lu Jingxing, would you tell him if this happened?"