He called me Lan, and his voice was gentle and clear. I got lost in his deep eyes, like a bird lost in the embrace of the blue sky, and could no longer escape.
I looked at his smile, which was clean and clear. There was a childish smile on the slightly raised corners of his lips. Blue, blue... He whispered in my ears, and in a daze, I felt like I had seen the boy again.
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The geese flying south pass over the floating sky of the ancient town, and the reeds gradually reincarnate on the earth.
I saw him standing under the ancient pagoda, smiling at me from a distance, his vague smile like a dense cloud of smoke.
As a young man at that time, he lowered his head and smiled under the gardenia. The falling petals carved his sad face in the wind.
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Many years later, when I once again stood on the ancient crumbling city wall, looking down at the ancient town spreading beneath my feet, the tide of memory once again surged across my desolate embankment, rushing in and passing through the vast passage.
However, I can still feel that the memory of the ancient town is passing away bit by bit. One day, it will be stripped away from my life and disappear in the immersion of time.
And your smile will not be able to pass through the barrier of time and fade from my memory?
Hello, hello, my name is Shui Xin.
At that time, I turned around and looked for that hoarse voice.
The setting sun covered his body with golden rays, and his thin shoulders shrank infinitely in the autumn wind. I saw his fingertips shaking due to nervousness, and a layer of fine beads of sweat formed on the tip of his nose.
Only those brown eyes kept me from swimming even after many years.
There was a lonely smile on his face, and brown juice flowed silently in his eyes. The wind passed by without a trace, but my heart was scratched at that moment, leaving an indelible mark.
So, I heard one world collapse in my mind, while another world roared to land, joint, and grow.
My name is Lan. I carry the setting sun on my back and sway in the direction of the autumn wind.
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My name is Blue. I like all blue substances. I am paranoid and crazy, just like Count Dracula's taste for blood.
I have forgotten when I started to have this hobby. Maybe it came to me the moment I was born. I have a splitting headache and I can't trace its origin.
My ancient town spends its old age in loneliness under those gradually growing reeds. The ups and downs of my youth also passed over it, leaving behind some indifferent thoughts.
I once thought that maybe one day I would leave with a bang, without any hesitation, and never be imprisoned by it again.
However, when I once again walked on the moss-covered streets of the town, my heart was gently entangled with an inexplicable sadness. There were memories that I was very familiar with in that breath, and I took them with me far and wide.
Far away, but when I looked back again, they still stayed there. He smiled at me, his smile was vague and ambiguous... On campus, under the ancient tower, under the gardenia outside the attic...
I always want to forget, forget everything about that summer, but Shui Xin. I can't forget it. You finally traveled through time and space, and you are always by my side.
I began to hate the taste of soda water, the summer after you and I were put aside by that white list.
In the face of a sudden disaster, you left, and I once again had to face a more terrifying loneliness than before, and became more stubborn and autistic. If possible, I hope that you have never appeared in my life. Like that
, maybe my life will not have such a painful scar.
But Shui Xin, they have all happened, I can't avoid them, and you can't forget them in another world.
I walked to this old hospital again. It has a church-like building. Perhaps its youth was spent in the worship of everyone. However, the years have long since changed it. Its youth has gone, and its glory has gone.
Also passing away.
I stared at it from a distance, and the white walls made my heart twitch involuntarily. But Shuixin, how much I loved the smell of soda water, left our joy in this hospital.
It was a cold winter, but I couldn't go to school and could only stay in the empty hospital.
But Shuixin, how I longed to return to my blue-covered hut as soon as possible. And you seemed to have learned something from my long sadness. So, you spent three days in my ward.
It was filled with blue paper cranes and two pots of blue irises. So, that winter, my ward was filled with warm singing.
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Shui Xin, do you still remember the gardenia tree outside my attic?
You always stand under it and call my name softly. Blue, blue...
So I poked my head out from the attic and saw your vague, irreducible smile. At that time, I was so happy, and stubbornly believed that such days would last forever.
Also, Shuixin, the breath we left behind under the ancient tower in the town.
I thought that the gods in the ancient tower prison would witness our feelings and bless us to stay together forever. However, the White Lady finally became married to Xu Xian, and what about us?
I have been away from the ancient town for so many years, who still remembers that girl who once liked a blue dress? They have all forgotten that when I faced them again, I passed by them like a stranger.
And what did the car accident many years ago leave in their minds?
I can no longer find your grave. In the ancient town, more and more deaths have caused the area of the grave to expand rapidly. And your parents, after you left, walked to another world with endless grief.
On campus, I can no longer find the old locust tree that we once left under for countless days. The playground in the past has long been turned into a teaching building, and the place where the old locust tree grew has become a canteen.
Shui Xin, I can never find you again. Even if I miss you in this ancient town for a thousand years, can I wait for you to come back for a thousand years?
If possible, Shui Xin, I am willing to wait for you for ten thousand years, as long as we can meet again.
But fate is always playing tricks on me.
When I was wearing a blue cotton skirt, sitting on the balcony of the second floor, reading a book in the fading sunlight, I heard the sound from downstairs below.
Blue, blue...that was a sound that I was very familiar with. Shui Xin, at that moment, I thought you had come to my side again. However, when I discovered that it was not you downstairs, my heart was filled with infinite regret.
However, when that child raised his head, I found that he actually had the same deep brown eyes as you. At that moment, I lost myself again.
My name is Shuimu. He shouted to me, and then hurried away. In a hurry, he tripped over a stone and fell to the ground. My heart suddenly ached, Shuixin, his back is so similar to yours.
At that time, I thought you really came to me, in another way.
However, the sisters in my dormitory told me that he comes from the far north. He is a tall northern man who plays basketball very well.
But Shui Xin, how could I believe them? I stubbornly thought he was you, and you came to my side again.
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He is so similar to you. He gave me a blue notebook, bought me chocolates with blue packaging, and gave me blue roses...
Shui Xin, every time I'm with him, I think I'm with you.
I want to tell him about you, but the words can't come out of my mouth. I want to keep going like this until one day when our hair is gray, I will tell him, tell him everything and everything about us.
But Shui Xin, I am so careless that I always call your name in my dreams, but I don't know it.
Shuimu has always known this, but he doesn't know who the man named Shui Xin is. He has been patient, hoping that I can give him the answer one day, but he does not believe that I am deceiving him, and he has never believed it.
But my silence ultimately hurt him.
The illness came very quickly that time. In the hospital, I had a high fever. Shuimu stayed with me all the time, but I called your name in a coma. And how could he bear such pain.
So, when I was awake, I saw him in a ward. Due to a violent impact while playing basketball, he fell to the ground and injured his knee. His leg was in a plaster, but his face was turned to the other side.
Later, the sisters in my dormitory said that when I was in a coma, he had been watching me from the hospital bed, and only turned around when I woke up. And the bouquet of blue irises that the sisters sent was also from him.
requirements.
Shui Xin, it was then that I discovered that you are so similar.
And I began to really like him, no longer like before. He is him, and you are you. After all, you are two independent men that I have loved.
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On the day Shuimu was discharged from the hospital, I gave him a notebook. Everything about Shui Xin and me was written in it. I saw Shuimu smiling happily after seeing that, because I wrote at the end: Shui Xin, everything in the past
Everything has passed, and now I have fallen in love with another man. His name is Shuimu. I hope you can bless us in heaven, and wish us to stay together and love each other until we grow old.
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When I finished writing this, I heard a gentle and clear voice coming from my ears, blue, blue...
I turned my head and saw Mizuki holding a cup of coffee in his hand, smiling ambiguously.